Dont It Always Seem to go, That you dont Know What you got till its Gone

The Day I Thought I Was Going to Die Evan R. Tanguy Eng. 101 1388 Tuesday, October 11, 2005 1 I woke up the morning of December 28th, 2003 cringing from the metallic taste in my mouth from my bloody and swollen lips. It also could have been the loud buzz in my ear or the excruciating pain from the cuts on my cheeks that woke me up at seven o’clock that morning. Then again I didn’t get much sleep last night and when I did, I was having violent nightmares. For some strange reason I wanted a puff off of a cigarette and I don’t even smoke. The first thing I did once I got out of bed was pop two 550mg’s of Vicodin that the generous doctor gave me to ease the pain all over my sore body. The ironic part was that I looked worse then I felt, and I felt like I had the front of my face smashed by a hammer. While I waited for the Vicodin to kick in, I reminisced about the previous day and the car accident that I was in that would turn out to be the scariest and most anxiety filled day of my life! I remembered every scary detail so vividly... It started December 27th, 2003, early Saturday morning; I woke up and began to pack all of my clothes I had brought on my Christmas Vacation to my hometown of College Station, Texas. I was excited and eager to travel back home to Arizona to see all my friends, especially since New Years was 4 days away. The problem was in the pit of my stomach, I had a painful knot and I felt really uneasy to be traveling, I just sensed something was wrong. The drive to the Austin Airport is always about 2 hours of a drive from College Station. So as always my zany aunt Morsh was going to drive an hour and my mom was going to drive an hour, they would switch at the halfway point which was a gas station in the middle of nowhere. After an hour of cows, trees, and nothingness into our drive we made our halfway stop. I got an ice cold Dr.Pepper and a bag of Nacho Cheese Doritos, and when I went back outside the sky was overcast with big, puffy, black and gray clouds moving towards us from the direction of the airport. As I waited for my family outside, a few large raindrops hit the top of my head which just increased my concern. I couldn’t tell if the uncomfortable pain in my stomach was from the anxiety of that anticipated feeling of doom in my gut or the predictable malady of getting sick in the backseat of the car…The winding roads…The heater blowing…The lack of fresh air… and the chatter of idle conversation. As my mother took the wheel for the last leg of the excursion, it was unanimously agreed that I should move to the passenger seat next to my mother. Roadside snacks had been bought and the sound of all the seat belts buckling into place was heard… well except mine that is. As we got going on the wide 2 open road, all I thought about was how I didn’t want to die which made my thoughts shift to all the fun things I haven’t done in life and all the important people that I love in my life. In the span of thirty short minutes, the rain went from slowly trickling down to heavily pouring on us but then went back to trickling. The results of sitting in the passenger seat had my twisted stomach feeling better and calming down, but deep down the aura of the situation just didn’t feel secure. I wanted so badly to tell my family I didn’t feel safe driving on the road when the roads were as wet and slippery as they were. I knew though that we had a flight to catch and why would they of listened to me anyways when I only had I hunch and I could just be overreacting because I’ve never liked riding in cars. My mom told me to put my seat belt on which I found ironic that I had forgotten to because of all my worrying and nervousness. I snapped my seat belt into place which allowed me to feel better about my fears of death and considering we were out of the boring bland cow city and were surrounded by tall midnight green trees, things were slowly getting better. Especially since we were about 20 minutes away from being safe and getting ready to board a plane headed to Phoenix, Arizona. Along with the scenery change the roads went from long straight lines to a fun winding and hilly passageway. The rain continued to come down, but it was only light sprinkles, the passing headlights reminded me of the Christmas lights at my grandmothers I admired so much on Christmas Day. Unfortunately as the rain stopped and we headed around a bend, my earlier anxieties began to transpire. As we headed around this wide bend, time and everyone around me literally stopped like a slow motion scene in an action movie. I noticed everything around me…My aunt reading her chicken soup for the soul…my grandmother sleeping… my mom pressing down on the gas to pass the huge off-white RV in front of us. I didn’t know what was happening or why I felt like time was slowing down but before I knew it I felt sick to my stomach and fear was running through my veins. I told my mom to slow down, but she insisted that we pass the huge RV so we weren’t stuck behind it. Even though everything was going so slowly, I had a million thoughts running through my head, mainly wondering what the hell was going on! As we zoomed pass the RV pulling back into our lane ahead of it, we began to go downhill of a steep slope at 35 miles per hour. The greenery surrounding us vanished a quarter of the way down as we were approaching a large four way intersection with one car waiting at the red-light in our lane. two 3 seconds later and halfway down the hill, all of the pain, fear, anxiety, stress, and worrying through the day clicked at this one fearful moment. I heard the pump of the brakes hit the floorboard, so then I turned to my mother and heard the pump of the brakes again hit the floorboard. All I could do was shout at her to press the brakes. As my grandmother awoke from my shouting the only thing my aunt could do was yell at my mom to stop because she realized the predicament that we were in. When I turned forward to see that our car was five yards away from the old Lincoln town car that was waiting at the red-light, I braced my self as best as I could when I saw my life flash in front of my eyes. I felt every happy moment go through my heart as I was about to die, when I was awoken from the loudest and most ear wrenching noise I’ve heard in my whole entire life: The sound of metal colliding, crashing into each other, smashing against one another making a loud screeching boom. The sound may have only lasted for two seconds but it would be imbedded in my head for the next three days. The only thing that stopped the pain from the sound of two cars colliding was the pain from the cars airbag shooting out and smashing my face at an insane 200 miles per hour. Of course, at that point, everything snapped into regular time and I didn’t know what had happened to me. At first I was happy to be alive but as the pain ran from my bloody nose to my smashed lips, and faded into my scraped chest, I questioned my destiny. All that popped into my hectic mind was that if we sped up to pass an RV that logic says that it would smash into us from behind just like we had done to the Lincoln. I didn’t know how the rest of my family was doing because the smoke from the car and the powder from the airbag clouded the car to make it Impossible to see anything. In the Panic of being crushed from behind, I opened the car door and rushed out into the middle of the roads we were on. Running away from the car I was in throbbing pain but I stopped in the middle of the street so I could look back at our car to see if my family had gotten out. As I turned around all of my family was yelling at me to get out of the middle of the road before I could have gotten run over. I scurried to the side of the road to this ditch that was covered in dying yellowish green grass. My family was yelling from across the road to see if I was ok, I heard my aunt mention that she saw me bleeding from my mouth. At the same time I noticed I could taste my own blood, so I opened my mouth and put my fingers in as I made a wiping motion with my index and middle finger, my two fingers were covered in blood, and that’s when I fell to the ground in the pain that I thought my face might be scarred forever. Turns out that no one else in the car was injured and as scared as I was, it turns out that the accident wasn’t all that bad in terms of damage. Thanks to modern technology the airbag shot out at an unbelievable rate of speed, struck my face and busted my nose, lips, and mouth wide open…thus the large amounts of blood. My cheeks and forehead had scrapes and cuts on them, and my lips were three times there normal size because of the impact. Any area that the airbag struck was injured in some shape or form, which anyone could tell because of my mangled and scarred face. Not only did I have wounds on the outside but I was stuck with a loud buzzing noise in my ear for three days because of the loud crash of the cars colliding. No one involved in the accident could understand the pain I was in because nobody else was injured from the accident. They didn’t know the fear of never looking the same again or the massive headaches I received just from using my mouth and lips to have a conversation with someone. As I woke up in a hospital bed, the bright sterile lights shined in my eyes and when I flinched quickly to get away from the light, I remembered just why I was in the hospital. Even from the everyday act of flinching I received agonizing pain that stretched through my face. I was glad to come out of the car accident alive, but I was more thankful that the most stressful and anxiety filled day in my life had come to an end. I went back to my grandmother’s house because we had missed our flight and the first thing I did once we were home was head straight to my soft and comfortable bed and let my eyes shut to the warm smell of vanilla candles in the air… Peace at last.

Well Prom is coming up and it should be a blast! theres been some turmoil with me and my gf did sumthing stupid plus other things! BTW i have a new gf... Kevyn, shes amazing and no one for some reason can believe i got her. EVAN TANGUY??? anyways... its really sad cuz im happy with her but shes leaving me a couple of days after graduation! so im trying to get closer to my friends such as katie and kaylee and even scott and steve juss cuz i want to have fun with all of them this summer cuz i dunno if ill ever see them again or ill know them when my life is as good as it is now! I truly cherish every moment with my gf cuz i know i wont have another girl as good as her or at all for a long long time... cuz girls dont see me like that! although if they knew me truly... ive made kevyn Choclate covered strawberrys, made her a poster with candy bars, flowers twice for no reason, and im about to give her a prom invitation that many would be jealous over. But everyone thinks im juss some dick boyfriend thatd be horrible! well that sucks for me and its gonne suck once summer comes! I juss want to say not only do i cherish her but i cherish every moment of high school cuz itll never be this easy or good for me! Scott- WOW you have been there for me hardcore! it makes me choke up juss talking about how amazing of a friend u r, cuz i feel bad almost because u r the perfect friend and its like WOW i wish i could be like that for him! i wish every guy had a friend like you... and some do but thanks for always being there for me! Steve- Ur always there by my side sticking up for me and making me laugh! and i juss want to let u know i dont take u for granted cuz i know there arent many people out there like you, and im glad to have u as a friend all these years and hopefully many more! Kevyn- although she wont read this... she has absolutly been great for me! and shes not into me as much as im into her but theres reason behind it. i juss dont think she truly knows what she means to me even tho i tell her! Katie- I honestly hope we can stay claose friends some how... and i hope we hang out more, like this summer! Ur an amazing woman, and getting to know u from the very beggining has been good, ur a really good person inside, and i hope we can hang more often as college comes. Kay- We argue way to much... but i love arguing :)... ur the female version of me... WHat more could u ask for? hahaha! im happy for u and Adam and its been really great being friends with you all this time! Please lets try to be friends in college too... theres no reason not to! Laila- weve had ruff times and good times. i mean this from the bottom of my heart... IM Happy Your with scott!!! I truly am, cuz u make him happy, very happy, and he makes you happy! Im a little jealous obviously, and the LEASH jokes never get old lol, but uve made him a better person and thats always good! Sorry i havent updated sooner but "Myspace" craze keeps me busy... go to http://www.myspace.com/etang650 and click more pictures and u can see a few pictures from my birthday party! Anyways im off -Ev

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If I Had What is life? Life is like a big obstacle Put in front of your optical to slow you down And everytime you think you gotten past it It's gonna come back around and tackle you to the damn ground What are friends? Friends are people that you think are your friends But they really your enemies, with secret indentities And disguises, to hide there true colors So just when you think you close enough to be brothers They wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin What is money? Money is what makes a man act funny Money is the root of all evil Money'll make them same friends come back around Swearing that they was always down What is life? I'm tired of life I'm tired of backstabbing a** snakes with friendly grins I'm tired of committing so many sins Tired of always giving in when this bottle of henny wins Tired of never having any ends Tired of having skinny friends hooked on crack and mini-thins I'm tired of this dj playing your s*** when he spins Tired of not having a deal Tired of having to deal with the bull**** without grabbing the steel Tired of drowning in my sorrow Tired of having to borrow a dollar for gas to start my monte carlo I'm tired of mother******* spraying s*** and dartin off I'm tired of jobs startin off at five fifty an hour Then this boss wanders why i'm smartin off I'm tired of being fired everytime i fart and cough Tired of having to work as a gas station clerk For this jerk breathing down my neck driving me bezerk I'm tired of using plastic silverware Tired of working in building square Tired of not being a millionaire

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