Last night, in my dream, Josh proposed to me. When he gave me the ring though, oh man, it was made out of like dried corn husk with these weird rock like stones on top, but a couple of the stones were missing. I was ever so pissed!

I can't help but feel like my life is in a rut right now. I'm so over this phase of my life and ready to move onto the next. I just want Josh to be able to find a nice job, for me to graduate and to be able to move closer to our families so I have someone to talk to about life. In school news, the semester should be interesting. Child Welfare and Family Studies classes and Health & Mental Health Studies classes, how depressing yet intriguing.

Alright, I've changed my mind about my education again. Big surprise, huh? Sadly, I am not going to go to England next year. It our money wasn't crap over there right now, then maybe I would consider it more, but I think that it will just turn into a very very expensive semester abroad. But I will get over there eventually. In the meantime, I have changed my major concentration. I am no longer going to go through the Teacher's Certification for Childhood Studies. I decided last week that I don't think I want to be a teacher in a public school, at least not at this time. If I change my mind down the road, I can easily go back to school for it, but it's not what I want for my life right now. The classes are suppose to be brutal for it, and I'm running out of energy and ambition when it comes to school. So, instead, for my senior year I'm going to get a minor in Child Welfare and Family Services (Social Work). From what I've heard from other people in the minor, the classes and teachers are great, they're interesting and you feel like you've actually learned something coming out of them. Now, Robert and I are trying to get Josh to go to culinary arts school. It's expensive, but I think it would be great for him. He's never going to be able to get into anything with his meteorology degree around here, and he loves cooking. We (all three of us) want to open a restaurant, family style. Josh as executive chef, robert as manager, and me as upfront person/waitress person. It doesn't really help though that none of us have degrees in anything to do with restaurants. So, new dream, prolly won't happen.

I think I may have figured out a way to structure the rest of my learning, so that I can go to England. Since I'm suppose to be starting the first of my two "cluster" courses in the Education Dept. next semester, and I don't think I can do the first cluster, then take off a semester, then come back and take the other cluster, I thought maybe I'll do a minor! Doesn't hurt to have something to fall back on, and hey, I wouldn't mind being an English teacher in a high school at some point, if need be, so I think I found that I could easily do a Literature Minor. I could start next semester, taking a couple of literature courses and whatever general education classes I have left, then go to England and take some more literature classes because they have some that are exactly the same as ones I'd have to do here! SO, I'm leaning more towards going even more.

So, England for Spring 2009? Granted, I've only given it a day of thought, and I have until September to decide, but this is sort of a hard decision. Let's do a pros and cons list. Pros - Getting out of the US - Having a whole month off to explore Europe - Actually having a chance to make friends (apparently they love Americans?) - The classes/workload is suppose to be sooo much easier than here at PSU - Having Mariah and Josh possibly visit me during that month off - Getting to buy a new laptop (hah) Cons - Being away from Josh for 4 months - Being away from muh boys and muh family for 4 months - The plane ride - Being by myself, since I don't actually know anyone at Plymouth let alone someone who would also be going - The cost of traveling Those are all I've come up with so far. I'm just not sure if I want to go for the sheer reason of getting out of the US and getting to travel, or if I actually want to go for school/studying. It will screw up my studies here completly, since that semester I would be in my second clusters (certain courses I have to take for education). I do have a couple extra gen eds I have to take... I guess I'm look at it just from it being a great experience sort of light. Like meeting people, seeing great places (Stonehenge! The bench at Oxford from His Dark Materials! Other countries!).