this mornin i got woken up by my mom gettin ready for work & the kitten Miah rubbin up against me..my mom had to leave & i had to catch miah & put her baq in her room..that proved to be nearly impossible..she kept runnin under the bed..i finally got her tho..that woke me up i cudn*T go baq to sleep..so instead i watched tv.. i started watchin this movie LadyBugs..ther was this boy in it..he was really cute..he was lyke 16 in it..i mean his face had lyke perfect structure, his eyes wer a very bright blue & he was just down ryte gorgeous..so when the credits came up..his name was Jonathan Brandis..so i decided to come on the computer to ind a few pix of him..turns out.. he commited suicide last year.. wut?! i mean he must hav had his problems but..y?! he was 27 i believe on Nov. 12, 2003..that is so upsetting.. i can*T get the pic of him to upload..but maybe search him newayz..i thynk i*m just about better now.. Lemme tell yu about the weekend.. fri & sat i hung out wit my cuzin Sia & her bf & best friend>>Frankie & Michelle Sat i stayed up on the computer talkin to Alex into Sunday..from lyke 9pm ish to 6:27 am LOL!..long tyme i kno but it was worth it! Sun my dad picked me up & took me to his house & me, Thomas, & Amber walked around the neighborhood till 10 pm & ther was this guy & he was askin my name (Thomas says he was hittin on me but i don*T kno) & he was askin if i had ne moves & if i was a cheerleader & stuff then he shook my hand & sayd \'ur hands r very smooth, thats gangsta\' LOL! i was lyke thanx? haha it was funny tho..we wer watchin fireworks ppl wer settin off THEN! when we wer goin baq to the house!! i fell! LOL! & which is evn more upsettin i ripped a lil hole in the knee of my pants! that i payed for! myself! wit my own money! wut?! we went home & told my dad Thomas pushed me then while he was gettin in trouble we started laffin & told my dad it was a joke haha! but i was bleedin on my elbow..eww i forget wut i was thynkin.. oh..i*m a very confused child lolz..ok so i*m a lil bit torn ryte now..this kid really lykes me..lets call him *B-..he goes to my skool..i mean *B- lyke loves me i really lyke him too..but then i wanna meet another kid *A- he doesn*T go to my skool but hes friends wit 1nna my friends who don*T liv round me but *A- livs lyke 5 min from wher i go evry otha weekend to stay for the whole weekend..i*m gonna meet him but i*m scared that i myte lyke him..then who do i choose?! now this guy i almost went out wit *L- lykes me still i found out..iono he had his chance tho..i don*T kno that i really lyke him nemore..i doubt i*ll go out wit him plus i kinda can*T cuz hes 18..so its wuteva..he just wanna get wit me..he says he wanna go out wit me but i thynk he just wanna fuck me..i kno that wut he want so i ain*T gon giv it to him sry!..haha i luv bein me sumtymez! lol ehh i thynk ima go now..Byn0n myte come ovr i gotta figure out plans for the day now that i*m better! hehe LuV aLwayZ,

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