uh...flavored coffee beans isn't a type of music, but an ad that was at the top of my diary thing...sorry if i misled you. vacation is ovvvvveerrrrrr :(. but it's okay because school is almost ovvvvverrrrr too (it's all ovvvverrrr!!!) went to florida. it was awesome. came home. it was not awesome. l-l-l-love. annika aren't coffee beans flavored anyway?

One Art Elizabeth Bishop The art of losing isn't hard to master; so many things seem filled with the intent to be lost that their loss is no disaster. Lose something every day. Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent. The art of losing isn't hard to master. Then practice losing farther, losing faster: places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel. None of these will bring disaster. I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or next-to-last, of three loved houses went. The art of losing isn't hard to master. I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent. I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster. --Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

vacation is almost over. bummer. birthday in 3 days though, so that's fun. love, annika

joaquin phoenix used to be called leaf. his sisters were called summer, liberty and rainbow. his brother's name was river. just thought i should share.

is it possible to be friends with people who don't like each other? love, for both of you, annika

weekends are the worst time to get sick, if you think about it. slept all of saturday, watched L&O SVU and then some Olympics... Nina came home, that was fun. love, annika

if anyone has seen Meda, my dog, please, please please call/tell me. she's been missing since thursday. Her coat is brown, black and tan, she has one eye and is deaf and blind. friday was just not a good day. love, but only for meda today, annika

i love going to art class. its so great to have your teacher actually help you with your art and not shooting it down and saying that it's crap. love, annika

i dont know what lackadaisical means, but it sounded cool. boston this weekend....mrp. love, annika

vu choreography weekend is done. i was realy frustrated today and said some things i shouldnt have, and i regret them too, i think it was just me being stupid. running through the show completely really put a lot of things together, and i think the choreography is fun, but it took a lot of me being stupid to get to that conclusion so...yay. drammmmmaaaaaaaa next week! yayayaya! im not auditioning. im gonna do student director stuff... good night love, annika

bio tomorrow. eeeek ae.

hmm...i cant wait for: next week (vu choreography...yess) drama to start up again (2 weeks) february! (birthday time!) february 21st (release date) april vacation june so many things are happening this spring. whoa now. hmm...i changed my color-scheme...not that you haven't noticed. love, annika

christmas was good. the rest of the vacation wasnt. hmm...only like, what? 6 weeks until the next one, right? love annika

question: can i go? am i in? how much longer? are they going to take me? am i good enough? is this it? answer: i dont know. i feel really distant with everyone right now and i dont know how to make that feeling obsolete. nina comes home on friday. im excited. christmas is in twelve days. i have to decide the next 5 years of my life by february. and the crazy thing is...im not even certain that the thing im planning for is even going to happen. damn. ps: stop singing the songs. just stop. you have no idea what they are about and what it really means. and just because it's something you saw once and thought was cool, doesnt mean you're a bohemian now. stop. please. yay house is on tonight.

i think that they ment it when they said you can't buy love now i know you can rent it a new lease you are, my love my life, be my life. oh lover i'll cover you. ae.

ergh. i just want to go. love, annika

so ive been thinking a lot about next year and graduating early and all that. i just feel like if i make young americans, i dont want to be here any longer. and not because i want out of my school, or my house, or away from my friends, i just want...to perform. its so important to me to perform for people and making them happy through music. it's so satisfying when someone smiles and you know you put that smile on their face. spread music spread love annika

so because of a certain school we can't do lion king in show choir, but its okay because the show we picked is kickass and i have a realllllly good feeling about it. play is going well, i designed three of the costumes for it so that's exiting. i auditioned for young americans (www.youngamericans.org) but i wont find out until next year if i made it or not. hmm... love, annika

give love share love spread love annika

i think this week has really shown us that we should live life to the fullest, as corny as that may sound... i hate it when people say that so and so is "in a better place now". how do they know? what if the best place for someone to be was right here, with everyone who loved and appreciated them? and please, i dont mean to offend those of you who are religious, i didnt mean to offend any religious groups with that statement. it's just so messed up when people die. and the death of the student killed everyone inside those of us who knew him and those who never took the time. shower with love, love, love, annika