I'm not saying that I waited up,
because I didn't.
I just couldn't fall asleep because I was the adrenalyn was pumping in my body.
But of coarse, just like I predicted..
he was a no show
I'm not too dissapointed; I just wanted to have some fun. But there are always different nights, and better times.
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I showed up at school today. I tried to see if he treats her the same way as he did me.
I didn't get to see anything.
Didn't get to compare their relationship to my past one.
he was a no show; and same with her
I guess it's better that way; I had one less day of having to experience the humility,
and go through the torture of whittenising them in action.
Maybe this day saved me, and gave me one more day of relief from that horid sight.
Of what was once mine; and is now hers.
And I am nothing apart of anymore.
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If you haven't notice which I'm sure you haven't; I'm in a very poetic mood tonight.
I don't know why. I'm just kind of .. I don't know .. missing the old days where I would sit at the desk in the corner of my room writing in my composition book of my poetry. You could have mistaken me as a suicidal or a goth back then. There's nothing wrong with that. But sometimes I wonder if my personality on the inside matches the one I have on the outside. And my body figure. Maybe I'm supposed to be someone else? To much thought?
I think so too.
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REMEMBER LITTLE LADY THERE'S ALWAYS T0NIGHT
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