Now that I've totally fallen for him things are gonna be bad because I don't have a chance.

I've been hurt so many times, I don't want it to happen again. I'm scared to want him cuz I still want someone else.

i don't think things are ever going to change.

How can everything go so wrong?

I need you more than ever.....

Fuck, I don't know what to do anymore. help?

Oh my god! This has been a great day for the most part. He is amazing, but I don't want to be let down again.

Should have made me feel better..... Why did it make me feel worse? I wish I were her......

I tryed.....

I give up

And I'll find some way to cut myself open, over and over again And I'll find some way to bury it all

Why can't I just be good enough?

why does this feeling never go away?

new crush.

Why do I do this to myself?

wow, haven't used this thing in a while. as you can see from my last entry I wasn't very happy....still not. and I'm still not in the mood for spilling my feelings unless you can prove that I am able to trust you. which right now I don't think I can trust anyone. and that is a very sad thing to say. sometimes I can't stand myself. hmmm........ "just wait and you'll see, your everything I want, don't take this from me"

I hate this stupid diary. Can't I just keep my feelings to my self.

I don't like him anymore. Back to old crushes.

well, I've given up. I guess we will just have to be friends. At least thats something right?

I heart Steven!