Sorry havn't written in ages Josh has a new girlfriend at first i was so upset, my world was crumbling but now, thanks to my beautiful friends i'm over it and happy for him. both of them He actually invited me to go out with him this saturday night so i will text him if im out. My feelings towards him are dying, but ther'll always be something there. I thought i would be able to find someone else quciker than him, but unfortunatly i was unsuccessful. oh well. as they say plently other fish in the sea. gtg do finish in a minute xx

everybody loves me,, i'm so fly ;) yung joc- whats going down lol the shit with josh hasn't hit me yet. im sorta prepared for when it will , hmm sorta. it doesnt help we have school tomoro thought cuz im gunna have to face him. :[ oo well shit happens.

the four d's in my life at the moment depressed dumped down destroyed yah i got dumped today. hope my ex knows what hes missing :[

i have a new necklace as you can see in this picture. i like it. it's a rollerskate. it cost me ..... $2. yep.// i bought it with beky, she got an anchor one. that is also qwite nice. :] - one of mah best mates waddle bought me moviiessss, i love him sooo much and i was also first on his list to go to his party :] uh huh :]:] he got me. >13 going on 30. >guess who. >duce bigalow - european gigalo. >red eye. >the pacifier. >wolf creek. >x-men 3. >the davinci code. >date movie. >aeonflux. >goal!. >are we there yet. >doom. >over the hegde. >pink panther. and. >the shaggy dog. hmm yeh qwite happy had a good weekend. umm i would say im gangsta.

Becky and i are going too.... THE LIOR CONCERT!!! this friday :] omg i cant wait!! ♥

Uh, uh, some deep shit, uh, uh Momma please stop cryin, I can’t stand the sound Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed I told dad you didn’t mean those nasty things you said You fight about money, bout me and my brother And this I come home to, this is my shelter It ain’t easy growin up in World War III Never knowin what love could be, you’ll see I don’t want love to destroy me like it has done my family Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t leave Daddy please stop yellin, I can’t stand the sound Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around My mama she loves you, no matter what she says its true I know that she hurts you, but remember I love you, too I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away Don’t wanna go back to that place, but don’t have no choice, no way It ain’t easy growin up in World War III Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen I don’t want love to destroy me like it did my family Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything Can we work it out? Can we be a family? I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t leave In our family portrait, we look pretty happy Let’s play pretend, let's act like it comes naturally I don’t wanna have to split the holidays I don’t want two addresses I don’t want a step-brother anyways And I don’t want my mom to have to change her last name In our family portrait we look pretty happy We look pretty normal, let's go back to that In our family portrait we look pretty happy Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally In our family portrait we look pretty happy (Can we work it out? Can we be a family?) We look pretty normal, let's go back to that (I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything) In our family portrait we look pretty happy (Can we work it out? Can we be a family?) Let's play pretend act and like it comes so naturally (I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don't leave) In our family portrait we look pretty happy (Can we work it out? Can we be a family?) We look pretty normal, let's go back to that (I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don't leave) Daddy don’t leave Daddy don’t leave Daddy don’t leave Turn around please Remember that the night you left you took my shining star? Daddy don’t leave Daddy don’t leave Daddy don’t leave Don't leave us here alone Mom will be nicer I’ll be so much better, I’ll tell my brother Oh, I won’t spill the milk at dinner I’ll be so much better, I’ll do everything right I’ll be your little girl forever I’ll go to sleep at night

We would have our friends;; but we would forget the meaning of family. We wouldn't know love. The only love we would have is for each other. Choices are hard. Making up your mind is hard. Being there is hard. Looking after another is hard. Life is hard. Life is complicated.

Jess and i were talking. Wouldn't it be great if we could run away. Have no rules. No worries. No fear. To do whatever we want to do. We're grown up enough we could do it. We could live wherever we wanted to. Going from house to house. Having the most random and funniest memories. Buying food. Cleaning. Really looking after ourselves. Like adults do. We could do it. And we would do it. But.. There would be no turning back. :[

Jess. Becky. Kadie. Anna :] weekend was good. we all slept at kadies house and went street walking around livingston at around 7:30pm. All the girls looked soo gorgeous, their all soo beautiful. We all got dinner at maccas, then i had to go to KFC to get my ear strecher off a friend. After that we went to a gathering/party in livo with Amber. I wasnt going to go because my boyfriend had called and said he wasnt going, he blew me off for his other friends. Well, when we were walking ther i saw him and he was on his way to the party with another girl! anyway we had a big fight but things are sorted now. The party was really good, i'm happy. i got good memories from it. :] one problem. Jess isn't allowed to go out at night cuz her mum wont let her. so thats why she slept at kadies, i keep imforming her to tell her mum but she wouldn't, she lies all the time. i got over that stage i dont lie to my mum anymore. anyway. the night passed and we thought all was good. the next day we all had netball, jess's mum and beky's mum both went. Beky's mum knew bout the party but jess's mum didnt of corse. and we should of guessed this but yeh. One of the other mum's said out loud 'oo all the girls are probably tired from the party last night'. Jess got in so much trouble. i feel really sorry for her. her parents are separted and so now shes thinking about living with her dad for a bit. Her mum threatend to kit her out if she doesnt obey her rules. :[ i feel so sorry for her, but i told her if she ever needs me she can call me and i will be there for her whenever. im scared of whats going to happen to her. not her punishment. but her personality and trust will die.

i have one problem. i cant stick up for myself! omg and it sucks because i let people walk all over me, my boyfriend treats me like shit, i have the best guy friend who treats me like royalty. my friends are always saying the other one treats me like shit, when they dont. omg! please help :( xox.

I love my boyfriend. i hope he loves me back.

I have myspace. i enjoy it. i think its entertaining. www.myspace.com/anz_baby im not an internet nerd :( xox.

i feel as if i dont care i stuffed up when i see her. change my mind when i dont. i spent today crying over someone i know i've lost forever. and it annoys me because that person used to be one of my best friends. but it's my fault. i dont blame her for not forgiving. uhh grrr idiot!! people tell me its not a big lost, but what would they know. they weren't with her. they weren't her friend. i was. and i abused it. once again. you know who you are. im sorry. forgivness isn't forgetting. understood.

hmmm. just thinking. life. was is it. is it worth living. negative? positive? confussing? hard? easy? exciting? words. friends. i'm lucky to still even have the friends i have today. i fuck everything up. :( but. no ones perfect. i guess.

ok, simple. - I'm not new to this. - I'm a girl. - 15 in November. - A younger brother. - Australia. - English background. - Parents together. - Boyfriend. - Phone. - Ipod. - Camera. - Trust issues. - Saggitarius. - Music. - A Past. - A future. - Present. - Love &&& Life. short and sweet. first entry.