There is too damn much I could explain right now... I haven't posted in here in a long time.. But I haven't really had the time when I could find the drive... So it's been neglected... But different long stories short... I don't think I'd mind if I died right now... Of course I would love to live... if my lifes story didn't suck the damned way it does... But.. we can't always get what we want now can we? ...