Am i a bad person? please read this and tell me. I have come to the point where i am through with so many things in my life, home, certain people, circumstances. That i have ceased to be the nice and caring person i once was. I don't bother with presents, with shows of emotion. What is the point if i can only get empty. People forgot my birthday 2 years in a row and i am expected to show up to theirs with a smile and hope. I don't think i can live here for a while. It seems like the only person i would miss is my cat. At some time or another everyone has let me down. Or let someone who hurt me move in with them and stopped talking to me. Or spread lies about me. Or assaulted me. I am looking at a couple places. Not forever. But even a 3 week break will help me decide on what to do. 1. New york. The only downside i can see from this is that i am 18 the legal age for everything in Australia, yet not much at all in U.S. Forgive me if i am wrong, but to my understanding i can't go out into social venues/drink/have fun etc? . Now by saying this i am by no means a party animal i just wish to see certain people who perform there a lot. Oh and don't get me started on the 'health care' system. Oy 2. Quebec I have spent some time learning french canadian and getting quite good at it. I want to be immersed in a culture that is totally opposite to where i am now. So this is looking like an amazing option. As i understand it 18 is the legal age of majority there too. I think some downsides are that some places can be more conservative which is not where i want to be at all. 3. Back to Vancouver. I have family there, love the city and everything around it. If i feel too overcrowded its a short trip to Victoria on Vancouver island. I think the age of majority is 19 there though. It is a good option, although i don't want to impose too much on family members at all. So hey help me choose what i should do next. its like a choose yr adventure book or something. xo