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God had disowned Lilith the day she became a vampire. She really could care less, she never really liked him in the beginning. The only thing she cared about was Damion;her beloved boyfriend of many many years. How would he react to all of this, no one really believed in vampire, gouls, witches, zombies, or fairies. All of those mystical beings were real besides fairies; which is real but not as a magical person with wings and a wand. He would think she became loony and might just put her where the loonies go.She had kept it a secret from him for about a weeksince the incident occurred and tonight she was going to try and tell him the truth and hope for the best.

More like depressed and confused .....I do it to myself ....DAMN IT ....why why do i fucking do this ? i'm so FUCKING STUPID !!!!!!! I too attached to Trey ...and it seems he's barely hanging on to me ..of course he's out of town ..and i may feel like this because of it ..but .....he never calls me ....i know he doesn't like phones but hell with a family of 6 people ...i can't get on whenever i want .....i wish i could ....and so i call and call and call when i am worried or bored or if i just want to talk or hear his voice ... and Grandma keeps on saying your going to loose him if you keep it up .....and i know that...but i don't try .....he won't think i care ...damn butterfly relationship (hold on too tight you crush it ...hold on too loose it will fly away) Before i met Jeff i didn't worry about people cheating on me or if i was going to be dumped ...and then i meet him and everything bad happened to me ....and now i worry it's going to happen again ...Me and Scott's relationship went down hill ..some becasue of me but hell he moved ...it was down the drain and no way of swimming back up ....and he had hidden things from me while we were dating too ....i hope Trey is not like that ..i really really really doubt it but ....who can tell? i feel lost right now...just talking to him would clear so much of this fog ....in other news Dad's drunk again ...Brad and Grandma have to go find him because he took the car ...they should leave him wherever he is ..but they won't ....so i'm stuck watching Jake even though he is sleeping i have to stay up or Grandma will be pissy ....and it's mindnight 08 and i have to go to work tomorrow ....fuck ....life sucks today ...i really hope tomorrow won't get worse..Sam starts working with me today ..i guess that's good ....i think i'm going to make my diary public ..fuck this friend's only shit ..no one is bugging me anymore ..so why not well i'm going to change shit and try to keep myself up and also try not to worry about ...EVERYTHING .....

Trey might get a job ! ...sounds pretty weird .....he's going to ask for Friday and Saturdays off so we can still spend some time together ...Yesterday we played video games ...and slept ....today i'm not too sure what we'll do ....play video games ....probably ....i train at me new job tomorrow right after school ...If Jessica starts there and she works at least 90 days i get $50 because i told her about it ....*sigh* SOmetimes i can understand the school dress code ...yeah i wouldn't like to see girls asses when the wear short skirts and shorts ...i understand why they made a rule for that..i don't want to see guy's boxers when the sag their pants i understand that rule...but WHAT'S WRONG WITH PAJAMA'S???????????????you don't see unwanted flesh showing ... they don't really sag ....grr ...i've went with the dress code happily til now ....there's NOTHING wrong with pj pants !...o well maybe since it's not really something you would wear to a job ...now it's something you don't wear to school...sadness...o well it's not that big of i deal i guess well i'm going to go ....i don't like upstairs ......people scare me BYEs

my space is ...okay

erg ..i just wrote an entry and it wasn't saved .............GRR

..i had Trey in a dream finally ....it wasn't really good ..but i dreamt of him.....lately i've been dreaming of Scott and Willem ...i think it's because Scott's b-day was a while back and Willem and Trey have been hanging out a lot ...but i couldn't dream of Trey ....i mean i didn't like the dream but it wasn't horrible ....plus dreams don't mean anything ....and if they do it's not what you think it is anyway ...just pictures in my mind ...i'm glad it was him though :)i fell hard for him ...not a smart choice ..but i can't help it .....sometimes i'm afaird though ......what if he breaks my heart???? that would SUCK !!!!! i really doubt that would happen though .....POTATO TIME !

i haven't really typed on this diary for a while .....not too much to say ...really i mean my other diary will tell you whats goin on .....which isn't much ...wow ...fun well i'm hungry and neeeeeeed fooooood BYes

OKay i've never seen this anime but i love this picture it's wow .... ....well i'm in an odd mood ....Brittney is back in my life it's been like a year or so since i've actually talked to her..and tomorrow we are going to holiday world ..so i'm trying to rest my feet ....hmm new friends stay new friends are gone old freinds come back and old freinds stay gone ..it's strange....i do like George i just can't handle her changes anymore i know we're still in high school and even past that there will be more changes in people around me but i think the diffence with George and other people is she changes her personality too not just clothes and hair styles .....i think i've found myself too early ...i mean i pretty sure i won't change into anything i'm not ..i feel i'm just me ...i wear clothes that i like and i don't care if anyone else likes it or not ...my hair is just blah and i do what i CAN with it and maybe one day me and George will become friends aain but until then will have our own lifes......i wonder if Trey will change anymore i know he has calmed down a lot since freshmen year and so have i ....i don't really think he'll change too much ..i mean he'll probably clam down more with age ....i just hope he doesn't change his personality ..but i really doubt he will ....well i'm gone Teh Bob

..Sam let me borry the last three Hot gimmick books...well the last three that are released in america that is .....i already read one ...but i don't want to read the other 2 until later so i won't be bored later or anything..well i think i'm going to go take a shower..See yeah!...never mind ...grr i have to watch Jake what fun .....:( he's such a brat ...grr i guess the shower will wait for 20 minutes ..well BYes

Sitting alone in the dark Does no good for someone who broke there heart Sitting in the beams of the moon Whishing away their life is a pathetic and pointless game We all still sit in our pity We don't live forever and still Life has to bring us down Playing with emotions is a cruel toy and though life is the short it is the longest thing to live through And in the end good lives or bad we still ................All Die...................... Yeah i'm not great at writing poetry but i felt like it so you can say it sucks ..it probably does :)

I GOT MY PAY CHECK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well ..since i have my diary in the theme of Hot Gimmick ..i figured i would put this diary theme as my other favorite book Bloodsucking Fiends ...but there isn't any pictures of the charaters so ...the only thing that is from Bsf is the book cover ..the rest is similar ..SEE YEAH ....PEACE!

If you wanna know about my dog look at my other diary i don't really want to bring it up again.....well Trey and i have been talking on-line he told me his phone was dead .......it usually does die i guess....i really miss him ......i really just want him to hold me now since ....the thing with Cisco happened.....*sigh* i can only type *hugs* to him and it's just not the same i guess it's better than nothing though..Teh Bob

I feel better ..i was just overwhelmed by mixed emotions ....i feel a lot better today ...tired but ok ...still haven't talked to Trey probably won't either ....*sigh* oh well ....i'm too tired to worry tonight ...well i'm going Byes

....Trey will be gone tomorrow at 5ish in the morning for 5 weeks .....*sigh*.....well at least i'll have somwthing to do during that time ..oh and Trey gave me this book to read....Bloodsucking Fiends a love story by Christopher Moore ...so far it's pretty funny.....and i'm "babysitting" Cuddles(onw of his penguins) well i'm off to read and sleep Byes Teh Bob

I'm awful ............. i'm going to school can't do

i win ......well these are some things i like and how i feel at times ..i'll put more things up after a while ....boy that took a while i haven't eaten yet :( i think i like my diary now ! well i'm off to eat maybe pick up the house and take a bath :):):):):) Teh Bob

*SCREAMS LOUDLY* STUPID STUPID STUPID alk;dfhgln. grr .... i feel better :) *sigh* :( tupid diary hates mah :( lalalalalalalalalala ummmmm yeah if you would like to know what happen yesterday look at my other diary (lonelybob) if you like to know what's going to happen today keep reading......................TODAY ....i'm going to sit for a while maybe take a joy ride for a few minutes ..lol i dunno .............ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sit some more wait until grandma calls me ..pick her a Joe up ...go to Trey's and i'll leave it at that.......Yesterday at the movies that little ninja was trying to turn me on !!!! he was kissing my neck and nibbling on my ear at the movies!!!! Yeah before that i hadn't seen him in 4 days but geesh save that for the bedroom ;) ..lol well i guess i'm going to go and take a shower or something not too sure what yet Byes! Teh Bob PS...Fine diary you won't let me have a top left that's FINE I WILL WIN THOUGH !!!!!!!!!!!!YOU WILL LOSE DIARY !!!!!!!!!!!!

it's boring now but give me a little while urgh why won't my top left work ?