Chorus: We're made out to be the villain, and you play the victim well but once your judgment condemns you, I'll see you all in hell. Human carnal craving at its worst tempestuous indulgence Pushed to the brink of sexual insanity But no one's ever worth it. We can't help but fantasize, and it's never to be fulfilled disgust and anger is the reality. repress this natural drive

[Intro is hymnal/angelic chorus, break into minor key & satanic chord, switch to main melody and music. harsh, industrial sound.] the pleasures of the body cannot placate your lust your consumption is one that should cause disgust a jealous glance, a lying tongue a desire to look and stay so young spurning love and embracing fury dead but breathing, inclined to bury. Living is a sin and God's a necromancer sinners beg forgiveness, and never get an answer You'd think by now they'd just stop trying to repent their sins as they lay dying. God won't care, but truth is out of reach do yourself a favor, and practice what you preach (avaritia, gula, luxuria, acedia, ira, invida, superbia) [chant] taking solace in work that wasn't yours lying back while the others do their chores hands that make the innocent bloody tracing the curves of a heavenly body thou shalt not covet, your god has said but it won't matter once you're dead Living is a sin and God's a necromancer sinners beg forgiveness, and never get an answer You'd think by now they'd just stop trying to repent their sins as they lay dying. there is no god but truth is out of reach just do yourself a favor, and practice what you preach (avaritia, gula, luxuria, acedia, ira, invida, superbia) [chant]

(Intro: 0:00 to 0:34) (:034)Insubstantial and unnoticed the contradictions that built our world promised freedoms, sworn on liberty things that no longer exist. bigoted ideals balance on a precipice between "us" and "them" (1:02)wondering where this world has gone feeling lost, forsaken, hated these things they gave us, they took away they lie, they steal, every fucking day take our money, take our lives controlled by greed, craving more (x6) (1:30)stolen lives and brainwashed soldiers numbed to nothing, no thought at death choiceless masses, bound by bureaucracy we speak of leaving, they convince us to stay deadened thoughts and neglected dreams a country rots, a people falls. (1:58)wondering where this world has gone feeling lost, forsaken, hated these things they gave us, they took away they lie, they steal, every fucking day take our glory, take it all wasn't it yours? that's what we learned. (2:26- 3:42 Interlude) (3:42)wondering where this world has gone, feeling lost, forsaken, hated these things they gave us they took away they lie, they kill, every fucking day take our money, take it all take our glory, take our lives take it, take it, take it, take it wasn't it yours? that's what we learned (x9) (extro at -:04)

Sarah: what the FUCK was up with you and kenzie? Megan: what do you mean? Megan: i hung out with mary most of the time Sarah: yeah i know but then you like freaked out and tried to hide kenzie and then ran away. like you couldn' teven let anyone see anyone else. pretty fucking suspicious. especially since afterward shelby came into scotts room Megan: she didn't want charley to bite her head off, excuse her for wanting to live. Megan: she wanted to see stormy Sarah: you were like staring at us at several points. I saw you and so did Charley. reaaaal mature. Megan: and don't tell me i didn't get a death stare as soon as i walked in Sarah: i won't because i won't lie. you did, because charley really didn't expect to you to show up all by yourself. but that's ONE Megan: i tried to start a conversation with you but you totally blew me off. so stop your bitching. at least i wasn't staring daggers at you Sarah: ok you got five stares. whatever. wasn't five hours Sarah: i TOLD you thursday that if we went, you would know ppl and charley wouldn't besides Cairo. I TOLD you if he wanted my attention, he would get it. Megan: and i didn't stare at you for five hours. neither of you are that pretty. i'm sorry charley was surprised i showed backbone Megan: just deal with it. you were avoiding me all night so just shut your trap and buck up. i never thought a guy would come between us, but i was wrong. Sarah: i don't call sitting in a chair and only talking to mary backbone. and you chose your side weeks ago, so don't tell me it's charley Megan: everyone who was out there knew we wre there so don't accuse us of that Megan: besides kenzie didn't even know charley was there until she got there cuz i didn't tell her Megan: please, he knew plaenty of peole besides cairo. cassie came for fucksake Sarah: yeah well we didn't know for sure they were coming until after you were there. Megan: you know what i'm sick of both of you. you wanna talk about this do it to my face. Sarah: not my fault i cant Sarah: the feeling is mutual to you and kenzie and your shit Megan: i'm really sad that we're letting this shit come between us when we were really good friends. Sarah: well you know what? you boldfacedly chose KENZIE over me. just because you want shane. I thought we were better friends than that. Megan: i chose kenzie over charley not you Megan: you chose charley over me. mea nd kenzie invited you to hang out with us and you didnt' come. i tried talking to you and you didn't listen Megan: i sitll want to be friends, i'm just not gonna put up with charley constantly being chosen over me. Sarah: was i ever invited with you and her and shane? no. except that friday. but neither one of you actually invited me. "you can come if you want" just sounds so enthusiastic. i asked to be posted on what the plan was, but was i? nope. I didn't do the choosing. And you said "you guys" I didn't know charley was two people. I'm not going to try and justify myself. I didn't do anything except share a moment of our day with him. Megan: and twelve hours is an extremely long moment if you ask me. not to mention i was never invited to hang with you guys before anyways. Megan: our day? you make it sound like it was a day for you and me. and we didn't know what the plan was, when do we ever? Megan: and why the fuck are you dragging shane into this? he's got nothing to do with it. Sarah: we ALWAYS hung with you for some reason or other. Remember when you needed space? Is no one else allowed to need space? I'm not dragging shane into it. I"m simply pointing out that we were replaced. Our day referring to the obviously HUGE fucking mistake I made by telling charley what kenzie said. it's all my damned faul tand i know it so i don't understand why anyone gives a shit all of the sudden. nobody did before. it's always been me listening to everyone's petty problems, but how often do i have that chance? practically never, okay? so i'm done. i don't need anymore back and forth friends. and i'm done being the always neutral peacemaker. I don't care anymore. Megan: i'm not asking you to be a peacemaker. i'm just saying i wish we could still be friends, but obviously you don't want that. i'll bring your mom's book back after spring break. if you could bring anything of mine you might have that would be great then i'll just leave you alone. Sarah: well i wish we could too but i can't tolerate always hearing about how much of an ass one of my best friend is from one of my other best friends. and i won't deal with the immaturity and spinelessness. i don't care about the book. keep it. burn it. idc.

so tired of watching you draw the blade over skin that isn't yours this ache in my chest, a shudder i can't control as you hurt the ones I care about. Can't fucking stand the pain Rattling the bars of this cage Trying to control this fury and rage I walk away from both fiend and friend. I don't know if this will ever end. Give me a moment, I'll fight my own battle. nails dig into scarred flesh my blood releases the scream. I try to remember to breathe as the anger chokes me Suffocating in my own emotion Rattling the bars of this cage Trying to control this fury and rage I walk away from both fiend and friend. I don't know if this will ever end. Give me a moment, I'll fight my own battle. I wish I knew why you crave such power and wring it out of so called friends there's no excuse for what you say is life a pitiful attempt at idyllic bliss while we lie low and decay. breaking apart the bars of this cage I'll no longer control my fury and rage I walk away from both fiend and friend. I know that this is going to end. Give me a moment, I'll fight my own battle. Take a deep breath, step forward to fight.

Escape The world in which I live decays before my eyes humanity succumbs to every petty lie. *our souls are locked in bondage, where the shadows wax and wane isolated and imprisoned, made this way by pain.* I can't find a reason to keep breathing. Words cannot express the disgust I feel inside The ways we preach these false ideals, and stifle death with pride. I no longer want to be a part of this forsaken place Categorized with this species is truly a disgrace Drop the bomb, take the plunge, escape. (interlude) Running for so long, now I'm out of breath Try to grasp their logic, but I'd gladly welcome death. Tomorrow comes regardless, and I will greet it with a smile For I know the dismal truth, and their excuses now are vile. Words cannot express the fury we embody Revulsion uttered, slip of tongue, look to tell somebody. I no longer want to be a part of this forsaken place Categorized with this species is truly a disgrace Drop the bomb, take the plunge, escape. (interlude) escape... escape... escape... *I didn't write this, but I can't for the life of me remember who did.*

Insubstantial and unnoticed the contradictions that built our world promised freedoms, sworn on liberty things that no longer exist. Ethnocentric ideals balance on a precipice between "us" and "them" wondering where this world has gone feeling lost, forsaken and hated these things they gave us, they took away they lie, they steal, every fucking day take our money, take our lives controlled by greed, craving more more more stolen lives and brainwashed soldiers numbed to nothing, no thought at death choiceless masses, bound by bureaucracy we speak of leaving, they convince us to stay deadened thoughts and neglected dreams allegiance pledged to a decaying nation wondering where this world has gone feeling lost, forsaken and hated these things they gave us, they took away they lie, they steal, every fucking day take our glory, take it all wasn't it always yours? that's what we learned. a country rots, a people falls knocked off this pedestal, down to the floor They think we're on top, but we're lower than low. and our fathers roll 'round in their graves these things they gave us, they took away they lie, they steal, every fucking day take our money, take our lives controlled by greed, craving more more more

Faces flicker red and orange Horrific in the fire's glow The shadows cast on all who're there Create the illusion of masks or is it the blood? Red, gleaming black in the fire's light Standing ready, gun in hand Ready to die for this god-forsaken land Institutionalized, stripped of all identity Filled back up with all their lies, friends become the enemy. (Cock and aim, fire and kill The war will never end) From gray woolen rags to camoflauged fatigues They hide in ditches, die in the fields. We hear of one dead, a frenzied panic spreads While masses lie in nameless graves, and we don't blink an eye. Standing ready, gun in hand Ready to die for this god-forsaken land Institutionalized, stripped of all identity Filled back up with all their lies, friends become the enemy. Humanity claims supremacy, glory over all. But we're no better than those beasts They don't aim to kill their kind (X2) Standing ready, gun in hand Ready to die for this god-forsaken land Institutionalized, stripped of all identity Filled back up with all their lies, friends become the enemy. Our world will screech to a halt Before they learn the truth It will end, in blood and war at the fumbling hands of youth. The apocalypse is our own doing And yet they do not see the wounded dead, the death of man, the broken earth, May well be caused by me.

Sucking, biting Fucking, fighting Tricked and torn Pricked and worn Play your twisted games. One to fly, Two to die Three for fun, Four to run (run run run) Brazen cold, Crazed and old Shoved and hated Loved and waited for the illusion they call "love" One to fly, Two to die Three for fun, Four to run (run run run) Armed and ready Charmed and deadly life's a game love's the same Come now, play with me (laugh, sigh) One to cry Two to die Three for fun Four, I'm DONE.

Twisting truth, making it mine. The world rests in my hands. Nothing can change it but I. Molding, shaping, carving life finding my reality within this bloody lie. Withered, cracked, and calloused hands reach for oil and paint. Create that place, the one you see and climb inside to stay. An artist never settles for merely what he has disappointed by what we got, we start again from scratch. Ink, the weapon, canvas a shield staving off the barren truth tings change when one man dies, why nothing as it's hoards? Erase the troubles, touch up mistakes -AND RUN- split up, bloodied, broken hands caress the artist's wounds. Terrified of what's inside, he's out to fill the holes. An artist never settles for merely what he's got And they don't care, they leave them there To lie in shadow and rot.

Jigsaw pieces fit together like they shouldn't Symphonies of broken glass, dreams of answers and rejection, far too good to ever be true. Early on dreams, they have to be Nothing like this could be... too cruel to be true. Screams and sighs, raining life Hot, smooth motion, grasping for more (more more) Begging at my master's feet for a taste of what they've got. Bloody, gory fantasies of love and lust and blood Kinks in the system, whipped into shape. Pull me closer, touch me (please) Let's hope it's real enough to feel. Screams and sighs, raining life Hot, smooth motion, grasping for more (more more) Begging at my master's feet for a taste of what they've got. Uncontrollable, a greedy craving Straining, playing sick sweet tasks. Take me, break me, suffocate me. Bite back, take that, give you to me more more more Skin on skin, entangled legs, that's not all... it takes me, breaks me, suffocates me. Whips and chains and sick cliches, turn me torrid, boil my blood. Screams and sighs, raining life Hot, smooth motion, grasping for more (more more) Begging at my master's feet for a taste of what they've got. Uncontrollable, a greedy craving Straining, playing sick sweet tasks. Take me, break me, suffocate me. Take me, break me, suffocate me. (X3) Take me, break me, just fuck(and/ing) suffocate me.

It's odd. We fight for so long, and then we talk like that. Maybe I can't hate her. I know I probably should. I feel like soup today. Liquid-y and warm.. yet not quite filling. Half of the sky is a bright, vibrant blue. the other half is dark dark grey. Almost snow cloud-y. I wish it would snow. I woke up this morning and opened my curtain. The window was foggy and it gave a snowy illusion to what was outside my window. It made me sad when I realized it was only fog... nothing more. I made a barbie look emo. It's retarded. I'm avoiding reading the Odyssey. I'd rather read the 12th Series of Unfortuante Events than read that. It is so... boring... in a word. I have a frozen tin of candy. The little swoops taste like christmas. I want hot chocolate... I can't wait until thanksgiving, until the lights turn on, until it snows. Sigh. I love this time of year. I feel drunk on memory. I am letthing the memories of last year keep me floating... buzzed. It's working. I have a real smile on my face, even just a small one. It is real. It is good.

They say you're sad I'm sad too but not as sad as you You don’t seem to care what I've done You pretend like you don't care. Like hurting me has hurt you too I don't care. Your tears were bitter Burning those they touched Away from the light, Refugee in a darkened corner Hiding from your very own life Horrified for what you've done Yet plotting to do it more Your vicious circle eating you up Tearing you apart from the inside You just don't care, you soulless freak One day you'll wake up and You'll suddenly feel A scar for every scar you've helped to make A sting for every blade you guided into skin Your "friends" hate you One only wants you back If you only knew what's been said Behind your back Payback's a bitch, and so am I. All I ask is that you try to feel Try to care Make anything come out of you I want those lies to stop from you as well Those lies that kill me Those lies that I can stop somehow I take it away and they never see Soon you'll learn to hate. The blood I've spilled for you Pointless little pricks I made You told me you'd make more But you fear the karma Well it'll come back for you anyway One day when you least expect it. I loved you once, I can love you again Your feelings blackened out Covered up by foolproof liquid words Answers never given, too many questions asked You hurt me... I'd love to return the favor. They say you’re sad You are sad, you see, but not as sad as me.