everything comes to an end this sit diary jsut might too

. . . Gazing at the lightning that you're watching, catching the thunder you're hearing, the rain that pounds down on my head comes from the same sky that you look up at

I'm feeling good and its such a great change

I'm straing straight I'm barely there Killing my brain On these WINDING stairs I've lost control I've seen too much Take me home To a place I can rest I'll scream and kick I'll CRY and beg Please let me go To the home I've wanted I want to know there's a god damn PlACE Where everything inside Is not the same I'd run away I'd hide forever Ready or not I'll find another I'm ready for changing I've found nothing inyou I'll seek a way out And a ROMANCE too

...Your eyes are like black water under thin, grey, march ice Black water and glee dancing far down Within them like the twisting decomposing body of a drowned man COld and soundless nights where no one is there to hear the silence...

Everytime I see you My heart will turn to stone From what you know What you said What you saw Before you're dead Those little things, unspoken The gap between our thoughts Of what we knew What we said What we saw It was in my head Somethings I never told you I have a secret; or two Come this way; come closer I'l pour my heart for you I wish I never met you I never touched your face My dirty hands are full of guilt Though your blood, I'll never taste My mind is so unreal You're face, a lullaby I ran away from all true things And now I'm left to cry There's nothing left for us Everything you know what you said what I saw You'll forget

i'm not miserable i'm only alone i'm ok in this dark corner of madness

i'm happy you're happy i'm terrified i'm not

wow...last time i snuck out in the middle of the night to meet some gave me horrible memories...but THANK YOU SARA, KRISTIN AND BRITNEY! hehe...its was muchos fun..(sneaking..hehe)

im so mad right now at everyone i think just about everyone i know and regularly talk to...and some others...im prettyy pissed at except for ONE person...isnt that sad this all sucks everything does

wow i never update this anymore...but here i am now...yesterday me and sara walked to downtown cary...and we ate at serendepity's..yumm...and we went to this pawn shop (there was a criminal there...I SWEAR) and they had a bunch of cool guitars...ya..sweet. we had muchos fun...like running from mexicans..haha just kidding and that was yesterday...friday...and today is saturday and this was a 3-day weekend..and that rocks

how does it feel to know you cause these cuts

turn the pages in these books of our memories we never kept ah screw it...

"...like brittany spearsand avril lavigne can kiss my ass because they are fruity as hell..." -SHILO ^^ hahahaha

ahh i love that word :-p okie dokie... thrusday we had an early release...and after scchool me and sara hung out...we walked around, scared the ducks. (haha) then we found the awesome-est bench ever...so cool...then i fell out of a tree..but shh know one else has to know...and then the mexicans were stalking us so we had to go into pencil pose *QUICK SARA! mexicans: PENCIL POSE!* hahaha and then yesterday was friday ...ohh fun i went to the mall with el sara again and we had muchos fun and today el chloe is coming over in a little while...yesth.... wells...i shall go...and write more later ~peace~ <3

ya so i havent written in here in forever...never have time i guess....i've been feeling like crap...but i think i'm getting better. School sucks...well the education part anyways....but everyone else is ok...except for on the bus the big group of loud/never-shuting-up/annoying people....girr i hate them havent hung out with a lot of people (poeple outside of school i mena) in so long ...but whatever they want to do...fine... umm.....i gota go i'll edit this later

dude i'm so fucking tired but i probably cant fall back asleep...oh well its almost 12:00 so i should get up anyways... Last night i went to band night with marina, sara was sick (hope you feel better sara) and it was marina's birthday so ya... and chloe and drew were there and hannah f. and david t. and skye was there and we saw collin's band...their's was the best.....everyone else just sucked....and they had a really good bassist in one of them.. then there were a bunch of other people...but i dont feel like listing them because no one knows who they are anyways...haha ya but i hope it snow and sleets and the roads get bad so the dinner tonight is canceled :-) well i'm tired ~peace~

chloe: i want to screw chloe: AN ANIMAL me: =O chloe: *fergus (her dog) walks by* me: =O =O =O me: RUN FERGUS RUN!!! me: RUN LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER RUN BEFORE!!!!! ^ aha we're so retarded ....NAPOLEAN DYNAMITE IS HOT! :-p hehe just kidding...but he is so frikin awesome! "well can you bring me my chapstick...mmy lips hurt real bad" :-p

i'm crying myself to sleep. because the tears tuck me in.