i was born alone and i shall die the same way. alone. what is the point of love? what is the point when it is one or the most painful ordeal we must face .?

I have kept in touch with my ex-bf from time to time. And it's been almost a year since we last wrote to each other so I sent him a short e-mail. Our e-mails only consist of simple hello's and how are you's, nothing else, just like an update of how we are doing. Well his last e-mail, which I read today, said he got married.

I congratulated him, and I really and honestly feel like he deserves that and I'm glad he found someone for himself. (I have my boyfriend of 4 years now also) But, man when I read those "I'm married" words I felt like something pulling at my heart. Why? I don't understand why him being married is bugging me.

We were friends before we dated, and then we ended our relationship because of distance and remained as friends until we both just grew apart and found other people. It wasn't like we had issues, we always hoped for the best for each other.

So why am I slightly unhappy? I love the person whom I'm with right now with all my heart and I know he's the one for me. There's no doubt about that. If I relived my life I wouldn't change anything.

So why is this bugging me a little? lol

Well today's e-mail is for sure the last one I send him lol.

Ahhh the craziness and unpredictableness of life!

-Ruby

Today was uneventful, except for going to a dead Wal-Mart. That was awesome, you know, being able to walk around it without getting bumped. Yay!