i still need a date forprom i dont know who i want to take i still think i should take but i dont know this other girl has now broken up with her boyfriend and i might want to take her but i dont know i f she would want to go with me shemight not be over the little freshman kid but o well shed like it at prom if i do take her (Maria) and the other i dont know she is tall but i like her i wouldnt want to go out with her though she is just a realy good friend that i might take to prom i dont know yet (jazz) now no one tell either of these two people so dont tell them or ill kell u

I hate death i hate life isent there a happy medium why do people die why do the live why do i have to care why cant i just leave go away to a place i know best where taken takes place and time just gets in our way friends what whould i do with out you thank you

i just thought i might update to show everyone that thi is the right one

shit doesent alwase happen to me why is it now when did it start happing to mw like this i just thought that i was getting somewhere but than it all fell appart meg called me yesterday and asked me why i was mad at her and i told her that i dident have time to atlk right now and would tell her today than she got all pissed and hung up with a ill talk to you on mon than so i pissed off the pope how much more can i take i have thought that i was getting to the point of happieness nope

i dont know what to think because this girl that i like knows that i like her and i think that she is trying to flurt with other girls just because she knows what it does to me i dont know how i should fell about this i dont have time to explain i am at my sisters rightnow and she needs her laptop back so tootles ask for the rest of the story if you want to know tootle

Does anyone out there know what i am talking about when i say that i am unhappy with my love life and that i have no idea what i want to do with my self doesent she know that i dont like her i like the other one i havent written in along time and i thought that i should but what do i write about what do i say i think that i will talk about someone that i have feelings for but that some of my friends dont like i dont know why but i get the feeling that she doesent want me to like her even though she likes me back we dated a while ago but yet i still like her why is that i want everything to go my way and to be normal but i dont think that will ever happen i want her to be my own i want to hold her in my arms and never let go that is how i feel is that wrong is it wrong that i dont care if i ever have sexual intercoarse with her i just want to spend time with her i want to see her talk to her and know that she is my girl MY girl is that wrong i dont know why but lately i have been very down in the blues not that that is very bad i like blue but is it wrong to like someone and dont know why

i wanted to tell someone that i liked them but i havent told them face to face yet i need to but i dont know how please tell me how i need to know but i dont know how often i will get to see her over the summer and i woul hate to not see her by the way i lost my cell phone it went in the lake i fell on the dock and it cought on my belt and fell in i dident though tootles i dont think anyone checks this anyway but oh well tootles

i think that i will break up with jess because i heard some stuff from some peopl;e that i trust and i also see stuff that people dont think that i see. and i kinda regret what i did going out with her right now brecause of what it seams that she is doing to me there are two people that i have liked for a while now and i i cannot tell who they are but one person knows who they are well kinda two people but it wont spred anymore because it just wont will it i want to talk to her so bad about it but i dont think that she likes me at all by the way for all thoes assholes out there that think that i switch who i like i dont i just dont tell all of the people i would like to date at once i dont like them all i just would like to date them all but i do not have crushes on them all just a few like maby two

her we go again with heather i dont know what to do yes i do but all you dont like it all the people that i like are dating and i know that they wont break up with them i dont want them to i am going to do what i want to now i dont fucking care anymore about what people think about my girlfriend so fuck you all that dont beleave me or her ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss so ya let my finger rest a minut and that was the key it hit if you girls have a problem with who i am going to be dating i dont want to her it because i fer it than iu will ter it up bitch

i feel like shit right now i think that you all know why if you dont dont ask me because i dont want to talk about it on this site because of some people on it but i wont tell anyone here who so ya i like some people as some of you know and well this sucks because i know that a few people like me but all of them happened to be hatin me or just are stuck in something ok well enough of me ranting bye bye

hi there i just wanted to say hi and that i feel bad for ben Lee told me "yea i doubt ben and i because i dont want to hurt him" that was in a note ash you read what i wrote to her in the green ink what the fuck i dont get it

got cramps hum i think that i dont want to dwell on it but now that ben is dateing lee than well i have to move on i hope i can anyway i think i can i think i can i think i can i think i can o well thats enough i think o well better no ok im rambling now so i am the weakst link goodbye

right now i dont know what to think i still feel like i am hurting inside for what lee did to me i still every time that i see her i think of the times that i trully thoughtthast she liked me but know she never did i dont get it she is the one that came to me the first time that we broke up i dont know what that means i dont get it i just dont it makes no scense i still like her i think even though right now i want to kill her because she is just trying to piss me off it seams i dont know i just think i am over zelous at the things that she does people tell me that i can do so much better i dont know she is like perfect in my eye or was but thats ok know one knows how much i liked her i would have done anything to keep her i would have killed myself if that had made her happy i dont know i think that i am just pathetic no wait she is i think that her ben no no no bad idea horrebibble idea she doesent know what he is like she is acting with him what i was like with her and that pisses me off because i never heard about anything like that when we were going out i dont know i just think that she dident like me but that makes no scense than why would she hold me why would she want me to hold her i dont get it it makes absolutely no scense what happens to ben will she cheat on him will she be like him with me will she cheat on him and not regret it will she be a bitch and lie to him like she lied to me the ohh i dont know 12 times or more o well i am just fumeing because i lost her and i dident want to i dont know why i liuked her in the first place i dont get it it pisses me off kinda

i heart you all to which is a good thing i think i hope yes yes i know i know yes i know that it is i do i like you all

i think that this is insain i broke up with this girl well she broke up with me because she told me that she had no self controle and well now she is going compleatly and utterly insain with a new guy i dont particularly like but i dont know i think that i still like this girl but i dont know i wanted he so bad no one knows how much i loved her people asked me how can you love someone at this point you havent been going out with her that long i said i have no idea its just something that i feel you knoow when you get it but you know people anoy me the only person that dident harras me about this and that was you too your the only people that actually helped me i dont know how to thank you i cant i never could i will never be able to

this is new it is so that my friends can comment on the otherone and only a choise few can see this