why is the sky blue? or better yet... why is water clear? why do we have hair all over our bodies but we can't always see it? why are tongues so grosse? why do i still like reggie when he's a total asshole? why do i just want to be friends with him? why does my brother get into car wrecks like ever 2-3 months? why is he gay? why am i such a bitch? what keeps me from being on first string team? why do I have to suck at life? why won't danny just ask me out instead or wondering if i would go out with him? why has he been making such a big deal out of saying that we're not bf and gf when ppl ask ever since i said i wouldnt go out with him? does he know that i'd love to date him? why would danny want to be MY friend anyways? if i get called trash and a whore and all this crap and if im a bitch then WHY would he stay my friend? why do i like beck? why does beck suck? why is my limit only $$5,000$$ for a car? why is MY family poor when my parents have decent jobs? am i going to get to go to college? why am i writing this? why am i sick? when am i going to finish reading that damned book? when am i going to stop typing and start doing homework? when am i going to bed? am i going to do homework? why are my teachers such crack heads? why do they go off on random tangents? why do they try to act like they're spiritual? why do they try to act like they are professionals? why did my dad get demoted? why are politics involved in educational systems? why did i change from punk to trance? why does punk and hardcore suck? why do scene kids act gay? why do emo kids let media influence them to cut themselves? why do ppl hate on other ppl when really in reality they're only jealous? why is rap so cool? is it because everything they say rhymes and sounds cool? why is this the end?

yeah i think im gettin sick... =/ and im leaving for ghetto mexico tomorrow... =_( but w/e im comin back on like the 25th yeah the 25th im pretty sure... well im gettin a bunch of dollas to go and 'spend' but well yall kno what im gunna spend that shit on... maybe this time itll be brownies haha jk well yeah i dunno what else to say... fuck school and the assholes in it... peace out bitches!!!!!!!! <3 yall

dude today was freakin crazy. cuz like i met up with my friend john and hes really funny. then he got some purple and smoked me out. it was nuts. hes such a cool kid, and im mad that i always act like a retard when im stoney.... =/ o well what can ya do?? laterz peace outtie pplz ps kc if u see this u should get online right now! so we can talk! hehe.. <3 you!

yeah so yesterday i went to the football game and i met up with my friend lance. and then me him and andy went to his house and e we blazed it... yeah it was nice. then i cma home and i made pb & j sandwiches and i got jelly in my hair and didnt kno fer like an hour then when i found out i just put it up and went to sleep then today when i woke up it smelled like strawberry jelly.. hahah so i took a shower (finally) jk then i, i, i..... ok i forgot... yeah yesterday was cool. and im still fukin baked out dude.... omg.. i dunno. later pplz

today was fuking hilarious. in chemistry i had my headphones on and i was listening to bad religion>> 21st century digital boy... and i guess i was singin a little too loud... lol yeah ppl started laughin at me and im like the shitiest singer in the world. so i apologized to them... hahaha. later pplz...

ok ok ok. so now i feel sorta bad cuz the person that i was talkin about in the entry before this has been like havin a shitty day and 'it' feels like shit... and i feel bad cuz im bein a bitch to 'it' on purpose but they deserve it!! but i dunno what to do.. should i be nice or should i keep bein a bitch?? ahh!!! hmmmn what to do what to do... well im happy tho cuz i got closer with a friend today!!! like our friendship is well more of a friendship! haha yeah.. lol yeah this entry is gay... bye. yeah im editing this now im pissed off cuz my fukin belt just broke!!! and it my favorite! uhgh..

ya so im irritated right now... like really mad. but i cant say why. cuz i just cant. and the whole fukin day i was irritated. with the same person!!!! ahh and im becoming doubtful of my relation ship with this fuck. yes that what im going to call it (as in this person and yes they are now referred to as 'it'). yeah i saw ya flirtin today w/ a ho (no names!)!!! and it was right in front of my face. hope you liked that hug cuz im not gunna give you one. yeah 'it'! ur bein a FUCK!!!! so right now i just feel like saying 'yeah fuck you go away... and stay away' but i dont really want that to happen. and since im spoiled, hehe, its just not gunna happen! hah ya bye. and yes im pissed! grrrrr..... *god i love this song! scarlet begonias* >>