so this has been out of use for a while. about a year a go I had anorexcia and i had lost 30 pounds in a few short months, this summer i have seemed to gain it back and i would like to lose it again. i think to make myself keep on track im going to have to keep a food diary of everything i eat and keep track of my calories, i miss how thin i used to be.

everyday I feel as though I wake up and im not myself, I go through the whole day doing whatever it is I do....which isnt much, Im not depressed im apathetic, do i hate it? im indifferent. does it make me a bad person? no it makes me useless so im useless and a leech to society. why am I writing such emo shit? because I can, I dont actually expect anyone to read this, who would? its so fucking long and pointless. no one really wants to dwelve into my mind, sometimes the things I think of even scare me. Ive been in such an angsty mood ever since i started living in this house (i moved to my dads house for 15 days for tax reasons) I cant stand the energy of this place....it always has to be so fucking clean, nothing can ever be out of place...and someone died in this house...thats pretty creepy I always feel like somenes watching me or touching me, and all the pictures taken in this house have orbs in it....I dont know its just weird. Because for the last 3 months or so Ive been very happy, then all of a sudden I leave my happy enviroment and I feel like grimlin ass. honestly when the doctor told my I had a brain tumor I was almost releived, I had an excuse to feel sad even though honestly my own death wouldnt matter to me.....i think about all these times I could have died in all these freak situations ive been in, and if I would have....it wouldnt have mattered I havent added any acomplishments to my life since then. so the brain tumor thing...as everyone was crying, I was actually happy for the first time in a long time, in my beliefs death is not the end.....so even suicide would never truly let me leave, only the situation and honestly I feel as though its almost the cowards way out, and it selfish and it hurts everyone around you that cares. so after a couple more catscan tests they determined there was no tumor, or it had gone away on its own...wtf? How is it I can escape death so much.....oh right its because i have a destiny, how can I live out my destiny though if I dont do anything but sit around all day and play guitar. and its stupid anyway, im meant to be a fashion designer...so thats great, making the world even more shallow, or do I have a chance to change the way everyone thinks? I dont know why im thinking of myself so much lately, i never do, I always think of the people around me, i would do anything for my friends, and they are my everything, they are the only ones that make me feel happy or alive or loved. lately its what i live for, hanging out with friends getting drunk, it seems i have a party 3 times a week. I started drinking these last couple months after going 8 months without it. i like to be drunk, and I hate to admit it, I hate it when people use drugs constantly to make themselves feel better about how much they suck. fuck it, I know its a bad attitude to have about life, and im not going to sit here and bitch that ive had a hard life because everyone has had a lot of bad shit and I hate it when people tell me they are going to kill themselves in msn conversations its so lame, if you were going to do it you wouldnt tell me on fucking instant messanger attentionwhores. im writing this now why? because i feel like it, if anyone actually reads this you should know it was a big waste of time. im sick of gender stereotypes and double standards I shouldnt have to justify my actions to anyone just because im a girl. My perfect strawberry field life has decayed and rotted. Anytime I say i like myself or my life im in denial, I honestly cant stand me, even talking now, its all bullshit, I love to lie to myself I do it constantly, so much I dont know who I am, I spent so much time trying to be everything I wasnt I forgot who I am. I hate it when my sexuality is questioned, once again why should I verify myself to a total stranger, I trust to much, and you would think by now i wouldnt be so fucking niave and gullable, most people are peices of shit, perhaps im one of them. I get told constantly im too nice, people push me around and I let them and I smile. they do something wrong and im the one saying "im sorry". I've just had it, I dont care if im becoming a bitch I like it no, im not an object or a tool or a plaything i refuse to be your blowup doll, don't fucking call me pretty or ugly, why do looks matter? seriously people judge everyone on their looks its sad, so everyones puking up their food to fit into this sad little thing we call societies ideals of beautiful and not to be hypocritical I was hospitalized in may for anorexcia and it made me wonder what I was doing it for, Im thinking about consuming large amounts of food and sitting on the computer all day and getting about 10 cats and just work on line and never do anything else...I mean Im on the internet so much as it is, what do I do on here? nothing I look up random things because I like random bits of knowledge that wont help me in life. I dont even go to school, why? because I dont care enough about my future, I love how my parents are living through me and im going to be what they tell me to be and honestly im fine with it because i wouldnt be able to decide and I wouldnt care. my mothers getting married to a douche bag and I hate him so much, what a fuckin douche bag I dont think i'll ever get married, I dont think i'll ever even fall in love, even in my long term releationships I was never in love esspecially not the kind that would make him try to jump off my balcony after I said I didnt feel the same, so what do you do after that? of course you get drunk and punch a cop, always good. so this is pretty long and I could keep going forever in fact because im full of so much bullshit and Im used to spewing it randomly. I hate it when people try to psychoanalyse me, oh she father abandonment issues thats why she always has a boyfriend, wrong bitch she wont take medication because she is in denial of her condition, no bitch I wont take it because i dont want to rely on drugs to be something that im not. people constantly call me weird or strange, but really its not my intent i try to be normal...but i guess theirs something a little off about me, perhaps destined for greatness as a pyschic once said, perhaps doomed to gain weight and own a bunch of cats i wonder if anyones gotten this far, if you have you obviously care too much and you shouldnt. I do give myself credit for a couple things, I do think im very tallented but its wasted because i dont care enough to try or to put in any effort and I know im pathetic. also I believe I have a fair enough sense of intelligence for my age. but perhaps I am strange.,...maybe artistic but I hate coming across as misunderstood, dark and artistic, everyone thought it was pretty strange when I took and apple and put worms in it and called it contempary in art 10. its things like that...that seperate me, maybe im meant to be alone. I hate it when people talk about relegion and judge me on my own, I grew up around the paranormal, my dad is friends with all these pyschic healers hell Im even training to be pyschic, and how many people want to be friends with a "witch" haha yeah.....my beliefs are my own, yours are your own, its our beliefs, morals and values that define us people should believe whatever they want and not be ridiculed if they want to believe something on blind faith thats wonderful, if you dont want to believe in anything thats great. you shouldnt make fun of people with blind faith and hope, people that need hope usually dont have much. I hate coming across as anything. you can think anything you want of me you can call me an emo you can call me a geek, poser, a whore, stupid, pychotic, fat, ugly, pretty, funny whatever I dont give a fuck, while your sitting here judging me im probably doing the same thing to you but I wont admit it. I think the problem is im not challenged enough, my grades are in the high 90's, I have the potential to get a good job, a car, a nicer place to live but I dont care, none of it hold any interest, ive lost all interest in everything, sometimes I just like sleeping all day, maybe if i had something to be awake for I would, but nothing makes me happy really but drinking.......yeah its sad fuck off. still reading this? even the people who are my friends, I dont even know if I like them I mean...I like everyone, im very social, i might seem like a huge bitch to anyone reading this rant but I love talking to people, even if they are retarded or mean, doesnt matter. I dont know, im a teenager and even though I say i dont fit in, I know im like everyone else, or what everyone is trying to hide with in themselves. It is time for me to realize life isn’t all about getting what I want. Even though I can not undo the past, the things I have done and said, I can at least try to mend the holes I have made in my life, I know that I will never be able to fix everything or ever truly feel complete, but I’ve hit a dead end and have no where else to go. seriously if anyone read this leave a comment.

So today has been a really fucking stupid day.. it's raining I might go dance in the rain. I wish Kaitlyn was around, it feels like I have no one to talk to, I really need to leave this town. I'm really bad with money..so bad. I can't figure out how to manage all of it with all of my habits. I really need to quit some of them. Tomorrow I might put on the patch , my mom bought some =P. I can't figure out what to do with myself, I should get a job here temporarily but I don't know where to apply at. The only places that are hiring are the drugstore and the bar. I don't really want to work in the drugstore because preppies work there (lame excuse) I know. When I turn 18 I can work in the bar.. hmm..7 months!! That's something to look forward to. The long weekend fucking sucked, I got mildly drunk on friday night, and went home earlier than I had expected, I hit the bong the rest=P. Attention-whored on the internet to all my cyber boyfriends. Kaitlyn had fun I think, I'm still waiting for her entry, although I haven't checked in her diary for a new one yet. I've been feeling really absent-minded lately and it feels like I'm going to be stuck in this haze forever. I get dizzy all the time and I feel really down. Kaitlyn has a mega-sexy boyfriend now, she says he's hotter than Sean and when he was on webcam he looked hot. I want a boyfriend, but I'm not the girlfriend type , I guess. I haven't looked everywhere though right! I try to have some faith in "there's one person for everyone out there!" but I don't know because I haven't experienced love and all that. I don't know if I should believe it or not. I'm still young, maybe things will change.. that's enough of my emo rambling. <3 you KT!

so tommorrow is my 17th birthday....am I excited? no why would I be? it's just another day, another year that I have regretfully survived a reminder I have no boyfriend to spend it with....fuck it....I dont need to feel sorry for myself on my birthday, I will probably go out with friends, get shit faced and commit petty vandilism ...isnt that what your suposed to do? I spend so much time acting mature about everything I never do anything fun anymore...it's all about school work, and work, and working out now....I need a break. I miss tina...We've hit a rough patch...perhaps I went a bit far with accuosing her about putting me down so much...she's only joking...right? ...I hope? but when you've heard the same things over and over again esspecially from your best friend,someone you love and would take a bullet for...it hurts, even if it is joking...not to say im a sensitive freak of nature the occasional "you'rr a gay attentionwhore" is fine but not all the time...I know she cant help it and doesn't understand why she says it...im the same way I do things and hurt people and cant understand why. I keep pushing my limits because I have nothing else to work for...running 3 km every morning until I pass out... 200 situps a day....but why am I doing it? who am I doing this for, me? no a guy? fuck no. I guess just the fact that I have nothing else to do. Ive been thinking about getting a temporary boyfriend to keep me warm at night until I leave for australia in the fall. I moving in with my brother at the end of the month...starting over again...I guess I should be used to it by now.

I didn't go to school at all this week, since I'm really sick and can barely get out of bed. It's ok, I guess, I can do more work at home anyways. I don't even have any motives to do anything anymore. Nothing has a point to it anymore. I have to deal with it, I guess. Living here STILL sucks. I really need to get out. Rescue me, my knight in shining armor. So when I turn 18, I want to go to the Berlin Love Parade. That would be so awesome. LESS than a year, finally. I'm so anxious. My 18th is going to rock my socks off. I am not spending it here. Hopefully I can move out this summer , after I'm done school. I miss Kaitlyn, I wish everyone could get along. I miss those days. I was waiting for her to make an entry in here, but she didn't deliver. I wonder if she has a BOYFRIEND or a GIRLFRIEND =O Kaitlyn tell me!! Write a fucking entry.

So according to faggy totse, I'm an attention whore. YES IM SO EMO I CUT MYSELF ALL NIGHT LONG!! hmm... why should I care what any of you think? If I was in need of that much attention I would go to Red Deer and whore myself out. Obviously I'm not a slut, because a certain someone keeps asking me for sex and I turn them down EACH and EVERY time. Fucking asshole. Why don't you just stop lying to yourself and kill yourself. Dumb Cunt. I am filled with anger, and no one seems to realize it so they keep hacking and hacking away until I'm a tiny piece of sawdust. Mother Fuckers, how's depression? I'LL TELL YOU HOW IT FUCKING IS. I can't help it. It's not my fault that I'm this way. GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEAD. Maybe I am mentally challenged. Is the first step to admit to yourself that you are insane? Am I insane? Apparently I'm not insane until I have a little piece of paper that proves I am. Well fuck you, I'm not going to go to the doctor and have them assess me for fuck all. I don't need to prove myself to anyone else. I've already seen a counselor and the best thing she said to me was "So has your brain turned to mush from all that cocaine, alcohol and marijuana?" Like what the fuck. All of you that say "oh you aren't crazy you just want attention" Yeah, like I want negative attention from all you dumb fucks. Get over yourself.Go ask your mommy and daddy for a new car. I know, I'm poor, I know I'm fat, I know I'm ugly, please stop repeating yourselves. Nothing you say I will take to heart. If you call me a fat bitch, I'll take it as a compliment. AT LEAST I'M TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT. I obsess over myself each and every day. Does that make you feel special with your little boyfriend and perfect life? I sure the fuck hope so. Sit down and think for a second. Would you like it if someone taunted you? I'm sure you would , you sadistic little fuck. Go on..

HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY!!!! so, today I found some weed , I weighed it, it's about a gram. Meh, it's not much, but it's getting me stoned, and I didn't have to pay for it. I feel so happy, but I associate my happiness with drugs as I said before? I think and I don't think I can go on anymore with this nagging habit in my head. It's like , Ok need drugs now/bitchy, or spent money/need more. It sucks. It feels like my social life is ruined because I just always want to do drugs and everyone probably hates me for this, but it's just like being addicted to food. Food is horrible.Give us pills so we don't have to eat already! Food is the same thing as a drug. It's bad for you supposedly. It's a shame that we are all supposed to look the same or we are looked down upon. Ignorance is bliss. Girl's put their fingers down their throats because of society. Society should be damned. If you all think that me and Kaitlyn started this site to be serious about eating disorders. We aren't. We just want to show you how lame it is. If you can't lose weight exercising and eating healthy then you are fucking pathetic. Sure you can go a day or two without eating but don't do it all the same, at least eat something. And throwing up is disgusting. Trust me, I do enough of it when I drink. I don't want to do it all day long. Puke smells. Get over it.Oh , try this D-tox diet called Wildrose, or something. I have it right now and It sheds off the pounds. It's only for 12 days too. I'm sure you can stop throwing up for 12 days. Okay, I'm going now. I have people to do and things to see.

So, I've been neglecting this for awhile. I've got lots to post about.Prepare for a story filled with, nonsense,urination and amusement. So anyways.. where did I leave off. Oh ok,I left for Los Angeles on the 22nd,stressful day trust me. We almost missed our plane and we had to wait in lines ALL day. Went to our hotel, shitty fucking place. Saw a lot of mexicans, wanted to kill americans and had a creepy taxi driver that kept touching me. He was paki, of course. I'm cutting things short, because I'm too stoned to type too much. Okay, while we were there, we went to a bunch of places and I don't feel like naming them all because I'm too lazy. I keep shortchanging myself and it sucks. Came home on the 1st and slept forever. Went to school the next day hoping to get someone to get drunk with me. Everyone was doing something else. It pissed me off because I was clean for a week. I don't really remember anything else from that week. Yesterday I went to Red Deer and hung out with Vince and his friends. Got really fucked up, and left with my parents to go back to Coronation. I was hoping to stay to have some fun but it couldn't happen. Today I feel really sick and im vomiting A LOT. I feel like a whale. I woke up at 5 am this morning because I wanted to get stoned. I got stoned and stayed up until 11 am and passed out because I had excruciating pain. I figured out that marijuana is my only happiness. I have nothing to look forward to. I'm fat, ugly and stupid. If people keep telling me this, shouldn't I believe it? I shouldn't keep going out of my house and scarring people's lives. It's enough they have to look at this ugly world, but they have to look at me. I feel sorry for them. I bring them such pain, punishing them, humiliating myself , therefore bringing me pain. Everything I touch turns to shit. I'm considering plastic surgery. Okay, that's it , I'm going to stop typing before I get depressed. K THNX BI <3

so I got Fucked right up last night, fucked up beyond any recognition, I went to kyles, this was the first time I saw him in months so it was nice, we got really high and talked about things, it was nice to talk...esspecially when your high, I know I shouldn't smoke pot because of my asthma, I was having problems breathing last night, but hey im young. and then Aaron and his boyfriend kirk came over and I was tripping right out because Aaron kept calling me katty, I brought over some gin I stole from the liquor cabinet, I never ever want to see gin again....I drank about a quarter of a bottle to my self and then had 3 coolers, which wouldn't have been so bad but I was on an empty stomach and I was higher than a kite. at one point we all joined hands and yelled " Ya Ya".....man we were so gone. and then Anna, Rebecca and Rachael came over....it was weird, Rebecca thinks I want her, and I don’t so it was awkward. Rachael is going out with a chris...I wonder if it was the chris she was going out with before, the same Chris I spent hours and hours talking to, the same chris that tried to kiss me...I dont know. anyways they left and then Stacy came over, Rebecca’s ex-girlfriend Stacy, the one I heard so much about. but by that time I was going in and out of consciousness and could apparently started to mumble incoherent noises in her ear...im so suave I know. after that it gets hazy, anyways me and Kyle passed out together on the bed heh it was fun and I didn't have to worry about getting drunk and hooking up with anyone because they were all gay. aaron and kirk are really cute together. and Stacy slept on the foot of the bed, I woke up at about 5 and went to the bathroom, half way up the stairs I realized I had just started to go blind, I know from experience that when this happens im about to faint unless I sit down so I stumbled across a house I didn't know not being able to see anything, I some how managed to find the bathroom and I fell on the floor, my vision was slowly starting to come back when I puked all over myself, I got cleaned up and eventually went back to bed because everything hurt, Stacy gave me a ride home at 8am after I had puked 3 times...it was like the exorcist just when you dont think it's humanly possible to have any more liquid come out your mouth and nose it does...so I went home and laid down and puked a few more times....my kidneys hurt so bad. and even though I thought getting out and partying would make me happy and solve all my loneliness problems it really didn't, im still alone I was just mildly distracted. -kaitlyn (katty)

this is an actual conversation I had with alecia today Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: we r going to fuck till the sun comes up Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: lmfao Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: cums* klmfao kaitlyn says: yes well having drunk sex does sound fun kaitlyn says: be safe! Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: safe then sorry kaitlyn says: agreed Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: lol kaitlyn says: so what are you doing online? go fuck him! Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: ya well my bros gf wanted to go online and i was away so kaitlyn says: I see Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: im turning him on.. he loving it Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: groping my ass kaitlyn says: turning on your brother? Or Sean?.... yes, he likes the ass Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: yes, min eis better then yours l,fapo Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: oh he says it is kaitlyn says: probably, I lost a bunch of weight so I dont have much of an ass anymore Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: lol okay Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: gotta go jamie gotta go on bye Is she trying to make me jealous? That she is going out with a guy I have no interest in. I am however very jealous of her literacy skills. I hope they never have children (hence the “be safe”) I don’t know I just found it funny- lets closer examine some things shall we? Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: safe then sorry - I think she meant "than" but she said "then" so that means she wants to be safe but still get pregnant? Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: cums* klmfao -this is just disturbing...why is she cumming while talking to me?? Alecia PeRfEcT MaTcH ...SEAN says: yes, min eis better then yours l,fapo -.....what does this even mean? Is she korean??? Tina is in California I miss her, I bet she is getting laid by some big tan buff Fabio guy!

this is kaitlyn. God I hate fat people, the ones that sit at the McDonalds drive thru every day because they are too lazy to get off their gargantuan ass to go to the front counter, then they sit in the parking lot dipping there fries in mayonnaise and then they cry that they are fat. I lost another 3 pounds, and another inch off my waist. anyways I applied for a job at A&W and thats probably going to put me with all those fat people I hate, but I need the money. so alecia and I stopped fighting, and Sean is being an ass, I know he is doing it on purpose so I get over him, and it worked….I know him too well and I know the games he plays he acts like the victim that I wanted to kill myself, thanks for the support! Anyways the latest news is that Paris Hiltons phone got hacked and celebrity numbers are all over the net, it's kind of funny to watch these whinny actors bitch and freak out. I haven't decided if I want to call anyone or not. anyways the winner is the thinner bye bye.

The way you shake it, I can't believe it, I ain't neva seen an ass like that!! Smack my ass cracka nigga! Anyways, I'm leaving tomorrow to go to Anaheim, and It's gonna be awesome, I'm going to find some niggas on the street and buy some crack off them and have a sweet time. I can tell that I'm falling into depression again and it sucks. Everyone is getting on my nerves ,talking about weight and looks, it pisses me off. It's like" YAY I LOST 10 POUNDS" do you want a cookie or something you anorexic bitch?? Would you like to lick that peanut butter off my fucking stretch marks? What the fuck is your problem? WOW YOU ARE WHAT A SIZE 00 NOW?? are you proud of yourself? This weekend was alright, someone I know bought an oz of weed and we lit up non stop. I'm going to suffer so much without weed for a week. Hopefully I meet some hot guys who has some in Los Angeles. I want to meet people off the internet im such a fucking g00k. Mike moved back home in Castor because he got kicked out of Ashlynn's and got fired from his job. Poor him. He was really starting to grow on me. Now I'll only see him at school probably, but he might move back here. Castor sucks, I don't blame him. I'm going to go eat a mars bar deep fryed toodles fatties!!

So.. I should have written in here on the weekend but I was too distracted with the sweet, sweet moonshine.Okay, so I think this was Friday or Saturday night?? I don't really remember. Oh yeah, Kaitlyn came down on Thursday night and we got really blazed in my shower with Mike and Travis. They went home so we just went to bed. Okay so this must have been Friday night. We go over to Ryan's and there's a bunch of people over there playing drinking games. We get into the game and after a few beers I'm pretty tipsy. Ryan then brings out the moonshine and I take a few shots and I don't really feel that drunk.. and it hits me. Everything seems really weird now and everyone's like making out. I go upstairs and Kaitlyn is crying on Chris Chamber's shoulder, and she told me and everyone else to go away...I don't remember anything else but when we went upstairs and slept in the bed me and Kaitlyn got into a fight supposedly and we triple kissed with Mike. Then we went downstairs and everyone was leaving so I went and layed in the bathtub, then Ryan and Kaylyn kicked me out because they said there was no room. So Ryan was going to give me a ride home but then I ran home and came back because I left my smokes and pipe there. Okay the next night, I get a bag of weed and that lasts me until.. Tuesday. We go to the Frontier and smoke up in their parking lot in Ashlynn's car and we go in the Frontier and for some reason we leave right away. I lose my pack of smokes, and get pissed off. On Monday we handed out n *sync valentines to everyone including Mike Klem and I think we just chilled out that night. We couldn't find anything to do. On Tuesday , went to Red Deer and went shopping with my mom and Kaitlyn. We got really stoned and went on the bus with Vince, that was the trippiest thing ever because it was my first time in a long time. I went to school on Wednesday in my pretty new clothes and got high with Dave at lunch. We went to school and I stared at the wall all day. Went home and passed out, Dave came but he said he was going to come get me later because I was really fucking tired. He never came back so I just walked to Ashlynn's around midnight. I got high and passed out there until 6 and then went home and slept until like 3. Dave came over and got me baked and now I'm here and leaving.

Kaitlyn is here beside me. Travis tried to get in both of our panties but it didnt work because we knew that he was a just a slut. He asked both of us if we wanted to do it but he's only 15. At least he's all growed up!1!!1111! I'm going to shoot him with my knife. The other day fat Katie Hanson called us bitches and all those mother fucking preps. So I screamed SLUTS!1!!!!!! We will kill them at sundown. They better be prepared with their makeup and curling irons. I will stab them with my gun. Stupid bitches. Kaitlyn gets drunk really easily and she had a cap full of rye and took a shower with her clothes on. I went on the computer so her and Travis could get it on but I guess it never happened all they did was make out and fondle. Well that's what she's telling me anyways. I made out and fondled him too. We share guys, we wanted to triple kiss but I kept laughing so that never went on. We licked his nipples and he cried like a little bitch with his balls cut off. We saw Sean at the school the other day and he looks really gay, he dyed his goatee black. He looks so HARDCORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a fucking metrosexual. Like what does he think he is?? He parties with little kids now, I guess he likes little kids since he's going out with that whore Alecia whatshername. I really want her to get hit by a bus. That might improve her looks and confidence. Sean is a faggot, and she is the most stupid person I have ever met on the internet. HAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAH they met on the internet. They deserve to be together. Like what guy goes out with some whore he meets on his brother's msn???? I want him to get beat up. Travis should beat him up. But he's a pussy. Anyways we have to go make exlax cookies for the Retard Ranch. Toodles ladies!!1!11!

Okay, a serious entry for once!! Kaitlyn!!! stop editing my entries!! I hate you!!! Okay, last night was INSANE! like super duper crazy, I was drinking with Travis and Mike at Mike's house and I got pretty schmammered, went into Mike's rooms and tried to sleep but I kept getting woken up. A whole bunch of people came over and it turned into a huge party. There were lots of hot guys there but I walked straight out. I think my psychic powers came in, because I decided to go to my sister's instead of going home, even though I knew she wasn't there. I walked to the back door and the window was all shattered, someone kicked the door in. I grabbed a shovel and hit the window some more so I could unlock the door. I walked in and EVERYTHING was gone. All her amps, speakers, subs, dvd players, satellite receivers, money, A FUCKING AWESOME glass bong that she just bought, an acrylic bong, some pot, ALL FUCKING GONE! I called my sister, and my step-dad and told them that everything was gone. My sister's friend dropped her off at the party across the street and she went in there and started breaking tables and hitting people. I was in the middle of all this and this hot guy was like " oh it looks like she needs another crack hoot" and I never even met this guy before and I pushed him really hard and I was like FUCK YOU! and he said "oh yeah, that would be the best time of your life" LIKE WHAT THE FUCK! my sister picked up Travis and pinned him against the wall and screamed at him and then all of those fuckers had the decency to look me, my mom and my sister straight in the eyes and lie. Someone told my mom that they heard people talking about Mike Clem bringing shit over. The cops came and I started getting a little lippy because he said " can't we do this at 9 in the morning instead of 4 in the morning? and I was like, "aren't you supposed to be open 24/7 and he said " do you want to get in the back of this cop car and I'll bring you to the cells in Stettler?" I just walked away. I was still really drunk and I didn't want to get thrown into the drunk tank, that would suck balls. The cops then told us to go to my sister's house(across the street) and he would go inside Mike's house and check it out. He found some shit but then my sister's friend was like "hey that dagger that Mike(the guy my sister is living with) has is missing. The cops eyes lit up and he said oh yeah I'll be right back, he found EVERYTHING but the money and bongs etc. in their house. The cop said that they were going to charge my sister with assault if she charged them with theft. So this is all fucked up. Well I have to go write a statement now. Toodles

hey hey it's the infamous kaitlyn again. today I realized that I like to take duct tape, put it on my skin, then rip it off, then roll it into a little tape ball and eat it. so anyways today I was cruising in my 65 porshe and a cat jumped into my tire, so my personal priest got out of the trunk and we had a propper barriel, it was rather lovely, tonight im going to go dig it up and poke it with sticks. I think it's very good to have goals in life. today I have decided that I will not die happy unless I have swimmed in a giant pool full of purple jello and dryer lint. .....mmmm..... lint. so anyways send me all the dryer lint and tape you have :) until next time my cyber homies. PEACE THE FUCK OUT!

tina here, im on duty in Iraq, today I witnessed my bestfriend getting shot in the penis, I could tell he was in pain from the multiple gaping bullet wounds. I couldn't stop crying and then he shot off my penis. then I got the Idea to have the base nurse sew his penis on me and my penis on him. we all agreed it was an awesome Idea. Im very happy with my new member and I can't wait to put out.

hello this is kaitlyn, and this is our first entry, my friend tina and I have stared this journal together because we have discovered that there are a lot of fat people in the world, and lets face it thin is in, PUT THE FORK DOWN. now we just want to share how easy it is to stick your fingers down your throat, everyone can be anorexic, boys only like skinny girls!! yay ok. join our adventures as we travel into the unknown. once again I must stress PUT THE FORK DOWN TUBBY!! ~toodles~