I'm all not that scared anymore. I took the birth control off lastnight so I should be getting my monthly friend tomorrow or Wednesday. Or maybe even today but that might be to early for it so I dont think I will get it today. Last Saturday Dustin came over for about an hour then we went to my moms picnic thing and we met up with Brittney and Shane and we hanged out for a while. It was ok, not a lot of fun cause it was so hot and hot and really hot outside. Dustin and I just wanted to go home and have sex. lol. I think the best part about the thing was when I got my mom wet and her friend Lisa wet. That really cooled me down, then I was not that hot. My mom got to met Lisa, Julia, Morgan, and Lydia. Lisa said that me and my mom could pass as sister which I thought was a little scary. lol. After the thingy then we stopped at my grandma's house but me and Dustin just took me moms keys and walked up to my house. Which then, sence we were home alone, then we had sex. Which was grrrrrreat. Dustin, I really enjoyed that, and I know you sure did. I really liked it baby when you cum inside me for the first time. You know what??? I could feel it too. lol. I was going to tell you that but then I forgote to tell you. lol. Then Dustin, remember when my mom and bill, Stephanie, and Kali all left for a walk...I was like grrrreat..now we have sex again, but I was waiting for you to make your first move, I thought that was so funny when you finally said "you know what...we should be having sex right now" But I had a lot of fun. Sorry that we didn't get to finish the movie, did you like what you saw of it though? Yesterday was a....was a...umm....we'll just say a odd day. I have no idea what was wrong with me. I was acting like a different person. I did a lot of crying and I was being a bitch and everything then when I got of the phone with you and everything and I talked to you online and said I was sorry I felt a lot better. I dont know why, but I did. I'm glad you feeling better now..."make car nosies" I'm glad that the first time I said that you had a smile on your face baby. It made me feel a 100 times better. I Miss you so bad right now baby. I want you to come home from summer school so we can talk. *kiss* Umm yeah, I forgote to tell you, I'm going to take the kids to the pool today so I'm hoping to be back again before 3 so when i get home, I will just call you. I Love You Baby with all my heart and nothing will ever change that. Your my everything baby. xoxoxo ~Cassandra