kay well hmmm today was interesting, i met a new guy...zack...its weird cuz i spent these last couple of days coplaining bout dylan and now theres zack. I mean we arent going to date or anything but he asked for my number and gave me his and for some reason i feel better i think all i had to do was move on in the guy world...i mean i still care bout dylan sooo much but i was wasting my time wanting him back i know i was cuz he doesnt want me and so now ive moved on....kk well not really im still confussed do i call this guy or wait till he calls me and if he does and wants to go somewhere do i go or wait aroiound for the guy i care about the most right now, for me to realize what ive known all along...he doesnt want me...thats just obvious...the problem is im still hopin and wishin he will one day change his mind and im kinda hopin zack wont call...that would make it so much easier.... wow my hole intent on writing about not wanting dylan has just changed back to me wanting him!