Last night I told my father I didn't want to see him anymore... He told me those words hurt him badly He said 'those words are the kinds of words that drive a man to want to put a gun in his own mouth' I cryed A lot Last night I dreamed, of a life better Without conflict... So those dreams where interupted with dreams and thoughts of my father verbally attaking Justin and of rainbow chicks (birds) I want to be happy, I want my father and I to have a good relationship. But I cant be around him when He yells, when he says those words that are like knife wounds. Does he know that often the things he says drive me to want to kill myself too? Hasn't the past affected him? Doesn't he know taht when he molested me that was the end? I hadn't respected him as much after that. How can I respect him Everytime I do something wrong in his eyes, he yells, and I want to die. I am sick of it and I don't know what to do anymore.