I haven't written in here in a long time... Working at Mcdonalds is fine. I like working in the grill area the most cuz the time goes by really fast. I turn eighteen in a month and a day and then i am moving into my own apartment. Blah i hate my life...i am going to be alone for the rest of it...

I started work at McDonalds last week and i think it is actually pretty fun. I have been working at the front counter and then i am being trained for the drive through. I hate the uniforms but oh well. Jenn N. is going to be spending the night with me on Friday... hopefully i dont have work. We probably will be going to the mall but it depends on Adam if he has band practice or not. If we dont go i am going to buy us a pizza and we will watch movies. Brooke got to get out of the group home on Easter. She got to stay with my mom and them while they visited the family. I got left out this time...there wasnt going to be enough room cuz Danielle was bringing my cousin Michelle. I got to stay at Scotts house....i slept in until 11:30 because i didnt want to leave Scott and then played video games all day long. This weekend was pretty fun...Scott worked all weekend. He has the night shift at P&G so i had to sleep without him until 7. We bought hotwings and watched a movie until he had to go to work on Saturday. But yes that was my weekend. buhbye

I havent writtin in this for a long time. Well, lets see. Nothing is really going on that is important in my life. I have an interview for McDonalds uhm i might be getting a different car. Thursday was mine and Scotts 2-year anniversary. I can hardly believe that we have been together for that long. I stayed the weekend at his house and he didnt come back from his friends house Saturday night or Sunday morning, so i decided to go help out with his parents to move in a relative into their new home. I painted a whole room and i brought boxes in nonstop all day. I am sore all over and i was so tired last night i almost feel asleep sitting in the chair. When Scott came back to his house it was later then when i got there and we both didnt get any sleep. We went up to my house and fell asleep together. I didnt even wake up when he left for work. Well im going to go. Buhbye

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I have to give blood in 10 min. I am freaking out because this is my first time....I am afraid of needles too. I dunno if i ate enough and i dont want to pass out in front of anyone. I have been drinking a lot of water though...i really have to pee, really bad!! I am really scared and my stomach hurts...but Jen is giving blood with me so i have to be brave. yea

We are going on a trip to Keystone College to look around to see if we want to go there after we graduate. We are leaving in like 5 min. The bus rides to and from there are the best part! Well buhbye Love ya Scott.

Thursday we didnt have school like i thought...it was cool. I stayed over scotts house all weekend...i watched movies with his parents while he was working. Shawn,his stepdad,is really cool... i love him like a dad...he is better then the one i have. My brother got married on Saturday...my mom cried and he did too...but i missed it...i hope he is happy with her...i really never thought he was going to settle down, but im glad he did cuz i like her. My little sister might be comming home! I miss her alot. My older sister got into a car accident with four other people last night. The state police called my house to tell us at 8:30 last night. My parents had to go get them. So i was stuck at the house all alone...i hate it there by myself at night. Im in school now...its boring...plus progress reports come out and im going to get grounded so i am not going to be allowed to see Scott. Damn i hate it when i get grounded for stupid shit. I am supposed to be the one with the best grades according to my dad so because i am failing a grade he is grounding me for the rest of the school year. I cannot wait till i move out this summer.

I love the anime show naruto...Sasuke Uchiha is my favorite character. Tomarrow is a half day...but we probably are not going to have school tomarrow cuz of the snow. Plus we dont have school on friday so it is going to be a long weekend.... Bell is going to ring BUHBYE

Uhmm...lets see...My weekend Well Friday i didnt get to do anything, but Saturday...i got so fucking drunk it wasnt even funny... Sunday i had a hangover so it wasnt that great but i hung out with adam and.... i guess his new girlfriend? i really dont know who she was.... well bell is gonna ring ill write later

Im at jens house...yay.. omg last weekend was GREAT!! We had alot of fun after Jens party was over...hehe Jen is making maccaroni and cheese right now...she is crazy!!! She has an addiction to the computer i swear...she cannot walk by one of her computers without being on it for at least 5 minutes! Jamie(2) is sittin on the couch...talking to jens mom.. she had to come down cuz Jens mom didnt want her up there alone...it was sweet.. Well im going to go help jen cook, i just felt like writin another entry... Buhbye Love ya Baby!!!

Today sucks....I woke up late almost missed the bus..got into a fight with my mom...yea Scott didnt show up last night, but whatever ill see him tonight..he was sleeping all day... Its only third period but this day is already dragging!!! I didnt do any of my homework last night...i fell asleep...im going to go study for my test... I love ya Scott. Buhbye

I want to get out of school...it takes up all my time!! GRRR!! I can't wait till friday Jen is having her birthday party... I got a couple new movies...Kingdom of Heaven, Doom, and Waiting(which is very funny) My sister woke me up this morning, she came up at 6:00 with her friend Roger and my little cousin Michelle.. We played Halo until they had to leave... I want to go home!!! I love you Scott. Buhbye

Friday Night Was Awesome...i got so fucking drunk.... Jen was drunk too....and Tom, John, Josh, Jamie(2), and Robert....yeah it was great... I got to stay home yesterday..that was great..Played xbox all day.... Todays just a boring tuesday..cant wait to get home and see Scott...i love him so much!! Well im going to go... Love ya Scott!

Today is kinda a good day...Nothing bad happened yet... Friday though was a different story... I told Jess that i didnt want to date Stan, that i wanted to stay with my boyfriend. Before i told her she said she would respect my answer and stuff like that but as soon as i told her she started to get all pissy... Throughout the whole day she harrassed me and at the end of the day when i was going to my bus, she came up to me and was basically on top of me screaming at me and pushing me...but i didnt say anything i just kept walking away...she is still saying shit but i am getting to the point where i cant take it anymore...im seriously getting sick of it...someone keeps telling her im saying shit about her but i didnt say one thing...its kinda funny watching people do that to you...but i dont care anymore i just want her to knock it off...I mean Stan is my friend again so why is she still doing it??? Its stupid!!! Then after all that Jen, my sister, Me and Scott got into a car accident...we slid off the rode over a 10 foot cliff...we went to this ladys house and she was so nice...she even gave me and jen a sip of her wine...Damn it was really good! We waited there for like 2 hours waiting for the tow truck and when they came and pulled it out they said we could go because nothing was worng with it...NOT REALLY!! When they pulled it up from the cliff they bent the sway bar right into the tire!! We were stuck in the middle of the rode for like an hour waiting for scott to bend it back but then Mrs. Teesel and her husband came and fixed it for us...THANK YOU!!! When we got back to jens everything was all better...we had a lot of fun after that!!! Just as Jen...(sweetenedlies) Im going now I love you Scott. BUHBYE!!

Its time for midterms so i am probably not going to be writing for awile... I hate midterms... buhbye

im back... midterms are over but i dont think i am going to be writing in this very much...i will still write though Today is just another day, nothing new or exciting...but yea nothing exciting ever happens at school... Except what happened two days ago... Stan kissed me...yea... Well yeah i have to go... I love you Scott.

Stan finally talked to me!! Yes!!! Noone understands how happy i am...I missed him... Its not like i just like kept trying to talk to him...he put a staple in his arm on purpose and i grabbed his arm and Jess pulled it out. After a few minutes the bell rang and right when he was going to go down the stairs to lunch i tapped him and asked him to walk with me....and he said he would... We went to my locker and then i asked him if he would talk to me now and he said yea... I am really happy now that he is talking to me He really is a great friend...

Yes...we just had an announcement that we are getting out of school early at 12:30!! Its going to be a weird day though...we are skipping 4th and then shortening all the classes so we still get lunch... i guess i can go home and get some sleep, i couldn't sleep all night... i dont know what i am going to do tonight...Scott pulled a 12 hour shift yesterday then worked last night for another 8 hours so i dont think i am going to be able to see him tonight... well i guess i am actually going to do work in this class so im going to go... I love you, Scott. Buhbye

My weekend was fun...Jamie (2) and I stayed over at Scott’s house all weeken...we didn’t get to go anywhere on Saturday, because Scott didn’t get his paycheck. The stupid plane broke down that brings in the checks. We managed to scrounge up some money to get some….stuff yesterday so all was well. This weekend we are definitely doing something fun and going have money! I have family counseling Tuesday…yippee another counselor for my fucked up family. My parents were fighting at like 5:30 this morning…FIVE-THIRTY! I need my sleep…especially after last night! Im leaving now... Love ya Scott... Buhbye

This day started out good but now it is horrible.... In P.O.T i was talking to Jen but then i decided to move next to Stan. Stan was one of my good friends for the past 2 years. He has been acting weird around me since he got a new girlfriend on monday. I was trying to talk to him and i also tried joking with him but he wouldnt talk to me. So i wrote him a note and asked what was wrong and why he wouldnt talk to me. He said nothing was wrong and he was to busy. I then asked him why he was not to busy to talk to everyone else and why was it any different when he talks to me. He just said wrote it is and turned away from me....I cried after that the whole period...and it was weird because i couldnt stop myself...no matter how hard i tried...I hate fucking crying in front of people, and when Stan knew i was crying he didnt care...is there something wrong with me? I dont know what is wrong or anything...and i am really upset because of it...he wouldnt tell me why... I hardly have any friends to begin with so it hurts twice as much to me if i lose a good friend... Im fucking sick of this...i need something to make me forget, even if it is just for a little while... I just need to have fun.... Im going now...

ITS FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH!! Gonna have fun tonight...at Jens with everyone Hopefully not with Alcohol... Well last night i went and picked up Jamie(2) again and went up to Jen's house. Tom was there so i jumped out of the car and hugged him. I missed him so much! I hung out with everyone last night, Steve, John, Scott, Josh, Jen and Jamie(2). Jamie(2) now has a place to live...at Jens. Now im going to be able to hang out with her all the time...She is hanging with me all weekend. We gotta go shopping and get her some clothes and stuff. As soon as i got home last night i got bitched at by my dad for being 10 min late...but he had all his druggy friends there, he just wanted to show off to them and show how hes such a GREAT dad. Yeah right... I wish he would go jump off a cliff. I need a fucking cigarette. Well im leaving... Love ya Scott. Buhbye