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"Sarah Beth is scared to death"- rascal flatts that song is so awesome, yet so sad, So like the title says... Im scared... of what you ask? well I donno... to put it bluntly everything, I am scared in every aspect of my life... nothing is going right and I fear it never will... So Sarah beth is scared to death that life will remain shitty and confusing and sarah beth is also scared to death of ryan leaving her.... yeah thats a big one "Sarah Beth Closes her eyes,she dreams shes dancing around and around without anycares and her very first love is holding her close and the soft wind is blowing her hair" omg I love that song anywayz Guys like suck so bad, I really dont get them at all.... LEARN HOW TO SPEAK YOUR THOUGHTS OUT LOUD SOMETIMES GUYS! seriously now

LAst Update I didn't mention that I have a Job, so whoo hoo anyways, I work at outback with the coolest people ever Like Andrew and Mackey and Mike yeah they are t-ota-lly awesome Anyways.... I officially Suck at Ice Skating.. I thought Id be able to do figure eights and jumps but its actually difficult.... yeah if andrew wouldnt have been there to catch me I would have deffinately broken a few things lol anyways Im on the phone with andrew now cos hes awesome like that and Im about to go lay down... have an awesome night MACKEY IS SO TOTALLY COOLER THAN ALL OF YOU

Okay so whats new... Second semester No classes with Ryan :( 1 CLass with Lauren 1 CLass with ryan r 1 class with Josh fun stuff anyways... Im tired to the extreme at the current moment so im going to take a shower and lay down nighty night!

First off id like tp say I LOVE RYAN PATRICK CHRISTEN-OLIPHANT second off id like to say my sister is awesome when she doesnt brake things in my car LOST INTREST IN MY DIARY AT THE MOMENT kinda got a little bit of a life goin on.... and ive been out living it instead of writing about it... lol thatll pass quickly tomorrow is new years eve me whitney and lauren are going shopping tomorrow for something sparkly to wear to bring in the new year lol that is totally gonna kick ass cos 2004 sucked anyways

MERRY ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!! I get to open ONE present in less than 3 hours!! I just dont know which one to open!!! So anyways IM dreaming of a white Christmas and of course back home they get a foot of snow and Im stuck in sunny 60 degrees NC grrrrrrrr I WANT SOME SNOW!!! Me and Brooke exchanged our presents today she got me the cutest wallet ever!! its a fossil wallet and it has cute lil hearts on it and she got me kick ass fuzzy socks haha I love you brooke! anyways ima go terrorize my family by singing Christmas Carols while im baking Christmas Cookies! Mwah! Happy Holidays!

I am awesome cause I got presents and theyre awesome i got the evanescence - away from home DVD Dawsons creek season 3 box set A cinderella story the lizzie mcguire movie Yellowcard ocean avenue CD an mp3 player clothes and speakers whoop whoop LAUREN GOT A CAR!! YAY

I added the most awesome song ever, it makes me cry sometimes but its an awesome song, I couldnt figure out why it wasnt working but then i realized I was using Mozilla and thats why so no more mozilla I like my tricks too much! lol days till christmas....6 days till I come home...7 days till new years eve...13 "you make me wanna LA La" Cos "i like crayons"

Leah, I need you now more than ever and I don't have you. I've become something thats not sarah because I lost a key element to my sarahness, come back to me leah, I didnt find me till I found you thus I need you to be me!!!!! LEAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going on an adventure to find my perfect someone... I believe everyone has a someone and I just gotta go looking for mine rather than him find me everyone needs a little help finding their way and I dont have patience to wait on my prince Charming so Ima go get him! lol Only problem is.... where to look?

Thinking back to Christmas's and New Years and its like wow, ANOTHER reason for me to wish I was 8 Christmas was still magical, Santa Still existed and Oh my gosh THE TOYS! everything I got was a surprise but I always wanted it, now if everything I got was a surprise my mom would be clueless, so I go and buy everything I want and give it to her to wrap... kinda lame the only joy in christmas now is decorating and New years eve wow when I was little I would get so happy when theyd have those little new years eve programs on tv like on the disney channel and nickoloden and Id always eat cookie dough for some reason now I look for parties and watch drunk people drink in the new year God give me a time machine

It's like becareful what you wish for ya know? WANTED: Prince Charming Duties: Take care of Princess Sarah Love Princess Sarah Any takers? lol

BRYCE YOUR A FUCKING ASSHOLE! Guys are all assholes.... Y'all suck so bad! I can't take it I give up

Today is my moms birthday! YAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! today when I got up and I didnt even tell her happy birthday cos I wanted her to think that I forgot and she kept dropping hints for me to tell her then I was like Im going to meijer and she was like why and I yelled at her like DONT ASK ME QUESTIOs it was funny and then I nit picked through cakes and annoyed this poor woman about icing and then I got the cake and the card and got in my car and I was like somethings missing so I drove to walmart and got her some flowers! and this guy that worked there was like trying to hit on me while I was picking out flowers so when he asked who they were for i was like "my girlfriend" and he left me alone then! haha! awesome then I came home and snuck in the house to get a pen then wrote in her card then snuck back in and when I got to the top of the stairs I sang to her..anyways now Ima bout to get ready to go out with the fam for her birthday dinner.. fun stuff and then Ima go to party city to visit jeremy and get balloons for mom FUN DAY! I love doing stuff for people! it makes me feel good

OH sarahizccans!!!!I love you biatch...boo you whore,oh wow!!I didnt change anything just felt like leaving you a note because im bored.So hello to all those people that read sarah's diary!! *Love ya biatch* LAURZ

Heyllo one and everyone! Time to give you my monday-wednesday update Monday woke up went drove to greensboro with Brittany, and when we got there we went to the mall and then played video games all night Tuesday- woke up too early for me, got ready and went shopping, then we ate dinner and went to see Lemony SNickets: a series of unfortunate events... it was a pretty weird movie but I liked it, I fell inlove with the guy in it, lol I LOVE CLAUS!!! Nerdy guys turn me on I swear it lol then we again played Video games all night, I love Crash Bandicoot... lol Wednesday- yet again woke up too early lol got ready then left to go meet my fam at the four seasons mall to do THE LAST CHRISTMAS SHOPPING That i had to do yay!, and now im on the phone with my brookie love and we are planning our day tomorrow hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmnumnum! *I love you* *Sarah*

This is an entry Just telling you that some shit went down today and will be recorded in a "private" entry which means yall cant read it sorry.... id rather keep these emotions on the low In other news, the Billboard awards came on tonight and Evanescence performed and might I say Amy lee looked lovely!! (I taped it) wow loser am I! Id like to say this to my lovely l0ver laurz "We got more bounce in california than all yall combined" We are so fetch! BOO YOU WHORE

Im feeling hellagood! hell yes! It is my favorite time of year and soon Ill have Lots and lots of new things and Soon Ill be getting lots and lots of snow! and yeah.... I love WINTER SO MUCH!! Pluse when January rolls around its always my aniversiary with my favorite people whom I met when I moved up here and started school Jan 18th for me and Leah and Jan 19 for me and laurz awww 3 Years yall!! Anyways, It is TUESDAY and tomorrow is wednesday and LN's got a half day so me and Bryce are gonna do something yay SUNDAY Im heading out for NC and Ill be there through Christmas and Ill go to my brookie loves alll the damn time, and be the DD at her party lol I loves my brooke and then Ill be back in INdy for Mr Hedge's New years party Im not writing this entry asuming that I wont be writing in my diary until jan 1st I just felt like telling yall whats up for my fav month MERRY CHRISTMAS! (ALMOST)

TRUST: 1. To have or place confidence in; depend on. 2. To expect with assurance; assume: I trust that you will be on time. 3. To believe: I trust what you say. 4. To place in the care of another; entrust. 5. To grant discretion to confidently: Can I trust them with the boat? 6. To extend credit to. Funny thing, trust..... So much can be destroyed if you dont trust someone and so much can be taken if you do

try- To make an effort to do or accomplish (something); attempt: tried to ski. People can TRY to bring you down, People can TRY to hurt you, People can try to take everything from you. but to try is not to accomplish, it is an attempt, and if you let them accomplish what they are trying to do, its your fault When you are unhappy, its mainly your fault remember that... in other news December has kicked off a GREAT GREAT spirit in me, im so fucking happy now I dont know what to do with myself, this entire year has sucked and then boom HAPPY TIME wow lol anyways tomorrow is friday and Im going to ohio to the hives concert ith my baby love yay! much love to all those who dont feel it *Sarah