I always feel alone. I hate it but sometimes i need to be alone. Alot of people dont understand me Or what i went through. All they have is pity on me. Usually all i want is someone that i could hold forever and ever. But apparently i fucked it all up. Now i'm depressed and i just keep wondering If i didn't say i didnt love her would i get to love her again he next week ? Damnit i'm gonna cry.... I miss her and i dont know if i love her again or not cause everytime we break up the next few days ill love her again. Thats what i'm feeling right now. If she lived near me I would probably love her to death. And hold her forever and ever. I would still do those things even if we aren't together. I guess you can call that love ??? I'd do anything for her Anything at all For my opinion I dont deserve anyone. If my damn feelings just play tricks on me Then Fuck It I'm usually the first person she calls when she's having a bad day To Me i'm just fucked up I dont get close to anybody anymore cause im afriad to get hurt like i once did and it hurt very badly.