Sugar, We're going down

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: discombobulated
Well today's been really awesome. I worked on the driveway for an hour or so....then ate for awhile :p...a long while. Then I had to burn some boxes..that was fun. Who doesn't like fire. Anyways...then I went to Wal-Mart and got the new Fall Out Boy cd! Yeah they're great. Then I talked to ashlee for awhile. Yeah Yeah...she's great! I'm just dying to be him Am I more than you bargained for yet? Yeah it's me
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3 entries in 1 day ! ! !

by xxtruethugxx
Listening to: Nothing
Feeling: gelatinous
1. First Name: Ian 2. Were you named after anyone? Nope 3. Do you wish on stars? Of course 4. When did you last cry? Tonight 5. Do you like your handwriting? More than most 6. What is your favorite lunch meat? Turkey 7. What is your birth date? 07/30/90 8. What is your most embarrassing CD? Baha Men 9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? Duh! 10. Are you a daredevil? Most of the time 11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Try not to... 12. Do looks matter? Sometimes... but that's not all. 13. How do you release anger? Umm..you don't wanna know 14. Where is your second home? Alex's or Mark's 15. Do you trust others easily? No... 16. What was your favorite toy as a child? Guns? 17. What class in school do think is totally useless? All of em 18. Do you have a journal? Online 19. Do you use sarcasm a lot? No way! 20. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? Does going to a family reunion count? 21. Favorite movie? The Notebook, Hardball, and Coach Carter 25. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No 26. What's your favorite ice cream? Chocolate 27. Shoe size? 10'5 28. What are your favorite colors? Blue, Red, and Black 29. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? I do stupid things! 30. Who do you miss most? Having a girlfriend 32. What color pants are you wearing? Tan 33. What are you listening to right now? Hawthorne Heights 4. Last thing you ate? Peanuts... 35. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Royal Blue! 36. What is the weather like right now? Rainy 37. Last person you talked to on phone? Uhh...I don't get calls..often 38. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes/personality 40. How are you today? Tired and lonely 41. Favorite Drink? Dr. Pepper, hands down. 42. Favorite sport? All soccer! 43. Hair color? Brown and blonde 44. Eye color? brown/black 45. Do you wear contacts? Sure do 46. Favorite month? December 48. Last movie you watched? Coach Carter 49. Favorite day of the year? Valentine's Day or my birthday. 50. Scary movies or happy endings? Scary movies. 51. Summer or winter? Winter 52. Hugs or kisses? Hugs..but kisses are great to 53. Relationships or one night stands? Relationships! 54. What is your favorite dessert? Triple Chocolate Meltdown-Applebee's 58. Are you married or do you want to get married? Once I find the perfect women 59. Do you have any kids or do you want to have kids? Plan to 60. What books are you reading? Wicked Day 61. What's on your mouse pad? Taz! 62. Favorite Games? Smear the queer! 63. What did you watch on tv last night? umm...Wild'n Out 64. Favorite smells? Bod 65. What is the first thing you think when you wake up? What the hell! THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME 01 - Dads 02 - Terrorists 03 - Ex-gf's THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND 01 - The mexicans at El Mezcal 02 - Why toilet seats have to be so cold 03 - Wannabe's THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW 01 - Shirt 02 - Pants 03 - Socks THREE THINGS ON MY DESK 01 - Cell phone 02 - Lamp 03 - Coaster THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE 01 - LIVE 02 - Be with th one I love 03 - Go to the "ghetto" THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU 01 - I'm emotional 02 - I like to write 03 - Umm I use to hurt myself :( THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST 01 - Oh snap 02 - What 03 - Duh THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO 01 - A McDonald's in Mexico 02 - Anywhere but here! 03 - Busy city of New York THREE NAMES THAT YOU GO BY 01 - Ian 02 - Mikey 03 - Gena... THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE OR HAD [aim??] 01 - USidiot101 02 - USidiot101 03 - USidiot101 Now tell me if you know me...
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MUAHAHAHA ! ! ! ! ! !

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: ambivalent
You love me? You hate me? You embrace me? You change me? You rearange me? You awake me? You kill me? You thrill me? You want me? You upset me? You except me? You deflect me? You arouse me? You petrify me? You need me......! Please take me......! Make me yours......! Take control of yesterday... And make today yours...
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ROYALS

by xxtruethugxx
Listening to: Papa Roach- Scars
Feeling: secretive
Well today I'm going to a Royals game with Brooke and Candra and it's gonna be loads of fun! Yeah cause we all know that the Royals are gonna win! HAHA yeah right. But it's about time to get ready so I'm gonna hit the shower...oh yeah and they're picking me up in a Gray Hound Bus! HAHAHA with really bouncy seats. Kristen won't you sing to me! Elizabeth I like all the pictures of you in Candra's phone...you should consider modeling Time takes it's toll...... Yeah all in the C-Unit
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Physical's

by xxtruethugxx
Listening to: Nothing
Feeling: volatile
Well today was pretty sweet. I was tired as hell from last night. Stayed up till 6:30 in the morning playing poker. Then I went to get my physical. And I finally understand what getting a physical means. I felt violated after getting outta there. She was touching places she shouldn't have gone to! And she was OLD! EWWWW..... Leave 'em Sweet
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Last Goodbye

by xxtruethugxx
Listening to: Nothing
Feeling: amorous
Once again I'm at the end All the letters that I sent Whats it all mean to you? I couldn't believe the day You left and ran away It's just another broken heart Leading right back to the start I wish that you would come back Make sure that you can hear me This is goodbye.....one last time Why'd you have to go like this Not even a goodbye kiss I'll miss you so much more Now that you slammed the door It's to late for forgiving I hate living with these lies All of it was left in my head So many things still left unsaid I just need to hear from you That you gone and left alone I just wish you were here That way I'd have no fear I'm not here to waste more time I gotta get this off my mind This is goodbye.....one last time ?.?.? Fill in the blanks Trails traveling for miles
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I'm giving up.....

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: awkward
I'm giving up on loving you I can't take the pain you've put me through Deep down I know the feelings are always there Maybe someday you will care. At least for now I can hide my pain I know if I don't, I'll go insane Our time apart has made me realize There is no second chance when it comes to lies. I almost had you back one time But of course, you changed your mind The many excuses that I have told Are getting lame and really old. We never talk anymore Its like a room to your life and you've slammed the door. It hurts to know you've shut me out Now I know what love is all about You're happy then you cry and cry Where there was truth becomes all lies. All in all it never ends for good But then again, who thought it would? Losing love.... And now I see that it is true..... I always cared more about you..... You were my oxygen to love..... 2 Months.....
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What Is Your Deepest Fear?

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: alive
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were all meant to shine, as children do. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Lord I just want to say thank you. You saved my life. Don't lose hope 2 Months.....
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My Description Of Love

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: longing
Love is heart that can become a broken puzzle if torn apart. Love is a dagger forced into a poor lonely soul that can break you or make you whole. Love is a game, shame, lame and a name. Love is a new life and a knife. Love can be like death, it can give or take your breath. Love is a saddness, a sorrow. Love is a new day tomorrow.Love is destressing, depressing and obsessing. Love is glory and a never ending story. Love is a flower that can be weak or be a power. Love is appealing, a feeling and can be hurtful or healing. Love is a fire, a burning desire and can be a dirty lier. Love is a killer and a thriller. Love is a pill that messes with will. Love is a flowing river that makes you cold, makes you quiver. Love is a new door that can be empty or can be more. Love is a passage way, a new beginning, a bran new day. Love is the colors black and blue from the bruises from the old that still look new. Love is a book, a new way to look. Love is pain that can be lost or can gain. Love is apart of you and me and thats the way it will always be. Written by.... Yours Truly Tell me what you think 2 Months.....
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Whens the Time?

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: beat
Another day is going by I'm thinking about you all the time But you're out there And I wrote this letter in my head 'Cuz so many things were left unsaid But now you're gone And I can't think straight This could be the one last chance To make you understand I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laught Somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? 'Cuz I know I won't forget you Together we broke all the fules Dreaming of dropping out of school And leave this place and never come back So now maybe after all these yaers If you miss me have no fear I'll be here I'll be waiting This could be the one last chance to make you understand And I just can't let you leave me once again..... I close my eyes.....and all I see is you I close my eyes.....I try to sleep I can't forget you.....and I'd do anything for you I'd never give up.....I'd never give up on you But then one day.....I won't be there.
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As Nights Go By

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: heartbroken
As another night goes by...I found myself having to fall asleep to the screaming in my mind. Why did I do it again? Why? I mean killing myself is something I would never do, but the pain...I just don't feel anymore. I promised myself. But I don't care anymore.....I lost you. And I'm never gonna get that chance. Your gone. So as I lay down tonight...ready to fall asleep...I say one last goodbye. Love breaks hearts But your love puts them back together. I don't feel so hott so I'm going to bed(sounds great)! One Last Goodbye
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Hurry up!

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: anxious
I can't wait till this summers over! It's screwed up way to much. Well then again school probably won't be any better.I just don't know what to do anymore. I just want everything to stop. My life to start over. To much to ask for, i know. But it's just sooo hard to have to deal with every single little thing going through my mind. Lost loves...don't return...keep em close Don't lose to the game the world plays Who knows...we'll see tomorrow.
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When Will It End?

by xxtruethugxx
Feeling: terrified
Well today pretty much sucks.....so far.I have to work on the damn window frames non-stop in this damn heat, and holy shit is it hott! Then I'll probably be on the computer till the fair. Yeah the fair.....again and again and again. But hey I get to see Jamie again. I really try not to bug her but its just sooo hard not being with her! It's painful! And knowing that now I have no 2nd chance pretty much just plain sucks. But hopefully I'll be able to bear it. We'll just have to see? But I have to work on some more frames so leave some comments for me. They always brighten my day. (I want you back) Going by the Wake Up Call..... ..... ... ..... - ... ....... ......
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