my weekend was great. we went and stayed in a hotel. me danielle tony and kyle. we swam and relaxed in the hottub most of the night. we also went to texas roadhouse and to the "adult" store. i had the best sex ever! kyle asked me to marry him and of course i said yes. the date is set for june 3. i want to get married in the middle school gym where we first met. but idk if theyll let us. its original.

im supposed to be writing my script but i have no idea what to write. im thinking of doing a funny python skit. idk. maybe... IHAVENOIDEAWHATTOWRITE...AHHHHH

i want to write, but i dont know what. i almost want to stop writing here. writing everything down makes it seem real and im afraid of the reality of my life. and i coward away into everyones thoughts.

forget everything you think you know about me. thats not me. forget the things ive told you. they contradict reality. they were things i was only thinking. forget everything ive ever done. it could get me killed. i contradict myself. you dont know me. keep guessing. i love it.

You can hear her yelling bottoms up as the bottles break.

shes a sex fiend and youre falling hard. shes a love manipulater and youre wanting more.

shes full of sex and youre her next victim.

so i have imperfections who doesnt? 1* i over-exagerate 2* i like to srew things up to make them better. 3* i like to fight just to make up 4* i over analyze 5* i get excited too easily 6* im too nice to stangers and some take it as an indication of lust. 7* i can rapidly change moods 8* i can be a total bitch 9* im perverted 10* i always have to have my way or else... 11* i can get annoying 12* i dont always speak my mind when i should 13* im not good at showing sympathy 14* i dont think till after ive done it 15* im sure theres more... but with all my imperfections im still beautiful inside and out. and i want you to accept me for who i am. i mean i can be all those but + im also really sweet, + ill always stick by your side through thick and thin, + im a great listener and i give halfway good advice, + i dont follow someone inless its for the better, + ill always be loyal and remain faithful, + i love to make people happy (even complete stangers) just to show them that there is good in this crazy mixed up world, + but most of all youre the best thing about me. and i love you with all my heart and more... i hope you realize that even though im stupid at times i still want us to be permanent. forever. always.