oh its about 6:00 and ive been playing games and thinking all night.... fuck... i dont know wheater it was school or not finding enough punk but ive completely changed..... i used to be completely opposed to emo but now i need it to get me through school i mean music is one of the best things that ever happend to me and i used to be such a punk.... and i dont know who i am... i will NEVER nEVER stop liking punk but the belifs in punk and belifs in EMo are paraell opposites and if i choose half and half which i do it is so hypocritical i usally just go with what im in the mood for... and my cousin who is awesome got me thinking ... i used to hate emo and all it standed for... maybe i got sucked in but im preety sure it was school.... school.... oh where to start i try to keep a positive attitude... but.... it so depressing friends comeand go rarly or never come at all the reason im still in cause gabreil might go there next year btu for mnow everyone there i hate except middle school friends and like... the once in a bluemoon punk/emo kids..... so in sort of all this i have become in a more depressed mood so i goto more depressing music i will never stop liking punk but it is usally punk vs emo and i like both so i go wiht what i like and say: fuck the rest btu then people lik buttons and Justin remind me of who i used to be and what i beleived in..... and i feel like i have betrayed.... my self but i havent abondond the old me and i wanna go back to my old way of like and keep the knew but its so complicated wow listen to me... i need a life... lol maybe a girl.... but they suck to... so im back to music... whatever :::::"Look up when you walk or you will hit something and hrt yourself, so look up and walking life will be easier":::::