So, as the title states, 2010 has not been a good year for me so far. Corey & I have broken up 3 times this year.. Each time he had the same "reason".. Which was "I just dont wanna be in a relationship right now, but I love you, & Im in love with you."..

So, we broke up for the first time in February, we were broken up for 2 weeks, then, we got back together, mainly because I begged him, so I guess that time doesnt really count. Then, we broke up again sometime in March. Stayed broken up for a week & a half, he came back to me, saying he's sorry, he missed me & he didnt know why he broke up with me. Then, we broke up again at the end of July... Same thing, stayed broken up for a week & a half, & then he wanted to get back together. Of course, everytime he wanted to get back together, I took him back because I love him.. & as of now, we've been back together since the beginning of August. We've actually been doing really good. But Im still out of work, been that way since April.. I've been trying to find a job, but no one will hire me & Im not sure why... I know that we have been having money problems, but as far as I can tell, it hasnt affected our relationship. That makes me happy. I just dont know how Corey feels about it.

Everytime we get back together, we have plans to get married, but then, he breaks up with me again. We have plans to get married now also, he's supposed to be getting me an engagement ring for Christmas, & we're supposed to get married soon after that. Im real excited about marrying Corey, but Idk if he's gonna change his mind again & break up with me.. I hope not.. But, if he breaks up with me again, Im not taking him back.. Idk.. I just wish I didnt have doubts about how he feels about me. I mean, I know he loves me, I just wish he'd stop breaking up with me & then saying he wants to be back with me..

I just hope everything work out.