don't call me that don't claim you love me 'cuz you know that ain't true. my dire affliction i'll attribute to you. (many years later and much too old to have a diary online).

ahh okay sooooo yesterday was halloween. hit up the video store, ONLY ones in the parking lot, some fucks got to the exorcist before we did so we ended up getting 28 days later which was not bad only due to cillian murphy aka hottiehothothothot umm yeah, pigged out on candy, watched the movie, were visited by sam and friends and some super cute lil kids todayyyyy went home with christaaa we did some disney research (ahha) watched the rescuers down under, ate cold pizza, and then bren bren came overr EEE we hit up sam's for a bit, half played euchre because bren is a bad loser and then walked back and pulled a "the notebook" by lying in the middle of the street and oh yeah we played in marshall for a wee bit someone tried to scare us but oh no he did not pull it off ahah yeah sooo came home took a shower and now i am discovering new music to enrich my life ehehhehe yayy christa's birthday and the concert tomorrow!! yayyy

oh, my life. friday night i ditched some of the buddy's crew since i felt it was justified considering the blatant ditching of the night before and spent the night at mike's house. i'm glad i did. i kept him up until four, talking everything out, and even though he was probably half concious, it made me feel better. i'm glad not all guys are assholes. saturday night anna flipped out about me going to a party with dennis so she had some kind of reprimanding conversation with him beforehand and he took me out to a movie instead. i think he wanted to take me to the party afterwards but anna was being overbearing but it was alright, anyways, so he took me back to her place and went on his merry way. it was a great night; he was a perfect gentleman the entire time. i was very impressed. then about 10 minutes later anna's mike came home rather tispy with matt, who i finally got to meet and ended up talking to and watching movies with until 5 in the morning when i proceeded to pass out on the couch and he on the floor. we laughed a lot; i definitely enjoyed myself. and then somehow i got coherced into going to breakfast with him in the morning which turned into me joyriding around wixom for like a year before he finally found me and led me to the correct location. haha. good times. my god i am tired. also, i talked the situation out with my sister and since she is the only one who knows whats up, i finally realized exactly why he is acting the way that he is, and that he represents everything wrong in the world. i'm so digusted i don't even know what to think anymore. all i know is that refuse to work on the same nights as him from now on, i don't care what bullshit i have to make up to tell the managers, i will not see him again, i will not let him go on acting like his assholey self around me, i don't need his fucking bullshit. unbelievable, i didn't actually think people were like that. fucking christian republican close-minded judgemental selfish asshole. you have no idea what the situation was, you don't know anything about me or my life, you just made a snap judgement and condemned me for something you think is so unforgivable that i didn't even do. fuck you, you stupid shit. and i'm fucking leaving your hoodie out in the road to get run over like i hope you do too. fuck. he fucking ruined my night last night, when kate called to tell me what he said to her at work. i was having such a great time with dennis but i couldn't be completely happy because i was preoccupied with all the bullshit. well i'm not letting him get to me anymore, i was never the type to sit around trying to change people, especially that type. and if he ever becomes senator, anywhere, i am moving the fuck out of the united states and telling everyone i'm canadian. the end.

i don't remember what it used to be like the things that i'm not proud of and the only reason i kept coming back to you was because i thought i was in love but i don't think about you anymore and i wonder what the hell i came here for when i'd rather just fall right off your floor and come beautifully undone

i love my stupid cats.

ohh man i really should update more cuz i think i'm in danger of forgetting everything that has happened to me lately naww prolly not but letsee, today, juliet's 1rst communion and a little bonding with the klarr klan and then some good times methinks :)

so i haven't written in a while but i forgot how goshdarn pretty this journal is so my basement flooded that was fun nothing like splashing in indoor puddles and for some reason my entire house smells like cereal anyways, i dont even know what the hell has been going on lately, way too much to describe in detail, or at all since i'm departing in a bout 1.5 minutes sooo i'll update more later i suppose spring break '06 !

happy birthday leenie bean love ya now and forever and a little bit more okay

the superbowl party was amazing. i love my friends. that is all i have to say.

shit son i had a good time today after school went home attempted to finish lesson plans, yeah that turned out just lovely ps april + glitter = caution tape around the basement aka crime scene but ummm at 530ish my dear and lovely chrissy picked me up and we went to coneys (FIRST UNHEALTHY FOOD IN A WHILE PEOPLE) ahha yes it was beautiful then we picked up my lovely emily quick dollar store trip ohh hells yeah i bought the first candy ive had in MONTHS and whoa sugar rush x five + 1 then headed to the match, found out jt WAS NOT wrestling, but cory came and watched with us until about 830 then we went to tim hortons!! ice caps are just unbelievable got dropped off and went to big boys real quick with my dad it was a damn good time and tmr is the day we rule the world so im excited :) good day

so yeah, yesterday me and chrissy hit up the senior center for a little bit to volunteer with the kids. but there was an overabundance of volunteers and a lack of kids which = nothing much to do. went for some good times and good food at jimmy johns lil chris was there along with the entire HOT hockey team of some unknown school umm went on a few more errands with chrissy and then she dropped me off back home just kinda chillaxed the rest of the night cuz i havent done that in a while and today i was supposed to do something with leenie and chrissy but my grandpa died so i dunno how today and the next couple days are gonna be aye carumba

happyy saturdayy soo yesterdayyyy woke up went to school yelled at a teacher (bahahha) came home cleaned a little got ready got picked up went to champs went to amc20 and watched saw 2 well i kinda half watched it but i got the main drift then snuck into walk the line but we had to leave like an hour into it cuz my rents are gay and i felt bad but joaquin phoenix is MY HERO and i need to see that movie all the way through seriously i love him so much its not healthy ahhh which brings me to today, ill be picked up by chrissy soon to do some stuff and have some fun YEAHH BITCHES oh crack donuts

oo yesterday was fun school, yano, rather pointless and tiresome but then michelle and i headed off to laurel park to have lunch at coney's and then we proceeded to shop around for a while and she learned how horribly indecisive i can be at times, whoopsieeeee but i finally purchased a cuteeeeeeeeee shirt from express :ooo pretty: and then we had starbucks in northville which is my newest and strongest addiction by the way. and then we went back to laurel so she could get a calender for her bfffffff and thennn she dropped me off cuz i had to go somewhere with my dad which took way too long and i got home at nine even though i had to do my ENTIRE SHITTY art project for pre school. didnt take that long though and im worried its horrible and the kids will throw it down in disgust but i'm sure everything will work out fine my only concern is that i am exhausted right now and still feel shitty from monday ahhhh damn you school damn you to hell

geez another fricking sweet weekend, what is this alright so friday night, saw with the cp kids which i thought was a decent movie minus the graphicness that i couldnt even watch um and somewhere during the course of the evening i was coherced into going to the michigan game the next day which i did *gasp* and we had fucking first row seats on the indiana side...so close i could see how hot the football players were. hoo damn! it was amazing for my first and prolly my only college football experience after the game we got some food in ann arbor and drove back and it was around 545 ish so i went over to christa's and chilled with her and brendan for like 10 minutes cuz then he had to go and me and chris went to laurel park which i love cuz it was all decorated and holidayish which always puts me in a happy mooddddd we got coney island cuz that is like OUR PLACE now apparently and i bought the sweetest journal of all time haha "what do you look for in a journal" umm yep then we headed back to her house and bren came over again and we were insanely hyper and let it all out at his community park where we had a cornstalk lightsaber fight and then we went to starbucks in northville and it was pretty and nice and i loved it and finally we circled around my neighborhood like 5 times while listening to two rather awesome radiohead songs anddddd now it's sunday and i prolly won't do my homework because i've decided against the whole homework concept anyways but yeah i seriously FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH heartttt

yeah sooo no school tomorrow thank god i will sleep all day and there will be no regret for wasting a day um, sunday was sweet. i got bren all to myself for about 30 minutes at coney island and then christa joined us and we headed back to her house to be sweet and play clue and chillax and then brendan left and me and christa pet the monkey and that prolly sounds like a sexual innuendo but ill leave it up to various interpretation i always have a good time with her so it was sweet even tho sooomeeonee decided not to hang with us. hung out with that soommeonee tonight for a little bit which was fun and yeah, im so tired right now, i've been crazy busy this past week and i guess it finally caught up with me. this is what happens when you dont drink coffee every two hours. oh by the way ZOUP is a fricking tasty place. and the cedar point/misc. pics are fucking sweet

yes so allow me to describe in detail one of the best days i have had and seriously, this past week, from last saturday to yesterday, has been fanfuckingtastic anyways. the ladies picked me up at 11ish and we did some seriously impressive dollar store power shopping. then we were all starving and attempted to get to jimmy johns. however there was a slight problem with massive traffic and in the end it took us 30 minutes to get there even though we were just across the street. umm yep had a tasty #6 and bren was creepily intense while working. thenn we headed to target for more power shopping and thenn we went to the cider mill. okay so on the way back from the cider mill we wanted to go to northville and we decided to cut through home depot's parking lot to avoid the traffic at the light which is apparently illegal even though about 15 other people were doing it. soo there was a cop that was deliberately watching our every move as we decided to park and go inside to home depot and we spent about 10 minutes looking at paint chips since christa is "painting her room" ahah yeah she developed an interesting story which i really didnt think we would ever need to use. butttt sureee enough we got pulled over by the old grumpy cop who was so focused on busting us that he let a bunch of other people get away with it which kind of pissed me off in the midst of how funny it was. yeah me and em were crackin up in the backseat. christa played it off rather well even tho she and leen were shaking. we got away with it though, thanks to leen's clean record. ahhh way to think 4 teenage girls in a sports car going to home depot is SUSPICIOUS psht. anyways, headed to northville, got some fraps, mmm, walked around for a little bit and then got dropped off at christas. bren came over and we chilled for a bit and i used my amazing powers of persuasion to convinve christa to let him come to the party sooo at 630 we headed over to chrissy's to set up with emily. we are sweet party planners let me tell you with our decorations and amazingly unmatched cups and plates and silverware teehee yep so chrissy came, was very surprised, and yano we partied. intense marshmallow fight in the backyard. i ate so much i'm still recovering right now. then leenie drove me home but not before we stopped for coffee at 11 which i know is dumb because i didnt get to sleep at all but i was so hyped and she had her first doubleshot expresso of all time so it was worth it. yep great day! dunno what's going on today for sure but i bet it'll be sweeeeet.

okay hey there the concert was fucking sweet started off with gatsby's american dream that me christa and sam are all in love with now, mostly due to the hottness of the lead singer. hell yesss downloading a whole bunch of music right now. then lovedrug, which was very good but mellow and apparently people were bored enough to start talking a lot while they were performing which was a wee bit rude. they were sweet tho, very coldplay-ish then ARMOR FOR SLEEP and finally MATCHBOOK ROMANCE it was seriously amazing and st. andrews was crawling with hot guys which made it even better the three of us chilled up in the balcony for most of it, matt and friend came to chat once or twice, and we left our station to buy tee-shirts and get a signed poster from the sound guy who is my new loverrrr ahhh i love you soundguyyy "hi im bored so i'm going to help you" heheeh lovee ittt

yeah, best day of my life so far hands down letsee letsee hit up christa's house around 830 and brendan was there at the exact same time how crazy, then when matt came over we all went to coneys for breakfast and they made fun of my coffee addiction andddd we hit the roaddddddd. damned the construction to hell made it to the park around 1240. MANTIS was first that was nuts i was a lil freaked i'm not gonna lie. then i dont know but it was fricking sweet as hell. then we had fries. ahhha. um yeah several hours later it was dark and cold and everything was lit up and decorated and there was the fog and the lights and the creepiness and random people in costume scaring the shit out of people. mean streak at night is so much sweeter than in the daytime, everything is sweeter at night i must say. left at about 10 or 1030 cant remember, hit up taco bell at midnight with all the stoner kids that was nice...yeah got home two ish and we were all complaining of soreness and exhaustedness. for some reason i didnt sleep in this morning but it caught up with me when i passed out in the recliner upstairs for four hours and i know i will be completely out of it tomorrow in school. but it's okay cuz the crew is getting together again for a movie night and i will prolly be hiding from the tv the entire time. ahh last halloween in L-Town

yesterday was so much fun, seriously i'm so glad i went. letsee letsee did some driving with jerry then he dropped me off at christa's...then like twenty seconds later chrissy came over and we watched one tree hill. now i can't say it's a horrible show or anything but i also cannot say that i talk about the characters all week long as if they are my buddies and i know everything about their lives. but yano only cool people do that i guess. mm then the guys came over and we all headed to st. aidans to wait for everybody else and then we piled into the CHURCH VAN which we all decided we need one just like it for partying hardcore. aheee gotta little lost on the way but it was okay cuz it was worth it to watch christa rocking out to rap all the way there. finally made it to the place that i didn't even know existed and went into the mazeeeee. it wasn't scary, thank goodness, except when the little mofos decided to jump out and scare us and then start chucking corn. motherfuckers. but yea we made it out, NOT LAST EITHER, ahaha yea that was sweet. ummm i needed to peee really bad and jus thinkin about it makes me need to pee again...HAD TO WAIT UNTIL WE GOT TO BUDDYS...but yea, took care of that. and buddys was awesome i forgot how fricking good their pizza is now i have to go there all the time esp because there were delicious looking gentlemen there. yep then headed back to christa's with brendan for just a wee bit. doin smore hardcore hanging out today i'm not gonna lie i'm stoked.

haha okay wow i am so happy right now, and the reason is DISNEY. yes that's right i am the proud downloader of about 35 disney songs and i just get a natural high from listening to them OHHHH MAN!!!! but yeah this past week has been excellent. no school wednesday, got to SLEEP, finally, and then half day friday. went out to lunch with chrissy and then we did some serious job hunting and chillaxing; it was beautiful. then over to christa's for pizza and one tree hill with brendan and emily OHHH YEAAAAHH and then football game...too bad we lost and everyone was seriously depressed. but it's okay. we all chilled a lil bit afterwards but i was so tired christa felt the need to tackle me to keep me awake. thanks for that buddy. hehehe. ohh man i duno what i'm doing tomorrow, i'm kind of enjoying not doing anything. maybe shopping with chrissy ?? maybeeeee THE DISNEY EXHIBIT AT HENRY FORD MUSEUM?!!?!! oh man. must download more songs.