to my boo

Feeling: lovely
Daniel if you ever read this I love you. The first time I saw you I wanted to go talk to you. I wasn't sure then if I should or not. Larissa finally said I should. So I went. I don’t remember what exactly what I said to you it doesn't really matter all that matters is that you came over there and sat with us. There is so much I have to say about you I don't know where to begin. I love the way you look into my eyes. I love it when you hold me. I love it when you kiss me. I love when you make love to me. Baby both of us have been through a lot of shit but when we are together everything disappears. I'm in heaven. The first day I saw you I never knew things would end up like this for us. I never would have dreamed of such. The first time I saw you skate you were so sexy I just wanted to jump out of the car and pounce on you. But I didn't because I just liked to watch. I loved it because you looked so happy. I love it when you smile. How you tilt your head to the side and down a little and look up at me. I love it when you are happy. It makes me happy. When we were in school and you were kicked out and you walked or skated everyday just to come see me it made me feel like I was the greatest person alive. And when you put that sign in the road I love Kim it was so cool I showed all my friends and they all made fun of me but I don’t care because I love you. That day we were caught kissing I didn't care. For the first time in my life I didn't care if I was in trouble or not because I was with you and it was worth so much to me. You told me I was crazy for walking all the way from dreher to your house but I wasn't I just wanted to be with you and I knew that was the only way I was going to be able to see you before I left. I would do anything for you. If you ever needed anything you can always count on me to be there. And if I can't make it to you I want you to know that I will try my damnest to get there. Yes I have cheated on you and more than once. I probably shouldn't be bringing that up now but I want you to know that the guy I cheated on you with (you know who he is) is nothing compared to you. You are my everything my one and my only. And I am so sorry for everything I have done to cause you to hurt. No matter what you have been here for me so no matter what I will be there for you. Christmas when my family was there I am so sorry you had to see that but when you were holding me and telling me everything was going to be okay. I really did feel better. Yeah you probably think I am psycho and my whole family too but I just want to thank you so much for staying with me especially after that night. Everyone else once they meet my dad they end up breaking up with me but you didn't and that meant so much to me. Really in the end it’s all the little things that I love the most about you. Like how you can do the chipmunk voice and how you sing and how funny looking your hair is (no offense) and how you kiss me and the things you say. It makes me feel loved. And truly I know this is sad to say but the only other person who has ever made me feel loved is my grandmother. And the only other person who makes me feel loved the way you make me feel loved is.. Well no one. You are amazing to me. You are really special. I know things with your family aren't great and everyday I think about how I wish that we could just go away maybe live in Florida or hell even stay here in south Carolina but just be together just me and you. Yeah we would have our times when we would get sick of each other but in the end love always conquers. And I know in my heart that what we have is love. Daniel Lewis Knight I Love You And YES I would love to marry you! That day you proposed to me I was scared I didn't know what I was thinking. But I do know that when I said yes that I meant it. It will be a while before that happens but if I have anything to do with it we will get married. Baby please don't ever forget any of this. If you did it would be like you forgetting all about me and I wouldn't be able to live if I didn't have you. I love you. I wish there was a way to express to you how much I care about you. But I could never fathom the words to write or say to make you feel the love I have for you. I wish I could explain. I Love You!
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tina you fat lard come eat your dinner

Listening to: straylightrun
Feeling: vamped
today i had to go to school. it was the same old same old. i had probability and statistics first block, then spanish 2, then lunch where i saw a dead birds head.then i had government and economics then finally orchestra where we had an interesting substitute. i wanted to go to the skate park but i had volleyball and then a pto meeting i had to go to. school sucks. thank you god for blessing me with talent and potential please help me to use it fully and for your will. i am empty can you please fill me make me whole again will someone fill this void? i wish. Riley I Love You! ~kim
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tired

Feeling: torn
today i went to florence to see my great grandmother. i slept on the way up there and then i had to drive back. when i got home i went to joyful night live, this service at our church, now im at home chillin. Riley i wonder if you are still there. if you still care. i know you do or you wouldn't say the things you do. I LOVE YOU. I ALWAYS WILL. thanks for the great b-day weekend it was fun. :) i will never forget it. and i hope you won't be mad at me for it. we all get over these things. it just takes time you need your space and i understand. but baby sometimes i need you around. i shouldn't depend on you i know.... so tommorrow is school. blah. its my senior year and i had to change schools. it sucks but i have made a lot of new friends. people seem to like me. its cool.i have volleyball all next week after school so i won't be able to work again. oh well at least i know i will have a job when volleyball is over with. and a hella good job at that. i get to stay home this week woot woot. im excited. i have to do everything right. and i thought it would be hard but really its a lot easier to do whats right than to do whats wrong. i don't have to think as much and i don't have to worry as much. i have a clean conscious. its cool. i never thought i would say this but i like it this way. well thats all i have for now. feel free to comment. i depend on you. im sorry i know its pathetic. ~kim
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can you bring me my chapstick?

Feeling: vamped
i went to the skate park the other day and saw tripp. his ankles were hurt so he let me use his skateboard. i suck at skating. but its fun to try. i went to sports-a-rama and for the first time in like three years no one was shot. i geuss because there were so many cops everywhere. i will be graduating in december and i still haven't applied to any colleges. i really should be doing that right now but i don't feel like doing it. i wish that we could have fallout again it was so much fun. i miss it riley i miss you. i know you told me i couldn't depend on you so i shouldn't and i told you i would be fine without you. but im not. i hate not being able to spend time with you. either you are working or im working or im at volleyball or my grandma won't let us do anything. sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i had never met you. you give me hope for being here. you give me a reason. and i thank you. i hope you feel the same. ~Kim
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