Its all my fault me and Keith arn't friends nemore, I miss him sooo much! Y did I have to go and tell my other friend that I did something wrong, I should have known he was going to go and tell... that's y I'm losing all my friends and I lost the most important person in my life... Keith!!! If I wouldn't have went and told we would all be getting along... I would be laughing again... I miss laughing, especially with Keith! But that's all gone now, I really miss him!!! He says that I broke his heart once and he doesn't want me to break it again and that's y he dropped me... Do u really think I'm going to make the same mistakes as last time? Especially if I know this is going to happen. I love you Keith and I really really miss you, plz give me another chance and I will show u that I will never break ur heart again... plz!!!

Last night was the bomb, my mom bought 50$ towards alcohol and I fuckin sipped 1 shmeirnoff, chugged 3 whine coolers in less than 45 min and then chugged another 2 1/2 in another hour, had a shot of dr., and chugged a glass of champagne at midnight!!! The great thing is, is that I didn't even throw up, and I have to worst headache ever!!!

There's this one guy that I really like and I went to my friend Joey's 18th Birthday party Saturday night and me and this guy did shit and I thought he liked me too, but I guess not!!! It was a mistake, I thought I could have had a bf that actually liked me, for me, but I was wrong about that too!!! He tryed gettin me to have sex with him but I couldn't or else my other friend would have casterated him or killed him!!! So I guess I'll never have a guy that likes me for WHO I AM!!!!!! And the dumbest thing I could have ALMOST did is ask him to the snow dance!!!

I found lout my Uncle died last week and i woke up yesterday and my mom told me that the funeral is either this wednesday or thursday. So I said ok, and after school yesterday i asked her if it was open casket or the burial, and she said its not, he's being creamated. And I started crying, i cry everytime I talk about it its depressing!!!

i hate everyone cuz they all think i'm a dirty little whore and they all hate me. I hate my life and i wish i was never born, that way i wouldn't be the problem in everybody's life nemore. I really like this one boi named Steven and they all think that i'm gonna do shit with him and i never planned on it unless we were goin out for like a month or some shit like that, i hate everyone because everyone hates me and i wish i would just die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok ok... get this... me, kevin, leanne, kelly, keith, bob, and tammy all went up to paradise road tonight and we were smokin (sry baby) and drinkin when the police came but we stopped drinkin by the time the police got up there and b4 when kevin tryed gettin into the car the doors were unlocked and when kevin got out the doors were still unlocked and the keys were not all the way in the ignition and then we shut the doors and the police told us to leave and we said ok and when leanne tryed gettin in all the doors were locked and the cops tryed unlockin them but they wouldn't so they stopped and they were goin to tow the car and then i just tryed openin the door and it was unlocked, ME, and then i checked if the keys were all the way in the ignition and they were, its a fuckin good thing i thought about openin the door cuz then we would have to pay a toin charge for the towtruck and we didn't want that... That's some freaky shit ain't it... I wasn't scared one little bit.. it was great!!!!! It's a haunted road by the way!!!!

leanne said we could drive her car... ok yeah, she didn't say to creek... but neways me and kelly took leanne's car to Tj's house and we took him to creek wit us and said we should drive to creek to see her creek friends but we didn't have enuff gas and i said yeah we did and that we would have enuff to get to creek and back.... so we went to creek and we stopped at treys house and he went drivin wit us and he pressured kelly into lettin him drive so she let him and he was only 14 and we went all the way to jefferson and back to creek and trey payed for gas and then we went cruizin around a lil bit and then kelly told him to stop drivin so rough but he wouldn't listen and he was drivin wrecklessly around a new subdivision and the ppl in the house called the cops and we all got busted!!!!

omfg, i am so fuckin bored its so not fuckin funny, nobody's online, i can't watch the movie that my sis is watching wit her friends cuz they said that i shouldof started watching it when they did or else i i couldn't and i guess they weren't lyin, jeez, now i'm bored as hell and i need a cig, but my friend has them in the room wit him and he said wait until the movie was over and i don't think i can i really need one. aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I went to the sk8 park just like any other day, and a guy named jacob bivens got his ass kicked by another kid named cody miller, but the bad thing is that bivens is in 11th grade and cody is in 10th, then there was another fight RIGHT after that between a kid named andrew cutsforth and a guy named aaron peiot, aaron was bleeding all over the fuckin place, i swear it was like the most entertainment i've seen in my whole life time, it was so fuckin great, haha!! There was SUPPOSE to be another one between a kid named Jake Gutzdorf and a kid named Brent Grim, but Brent was to pussy to show up i guess!! But still it was great!! lol!!

2day i went to gay ass summer school and its only the 2nd day and already i forgot my shit at home and i got kicked out of class, she told me to sit in the hall til she was ready to bring me back in and i said fuck it and went home but the thing is that the class hour is 2 1/2 hours long and i got kicked out at the very beginnin, this fuckin sucks i hate summer school!

yesterday was my b-day and none of my friends remembered my b-day except for 3 ppl plus my mom and my sisters. so yeah shows how much ppl think bout me right. but neway i think i want to do somethin i will regret. uhhh yeah.i ate alot of cake and ice cream so i will taste really good.

Man I and so hyper i am jumpin off the walls and singin and i feal like dancin, i can't wait until monday, party, and it's almost my b-day, so booya baby, i'm turnin 15.haha!

i can't wait until school is over man yes 2 half days left, well there exam days, tomm i have a math exam then studie hall so i get to go to the commons and walk around and talk to my friends, so that's cool, and then thursday i have my physical fitness exam for gym then i have another studie hall, so this is the best exam week i have ever had, then schools out and then i get to go to wilderness lodge in wisconsin dells for my b-day, so that's goin to be fun. bye!!!!

GOD...........i don't like fealin preppy it's just, i like this outfit. My mini jeanskirt w/ my orange, red, pink, and yellow belt and my orange tank top. I love this, i just don't like fealin like a prep, so if u don't like it, to bad, get over it. But my etnies are hott. Yeah yeah yeah!!!

i can't wait until tomm for 2 reasons it is friday and i get to go up north to chill wit my homies and hot guyz, we get to go swimmin in the lake! Damn right! haha!

this is brittany and i am writing in deejayes first entry. deejaye needs to take her pills everyday but she doesnt. she has adhd and she can not control her actions. she is currently looking for a boyfriend so maybe some guys shud talk to her cuz shes willing to do anything. her number is 1-920-261-9856 so call her. (hehhehehehhe just kidding. but this is brittany and deejaye does have ADHD)