hey, ok well... i have had 5 different bfs since i last wrote in here and i have 2 bfs right now. i dated this one guy and i only seen him once in the month and a half that we dated so i was like fuck it so i broke up with him. the second guy i dated and that i am still dating lives like an hour away from me so i dont get to see him much any more then what i did when he live in the town that i live in. the third guy i have dated on and off for the past 2 years. the fourth guy i dated was way too shy but really, really nice. and then the fifth guy i dated and i still am is my love of my life. i love him so much and he loves me so much. and i call myself a slut because i have 2 bfs and i have 2 fuck buddies that are not my one of my bfs. my 2 fuck buddies are 2 of my ex's that i have mentioned up there^. their names are jeff and nic. and my 2 bfs names are norman and aj. but yeah so that is my life right now. and u can say ne thing u want but i just dont care if it is negitive thing so yeah. i love my life right now so i am going to enjoy it as much as i can. o and i am now 18 and i have been 18 for a little bit over 2 months. i am moved into my house that we have been working on and i have been living there for almost a year now. i have been doing weed everyday for a month now. getting into trouble is my kinda thing. my friend josh is in the hospital for cancer. and it is almost a year since my friend had past away. so yeah. thats my life right now so yeah well ttyl bye bye.

well me and my ex bf are not friends anymore because he is a fucking duch bag and he thinks that if he talkes to me that he is gonna make me fall back in love with him!!!!!!!!! what a fucking loser!!!! i still have a very little bit of feelings for him but not much any more because he called me a fucking crazy bitch!!!!!!!!! what an asswhole!!!! but i really hate being single. it sucks so bad!!!!!!!!

ok first off i like 3 guys!!!! ok. well i just found out today that one guy i like is gonna go out on a date with my friend tonite. the second guy has a 22 year old girlfriend when he is only 16, and the third guy, i dont think he will like me in that way and i feel like im nothing because when i dont have a bf i feel like nothing but when i do have a bf i feel like everything.... and of course i dont have a bf and of course i feel like nothing...i just want to sit here and cry.....

we broke up on friday and i did take it hard but i am taking very well not and i am of course looking again!!!!!!!!

my and my ex bf nic are going back out again!!!! i know you people dont really care cuz he treated me like crap after but now he doesnt treat me like crap!!!!

my best friend that lives in Arkansas was in a horrable car accident, there were three passangers erika, cj, and michael,and all three of them got ejected from the car, Erika,18, died right away, her 5 month old son, Michael died 2 days later because when he was ejected from the car he got brain damage, and cj is still alive with 5 places in his back broken. He said that he wants to be with his family, he just wants to let go, so he has someone watching him at all times so he doesnt commit suicide. Erikas aunt and uncle set up an account for hers and her sons funural just in case if there isnt going to be enough to pay for the funural, Cj and Erika have and account together and he said that he is going to take all that money out of there and put it in the account that Erikas aunt and uncle set up for her and her son. the flowers Cj had at the funural that had ribbons on it said son and love of my life!!!! so cute and so sad!!!! God i miss Erika so much!!!! my mom has a pic of me and her hugging when i was four years old!!!! Erika had a big whole in her head, and her right side of her face was all droopy. Michael looked so swellen.Erika and Michael did not look like themselves at all at the funural. i have never met her son or Cj before all this all happened i wish i did but i didnt. never met her son and never met Cj the only time i met Cj was sat,jan. 6th after the funural on friday and the wake on thursday.

Kayla and Lynn one of the 2 lesbians at my school who i "USED" to be friends with. ok my mom is pissed off cause my ex bf has 2 of my cds and i havent had them in like 3 months and we broke up like a month ago and he still has them and my mom called him like last week wednsday that he has to give me my cds tonite and my mom said if he doesnt have them here by that date she is going to call the cops. cause that is basically stealling. and today i heard that kayla and lynn said that "i am stupid if i call the fucking cops for a couple cds" no they are the fucking stupid ones that go around school thinking that they are the "ganster shit" god kayla has been so nice until she met lynn. i fuckin hate them both i hope they both rot in fucking hell!!!!

where r all the guys i have been waiting for???? i want a bf, i need a bf. ommfg!!!!!!!! i really need and want a bf.

i fell in love with my ex bf and he is now out of my list and i have found some other person but i dont know if he wants me or not but he has to like me and not use me for only sex. but of corse theres gonna be sex but not only sex. i really hope i find the man of my dreams soon cause i dont like to be single. i only like to be single just so i can look AND touch. well for the other people out there that r looking for their person of their dreams, dont give up, just keep looking and he/she will come around the corner. good luck!!!! joltbloodedpsycho is my man!!!!

my boyfriend broke up with me last night because he told me he was turning gay and liking other guys and not girls, and my cuzins boyfriend broke up with her last night too because he "lost intrest", so it was asswhole day yesterday. and im ok with this i kinda dont know why but then i do im happy, hyper. i take it as now i can look at other guys now but i am really gonna miss cuddling, making out, flirting, and PDA (Public Display of Affection) so yeah. i already miss him and hate being on the market. well g2g bye bye

i called him on friday and asked him if he was still going to a play, and he said no because he "had" to work for someone else which for 1: we planned this for like 2 weeks and for 2: he doesnt even really work there. ok fine i got over that but then i told him i was going to call him on sunday some time at his dads house and he wasnt there, so i called his cuzins house cuz that is where he is most of the time, any ways i called over there and i asked him if he wanted to go to my house to help us remodel it (which he likes to do) he said no and his cuzin in the background was talking and was saying for him to tell me not to call here anymore because it is "not polite" even though back a while ago they would call my house looking for him so i was very pissed off last night and i kinda still am now, but kayla was a really cool person when i first met her but then ever since she started going out with her girlfriend she has become a royal bitch to me and some of her other friends too. well g2g bye bye

i have talked to my mom to see if my bf can live with us and she said that she has to talk to my stepdad and see what he says!!!! i so hope he says yes because my bf doesnt have a home right now because his parents are asswholes and they kicked him out and took his car too!!?? so i sooo hope my stepdad says yes!!!!

ok!!!!!!!!, i am moving to another house that i lived in for 12 years, my brother got married, my brother had a healthy baby boy, me and my bf broke up on march 26, an now we are back together for 5 weeks yesterday, i might have to go to a shity shool for my senior year

i am in love with my bf and we are engaged!!!! i got 2 tatoos!!!! a party dot on my left forarm and a heart with cross on my right ankle!!!! i want to remove the party dot and make it smaller, my friend made it so big!!!!

OMFG!!!! it is mine and my bf 1 month anniverary today!!!! and he might be going to redsberg with me, my brother, and his feience. i cant wait for that weekend!!!!

omg my bf really loves me!!!! he is in so much love with me he is already talkin bout movin in wit each other, marrage, and kids!!!! omg!!!! i cant wait to see him tonite!!!!

o my god i cant wait until this weekend because i am going to go to my bfs house and spend the weekend over there!!!! god i cant wait and this weekend is our 1 month anniversary!!!! so i cant wait!!!! well bye

i feel bad cuz the lesbian joke was just 4 fun. a couple of my friends are lesbian and i have nuttin agaisnt lesbians. sorry if u people took it the wrong way. i miss my bf really bad!!!! i know that i am too young to think about to get married and stuff but i think my bf is the one!!!! we say i love u over the phone!!!! well i aint got much to say so yeah!!!!????

my parents like my bf!!!! yesterday he came over and met my parents, played HARRY POTTER SCENE IT, he said he had to go and he gave me a kiss and a hug byy in the living room, and i followed him out side and we made out for like 2 min. i told him i loved him and he said he loved me too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we hugged for like a min. and i know that some guys say they love u and they really dont but i really, really think that he meant it and meant it well. i love him and theres nuttin people can do about it. oh!!!!!!!!i got a joke: why dont lesbians like to cook???? because they like to eat out!!!!

i am feeling nervous and excited because my bf i coming down on sunday to come meet my parents and i know that they will like him thou!!!! and he is nervous too!!!! well g2g bye