Been working at applebees since Wednesday when i did my intro. so far so good. there basically throwing me head first in the fire and want me to learn as much as soon as possible. but i like it like that. it keeps me bizy so time flys and theres plenty of fun people to work with. i already made a sit ton of friends. it feels good to not be 15 years younger than all the other cooks. haha. kudos to roger though they work his ass off. he earns his money. i think im gana do great.

My girlfriend and i split up tonight and it went better than i expected. aparently we both felt the same way. im glad we can still be friends because shes a cool person. i feel so relived.

right now my best friend in the whole world is hanging out with her ex whom she said she hated. i know that she is her own person and can do what she wants. i just wish she knew how badly it hurts me every time i hear about them being intamite. i feel like ive some how done something wrong to give her all the love i can muster and her get close to another guy like that. i shouldnt care but it hurts my heart so much i want to cry. i wish she new how much i really cared. i love you. please dont hurt me any more.

today is the first day with no carvers. im gana head up there anyway to open with joanne. i shall miss all the great friends and fun times we had. i met the greatest person ever there and i shall never forget that. Hi kitty ;) . but all good things must come to an end and from them new beginings. so i shall call applebees and start my new job. i wish everybody from Carvers the Best. RIP CARVERS CREEK.

went to an all day metal concert with slipknot headlineing. one of the longest days of my life. the first band black tie was alright and draganforce was good but damn. its like beeing surounded by lots of angry people. and dont even start me on slipknot suporting the troops. i think they all need a hug. love makes the world go round people not a circle pit. lets hope i dont have to do it again. haha