You never knew how much i loved you You never knew how much i cared You never saw the tears i cried Or how my heart was scared You never knew the joy and laughter You brought into my life Until the day you told me Your love for me had died You never knew the pain i felt When this love affair just died Now the love i knew Has come to an end And i wonder Will my heart ever mend? My days are dreary My nights are long Dreams of you haunt me

Theres so much i cant say When i looko into your eyes Im worried youll reject me And hurt my foolish pride Each day this love grows stronger But i could never let you know Theres so much behind my smile That i could never show Id hold you for a lifetime If you would let me in Id love you like no other But you dont understand Everytime i see you You are holding onto her The pain is like a knife Cutting deep into my soul So ill dream of us together If just how it could be And all that you are Will remain a silent part of me

I always feel guilty For not loving you anymore Energy drains so quickly When pain consumes you inside I finally noticed that Living without you makes me wanna die Souls that were one Separated into two Nowhere left to turn Nothing left to do Tearing out my hair And throwing it to the floor Can you tell me where we stand? I have started to lose the score Energy drains so quickly When pain consumes you inside Losing you has resulted In my silent suicide

i wish i was different i wish i could change i wish life was easy and didnt cause me pain. i wish i could run i wish i could fly i wish i could leave and not have to say goodbye. i wish i could do it i wish i could try i wish u could see that inside i want to die. i wish this didnt happen i wish it didnt hurt i wish i hadnt found that knife that let me slit my throat

She seemed so innocent Youd never think she was in pain She thought shed take control of her life She thought shed finally feel It seems like i know her This girl covered with blood Crying and alone Razors hid in her room I see her she sees me Her lonely blue eyes stare rite through me As if she's asking for help For sumone to save her To take the pain away Then i realize this girl is me Same innocent stare Same suicidal thoughts Everything is the same I try to reach out and help her I tried to stop her suicide I screamed and tried to stop her But she still slit her wrist I killed her i killed me Suicide of the same

I wished so much the sun wouldnt shine and everything was dark I wished so much my eyes wouldnt open, maybe then i could make my mark I hate the way things work out, and the way things fall apart Everything is spinning round and round inside of my cold, hard heart Th things you say, the things you do It makes me feel so bad The friendship and love we once shared i wish we never had, i hate everything you make me feel, yet i cant hate you at all Ive loved you since the day i met you Im sitting here dieing, thinking of you and what i would like to say I feel now i must end it all, I know its the only way

The blood red fountain has erupted Calm through pain, my skin corrupted Pen knifes- blunted, razors red It tires me out, insides are dead I need the pain because i know its better out Than inside, my body can confront the pain, Give me attention just one little smile Take me in ur arms and hold me awhile Give me passion, your heart and your love. And i'll give you the moon and stars, from heavens above. But till that day, i'll just lie here. Slowly going insane with my razors, The self inflicted pain and the scars will stay, A twisted memory of the days when blood let my spirit run free.

Tears of pain outloud i cry Too tired to live, too scared to die Expectations to be met and still myself to find Struggling to get a head only to fall behind Tired of being alone, wont try to be accepted Rather be alpone that to be rejected Im so used to the tears and not being apart I just cant deal with all the pain in my heart The pain I feel is much too deep Tired of being hurt, the love was too much to keep My eyes wander for passion, my life much too plain All i could find was.....Tears of Pain

At night when im trying to sleep I drift into thoughts that are so deep My mind wonders off and to me its very tough to be thinking of you when you have someone new I watch the dark night and there is nothing in sight I start to feel tears coming down my face I try to stop the tears from falling but they keep coming My heart i broken and your heart from me was stolen I wish you the best, Now i must have my final rest So i have decided to take my life because withought you, my life cannot be

Tear drops drizzle down my cheeks I've lived with this pain and sorrow for weeks It lays bottled up inside me and fills me with doubt I hide in my room with the lights turned out By definition im alive but by meaning im dead Im scared of the thoughts that run through my head The smile i plaster on my face is a lie Sometimes i feel better if i let myself cry