It's been really AGES since I wrote here(this time when I say its been quite a while, it really is, trust me on that), and since no one ever reads this and because I just really need to let this all out, here it goes... i don't like feeling sad. really. and whenever i see you, both of you, i do. first because i hate having feelings for the both of you and knowing at the same time that you have feelings for someone else too. this really isn't coming out right. i don't know how i have the same liking for not just one person but...two. you are entirely two different persons but somehow there's something that just makes me feel...its unexplainable. the worse part is we are friends and i keep on getting signals that somehow you like me too. argh! this is getting cheesy. but then when we are this close now, we are likes miles apart later. and that's why im sad. that's why i don't get the both of you. i keep telling myself to just keep on living. i've become an expert of playing it cool and keeping it hidden. all because i don't know what to do. and because i think that's the best thing. bye. hope we're cool.