So i haven't type in this for a long time. I took senior pictures today. I'm so excited to get high school over with. Then it's two years of JJC and then off to California. I mean come on who couldn't be excited about living for free with their bff 10 minutes away from the ocean adn LA. I'm feeling pretty lucky.

life is good

anyone ever had friends get mad cause you have new friends so they ditch you? last year i longed for it to be late enough to sleep and now that im doing stuff, they decide that we should be doing stuff, but idk. jan said to not worry cause im having fun and they'll get over it. hopefully. tried being nice, said hi and got brushed off. called them awhile ago and went to places by myself cause they didn't "feel like going" so idk i guess i shouldn't really care.

i never realized how many entries i have in here for not wanting to write much. ehh whatever no time mom yelling. wish life was different

there is a coffee bandish thing im guessing? idk but im going tonight and am excited for i need to get out of the house after being sick. maybe tacobell? YUM!

so i have been out of it this weekend. sucks to have a three day weekend and to sleep/be sick for 2 of the days. i did go thrift store shopping. its hard to find tshirts. the only good ones are little boys and my boobs are too big for those. but i didn't find a purple plastic case with disney princesses on it. good for a purse. wow ok this entry is pointless and boring like all the others and my life. OH AND I GOT FIGHT CLUB! never seen it but it has the ever so hot brad pitt so it has to be good right? right. <3 lauren

the killers are in concert may 11th and guess whos gonna see them for free and front row?!?!? im so stoked! i have a new obsession with the used. ha and i love the only song i heard by my chemical romance. <3 lauren

so i hate my one friends bf. (and it takes me a lot to say hate) but hes number one in her life and she always does stuff with him so we never see her anymore. i mean thats ok... but hes being a jerk to us and budding in everyone else's problems when hes NOT wanted. its annoying and all he's all emo and such and arg. idk i guess i wont see her till they break up which seems like never but soon hes hopefully of to college. taking valentines pictures with laura and lindz. gonna be fun! lol

im 16 and cant/dont know how to kiss. help me

guys still confusing. went out with one but realized i liked the other more and didnt want to be put into the situation of cheating. but see the guy i like more hasn't asked me out yet. we talked on the phone a couple of times and went to the movies, but are just friends. hmm oh and to add to the list of guys i like... there is a frickin gorgous (however its spelled) guy in my speech class. oh my gosh is he FRICKIN hot. times like 102309745023. lol hes one of those guys that make you drool. wore rainboots today. pretty neat-o but had no sock so i was in PAIN!

what do you do when you like 2 guys... and they both like you back? the each have their faults ( for one we liked eachother in the summer and then for 3 months we didn't talk till a week ago cause he had tough times and i think the other might just want sex) so i have no clue who to pick and am hoping that i dont have to. maybe i could go by who asks me out first? idk my dilema of the month. help.

ok so this guy and i liked eachother but for some reason we stopped talking a couple of months ago. i saw him like a week ago and he told my friend he wants to do somehting with me... which makes me wonder abbout things. idk confused and sick

so my parents wouldn't let me see oceans 12 which sucked. then my friends didn't want to do anyhting cause they didn't want to ask their dad for a ride and what poed me was that my friend across the street went over to my other friends house when she could of drove me cause they KNEW that i wanted to do something. and all they could reply with was "well i asked you to walk earlier" WTF why do I have to walk. im seriously starting to hate my friends. They caused me a lot of stress lately and im so fuckin tired of dealing with it. why couldn't it be nice going to the movie to watch the hot brad pitt and to go with the guy im crushin on like it was suppose to. instead im at home feeling like im gonna cry. THEN and THEN the other guy i like said he had to go to work about 3-4 hours ago and hes still online. what a frick liar. so im pretty much over him. watching the OC cant even make me happy now. i can try by listening to relient K but i doubt it. i just want someone at my house on the couch with me to have a shoulder that i can cry on. sorry for my emo ness.

hmm. part of me wants to get life over with.. but then part of me wants to be a kid again.

well today was good... and bad. its it the worst thing to hear someone talk about your bff behind their back... when they are suppose to be their bff too? i got a massive amount of paint on my shirt, well not massive... but you get the point. and in english we made a story about chrismaka. lol. and made hats. yeah it was good. do you hate it when you like someone... and you know that you'll never be together?

today is a rainy day. they always make peoples mood bad. but ya know what? i went puddle jumping so its all good. R&RF04 tomorrow!

i hate hypocrites. lately i have been noticing people whin and complain about one thing and end up doing it themself. which i might say is so effin annoying. rock and roll fest 2004 is gonna rock. man am i stoked!

i got a digital camera. im stoked. well gonna write an english paper on abortion. fun huh?

i cant wait until rock and roll fest 2004. get to listen to good music and work consessions. my friend and i made up. i went away with her 4 a weekend so i had 2. i just got my chest cleared so its ok. one minute im happy then the other i want to cry i wish that i could move and start off on a clean plate. hmph ill just have to clean this one.

so i did it. i told her what i was feeling. cleared off my chest in a note. not sure of whats gonna happen next. prob more yelling and sceaming. ya know how girls are. ick.