So, this is my first entry. I don't really know anyone on here but I find when I need to talk about things it helps to write things out, or to talk to other people. Sometimes it's about great things like when I'm so happy and I wanna tell the whole world. Sometimes I need someone to talk too when I'm angry or sad or scared. Don't get me wrong, I do have my friends- Sara, Shane, Hannah, Jay, Vince, Lisa, and sometimes Kim and sometimes Rich. And of course I always have my man Tom. But I think writing in here would be good for collecting my thoughts sometimes.
Well, here goes... normally I'm a pretty happy content person. I love Tom so much. But sometimes I get scared of getting heartbroken. We've been together 8 months now, and we don't argue all the time or anything. But my issue is sometimes he's not honest about stupid things like girls he was dating in the past. I know everyone has their past and everything, that's cool. It just scares me when I'm being lied too, I mean if he can't be honest with me about stupid things then what about the big things? I think maybe guys lie to spare big discussions and to spare feelings of their girlfriends thinking maybe stuff would just start something or scare us. But really it wouldn't hurt us, it's when they lie about it that actually starts something and scares us. That's what I'm thinking anyways!
I don't go looking for fights, I just have to talk things out when I'm feeling scared. I've had a few serious relationships in the past. I've been cheated on, and one got physically abusive. I know that just because it happened in the past that it's not necessarily going to happen again. This is just why the whole honesty thing would help me not to be afraid. On the plus side, other than that one thing, Tom is pretty incredible. I've never had a guy that has respected me so much before as a woman that he loves. From the first day we met, we clicked right away. When we're apart, we never stop texting eachother (when I'm not on the clock for work), and I never stop thinking about him. Even it being a whole 8 months and a bit since that 1st day. When we're together... it's like nothing else in the whole world matters. I just wish I wasn't so scared.
Well this thing is pretty long already, so I'll end it here!!