I can't believe I found another online journal to use for my ranting and bitching. Although I think this is going to be my main one from here on out. Maybe I should stop talking and start bitching? Basically my life has turned to shambles in the past few weeks and I have slowly been building it back up as best I can. Although I was never that good at building things. My best friend ended up becoming the person I liked, and I told her this at the worst possible moment. Everything seemed to be fine for a week or two after. We still talked the same and stuff, but then school started. We had more classes and lunch together, so naturally we got to see more of one another. However, I think she thought maybe I was being overzealous in my pursuit of her, when in fact I was merely going by my schedule and being delighted to see her in class and lunch. I think she might have thought I was stalking her? I don't know, but pretty soon she gave me looks like she didn't want me around or was avoiding me. Well, I stopped hanging out with her and talking to her. It's been about a week, and so far my plan has helped a bit. She talks to me normally now, and I think I am starting to fix things. I don't know if I like her anymore because of how she reacted, or how it nearly ruined our friendship. My sights are set elsewhere now, but when I see her I think of what could or can be. It's hard moving on from what couldn't be. But I must do it. (Wow, I'm totally turning that into a plotline for my comic ^_^) Anyways, the girl I currently find myself liking a little bit is actually someone that is already taken by a friend. I won't say who, because giving names is horrible for friendships. Because drama and all hell breaks loose o.O Hopefully my pursuit of the girls I like doesn't cost me any friendships. But I guess I'll leave my first post at this.