well ............just remebering and or looking back at the times i am with johnel makes me wanna cry you know.....and dont you muther fuckers outthere say that a nobody cant cry cause you know that shits a lie....espacially for the love of my life.... shit i hate people who tell me that realashionships dont last.....fuck them basterds to hell and back.....they just dont have fuckin dedication.............damn do i wish she was here with me so i can hold her in my arms........damn it makes me sick to my fuckin stomach to know that i have to go to this fuckin gay ass school in perry fuckin georiga........the fuckin preps..... hell i wish she could come take me away.... i love you so much johnel.........so muther fuckin much.......it makes my heart turn fuckin blue and purple ready to turn black and rot.....when me and her are always this long seperated......hell i wish the time could muther fuckin speed up.....that would be great........i am going to go know ......peace