wow, its been awhile. well none of my friends use this site, minus one, but its alrite, none of the mean things and venting are at her, ok, lets vent. I'm fast realizing that my bestest of friends, my buds till the end, really dont give a rats ass about me. over the past 2 weeks, its really become clear to me that all they care about is what they want and i'm jus the person to get them that and nothin else really (im the one with the car and $), they use me plain and simple, and i'm gettin tired of it. i like to think of myself as the guy who does all the little things that mean so much to some ppl, and i enjoy helpin others and dont ask for much inreturn, pretty much just thanks and an "if ur ever in need of help just ask" from them. But i dont feel i get that very often, whenever i do need help they turn there backs on me. Maybe i should jus cut ties with them, i dunno, i jus wanna feel like i'm appreciated its not much. i dunno, maybe i'm gettin old, i don't seem to have as much reckless fun as i used to. I'm sry i'm ventin all this to u ppl, whoever u are, unfortunatly, i think i pissed off the one person i could talk to about this and now i'm afraid to call her, i hurt my little sidekick and i'm sry, we say wrong things when were stressed and i am perticularly stressed (exams), i got more problems, but i'll spare u all from having to listen to them, thx to anyone who had the time to read this, i mean i have only one friend on her and how many total strangers read something this long and boring, lol, well good for u if u got this far and thx