Well today was very interesting! Idk why but I actually have fun at school! yeah I said fun!! lol. Well first this morning Adiana and I were having "hot flashes!!" lol. thats our lil inside joke!! hehe. then... I was so happy. Rico is finally not mad at me anymore!! lol. I knew he couldnt stay mad at me forever, like he said he would!! hehe. It was so cute we were huggin in the hall for like 10 minutes SWEAR! lol. Then Boo came up and started trippin, cause he dont like me talkin to other dudes! hes oc tho. I love... this school year, its just so much fun! I finally got my click back together! Me, Adiana, Perla, Sara, and Zorida.. we closer then ever!! We sing down the hall, we yell at people in the hall!! lol. good times. We have many many lil bf's.. hehe.. the football team lovers us!! lmfao. Lunch.. was fun as hell. everyday Sara askes me "meghan did you know i dont like hoes??" lol cause this girl dont like us cause shes a hater like all the rest!! lol and shes a hoe.. shh..[she gets around!!] haha. Sara is one funny lil puerto rican mami. lol. gym.. Omg I have so much fuckin fun in that class!! Me and CARMELLA!! I have never had so much fun in one class, me her and perla be havin so much fun with Tony. LoL. today we were in the wellness center and we were laying on the mats and Tony started doin the "crybaby" lmao!! you should of seen that shit, it was so funny! Then.. we were doin all our excersizes and Tony and some other guys were sittin there watchin me and perla strech eachothers legs out!! FREAKS!! lol. after school.. omg.. I love perla.. shes so funny!! "Meghan didnt I leave my coat in your locker??? huh?? umm.. yeah.. ok?? lol. that was funny! [[omg he was wearin glasses..]] dude think he look good.. but hey!! Today was Fun.. now I cant wait till tomorrow!!

I was hopin that one day we would finally become cool. And now that its happened its incredable. Tonight I was kinda mad cause I didnt have anything to do. lol. I was bored. cranky. But then paul im'ed me and told me to come over. So I did. We went for a walk, cause his legs were sore and he needed to strech them out. so I was so ok! Then we went to JJ's house and was chillin there watch ROBOTS!!! hehe the best movie ever! LoL I hurt paul so bad.. it was fun as hell! lol. Wuvers you Paully Wally :) ! Then.... I came home and came on the computer and the best thing happened to me. I cant tell you what happened but just know that I am so happy. I love it! Tomorrow my mom and I are going to AmberRose' 1st birthday party. I think it will be fun. I havent seen Mandy in a while and I see thats shes doing a lot better, so thats good. Well Im off to sleep. GoodNight!

Idk why but today I had a realization.. I realized that things in life will always diaapoint you. You can really never count on anyone, but yourself. It seems that when I listen to peoples oppinions Im going to be the one screwed in the end. I gave my heart to someone that I truely loved and still do. I just dont know how to tell him that I messed up, I dont want to seem stupid and have him think that I didnt want him. I still want him, I just think that I didnt know what I wanted, I wanted to take sometime to think about me. He has everything I want looks, style, personality, humor, hes everything I want. I love him, and I want him back, I just dont know how to say it. What do you think, comment me and tell me what I should do.

This is my new Journal.. So have fun listen to my life!! hehe