sup everyone! srry its been a while but schl's been a buttmunch! grrrr! yeah... anyways nothing new here. oh! something did happen yeah my so called sister she has to have everything about her! she is a spoil-roitin' prat. i swear. oh bloody hell can she be a pain. and on my grams b-day she has to turn things inside out and go to hell in a handbasket. anyway i was standing by the counter and she comes up behind me and like shoves me in the counter and on top of that her soon to be hubby starts to tickle me so... i kicked her to make everything stop. cuz im getting smooshed, pained and tickled till i pee. so what the bloody hell was i suppose to do?? and she has to go on saying she's cuter and better with everything, making fun of the way i dress bc i'll admit i kinda dress like a bum n a boyish look but i don't care that's just me and i like the way i look. (its comfy) so i go and try to calm down and everyone throws a fucking fit about it. just b/c i need time to cool off. cuz her hubby and my cousin join in, of making fun of me! how fair is that? i don't care if it's jk. it still hurts. and being the wimp i can be take it all w/o a word. (loser i know) so i just go away and cool off. fits go on blah blah blah. anyway shes leaving and i'm in the my mom's truck she comes to it starts ranting and says that i'm disowned, kicked out of the wedding and all that junk. just b/c my mom, grams are mad at her for the things SHE starts. and b/c our graps doesn't say bye. WELL he even agrees that it's not right how i'm always picked on. so :p to her! the bloody bitch. and funny thing she last for about a day or so. she can be such a hypacrite! so now i guess everything is peachy again. yeay! not. anyway yeah that's preety much the what all family get togethers are like anyway. she gets pissed, throws a fit, storms off until people kiss her ass to make it up. sereously its getting old! but enough rant and thanks for reading!!:p but stupid hw calls and then i get to talk to my bf later! yeay! buh-byes!! ps: my id is now: gillyluvzaj

OMFG OMFG!!!!! this day just gets fucking better and better!! my best friend like ever is missing and nobody knoes where the fuck she is!! i'm scared, worried, mad. i just feel horriable! i just wish she was home and is ok. and the worst part is, is that she was w/ a friend n they decided to split up. (srry other friend no offence or nothing) i'm just really scared for her!! and want her back safe. and if you read this or what ever, please just fucking please come back!! :( signed, a scared and worried as hell, friend

i feel nothing, i don't feel bored, not happy not anything. but the funny thing is i don't feel numb. huh?! kinda weird. anyway its been like 3 weeks since school is out n i don't know. ive been doing things with my bf, n a little w/ my fam. anyway something funny that i wrote n i hope u enjoy it. its called "today": todya is very special. no its not MY birthday, or a holiday, when u get gifts. and i know ur thinking what could be more special then that?! but the rezene 2day is special is because it's...............................................................................friday!:) hope u like it! if u don't then screw you! (no im jk! lol)

hey every1! srry i haven't ritin in a while and all. and the weirld thing is that when i came to my diary i couldn't see or get to play with my v. pets! that made me sad! anyway our game last night went ok and all we lost 6-10 but we cought up in the 4th n 5th inning! what was also cool about the game was that my dad, step mom n step sis and my half brother were at my game! Things were better at the end exsept for when they took my pitcher away! but the ODD thing was that this one girl she was pitching so bad but the coach wouldn't take her out! that made me so mad! we practicly gave them those runs b/c of her! n im in comp. apps. n i hate the teacher! she is such a bitch! I just hate her! but g2g buhbye!

hey everyone! our tema rocks! uh! last nights game was just the bomb! ok heres wat happend: in the beggining we just sucked! i got hit like 3 times when i was catching in the 1st and the 2nd inning. first i got hit in the knee area, then i stoped the ball with my bare hand n that hurt, n the 3rd time i got hit in the upper part of my chest but thank god i was wearing padding or else that whould have hurt! lol! then i was up to bat n i swung n g2 first base, then chantel the hun smacked the ball! i ran to 2nd fell inbtween 2n3rd scraped my knee THEN when i g^ went 2 3rd i fell on my left hip n litterly slide on n off the bag! but the umpirer was really nice b/c when i got up i wasn't touching the bag but he called me safe anyway! now were in a different inning, chantel was pitching asumly i might add! anyway she pitched the girl did a pop fly straight towards me, im running bak carefully placing my self! n then WAM!!!!!!! I catch the ball almost getting caught up in the catch through 2 chantel n were out of the inning! omg it was just asume! i loved that play! oh n one more funny thing it was like the 2nd to last inning, i was at 1st ran to 2nd got to third when i got there it was like a plite of a second that the other coached told me to run home n i thin i actually said: "oh shit!" we won and we rocked doing it! I WOULD LIKE TO THANK MY TEAM MATES AND OUR COACHES FOR THIS AMAZING VICTORY! LOL ~SIGH~ IT WAS JUST FANTASIC! BUT G2G BUH BYE EVERY1! LOL OUR TEAM ROCKS! LOL! ~SIGH~

hey every1! wat^? nothin new here. oh but i have a great story that i got from my friend. its sad but its a great story but anyway i'll leave that ^2u! Girl: Slow down. I'm scared. Guy: No this is fun. Girl:No its not. Please, its too scary! Guy: Then tell me you love me. Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down! Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. -=Girl hugs him-= Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me. (In the paper the next day): A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two People were on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy had realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live, even though it meant that he would die. AWWWWWWWWWWW! i luv this story! its so sad! but i still luv it! rite me and tell me wat u think! *anyway i am doing so bad in comp apps its not even funny! but i don't really care this is such a boring class. the only reason im not out of it is b/c we get to be on the computer! *i have a softball game tonight and thursday so wish me and out team luck, but the other team shouldn't cry when we wip them! LOL! * ummmmmmmmmmm i can't really think of anything rite now but ttygl! buhbye!

hey every1 i got some good news and i have some bad news first off some good news * my sis got engaged about 3 days ago and im really excited for her. her boy is sooooo nice, goofy, sweet, and he is a really good guy.! * i went on a adoption spree on virtual pets! don't really know why but i think they're cool *i found my softball glove *got some manga books * oh and i also got blade trinity! i think the movie is pretty good! thats about it for the good but with good their is also the bad * ok right now im at my dad's we're doing this celbration thingy and its kinda lame b/c it is basicly my step-mom's fam. but the only thing i dont like about it is that when ever i come here n all my step-mom acts like im not even here! i meen she had surgery n yesterday but she always does this! n i really hate it b/c i try to do things right n help out but it doesn't really get me anywere! it just pisses me off! i dont know! i never really ask for anything when im here so whats the prob. she acts like she likes me and all but i think i know what her true colors r! but right now she's ok, and i just can't figure her out!(this last sentice is the next day) anyway off her lame ass! (maybe jk *ummmmmmmmm, i think im gonna get grounded b/c im really nerves bout my grades b/c i do the homework i just don't turn it in and i kinda loose things! hehe! but other wise im ok! * ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm what are some of the other bad things! ummm i cna't really think of any right now but thise uncle grandpa person is behind me so i have to be carefull of what i have to say! but all in all i guess things have been going ok! so rite me and tell me wat u think ok buhbye!

im srry that i scared those who read and or left a comment. i never was or will be a cutter. my fam is just stressing me out more than school! AND that should be the other way around! and those to my friens out there thanks for backing me up and makeing me see that i have friends that i can talk to and care about me. Thanks u guys it ment alot! (i know this sounds really corny but it ment alot!) and those that read my diary and see my colors and all, im not trying to be dark or nothin, i guess at times it seems like it but i don't try to. and rite now my step sis. is getting me hooked on japp. animation n there is some really cutties in there!!!! LOL LOL! uhhhhhh! so bored rite now, n i really don't want to do my homework but i guess as pple say why avoid the enedivable?(srry i know that i missed spelled it!) ttyl pple!!!!!!!!!! .......... oh and again srry that i scared pple! buhbye and wish me good luck with my hw! peace! :`)

god! i hate my life it totaly sucks!!!!! i supprised that im not a cutter with every thing that happens! my family just drive me crazy! i hate it when everybody tries to make me feel guilty about things that i shouldn't really feel guilty about! i meen im just a kid! i don't know what to do, or what choices to make everyone else happy, its driving me crazy! I hate it everything just suckes! i just feel like... like i want to cut my self to make the pain stop! i don't want to pretend to be happy and make everyone else happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE someone make the pain stop!!!!!!!! I want someone to make it better! but who?????????????? i need the pain to stop! (tears running down my face) i feel like i have to slice my self open and see if i bleed blood or if bleed just dust that blows in the wind! b/c aren't we all just dust in the wind???????!!!!!!! some1 please help

ugh i hate being sick it tottaly blows! and my old math teach is a total bitch! she saw us having cd players and like yelled at us for having them. but our comp. apps teach said that we could and im not happy! ugh that totally sucks, i hate that ugh now my day is starting to suck even more! ugh but a good news is that i get to go to the festival of the nations after school which good and all but yea. its were u go to mn. and in this gaint building is full of diff. cultural food and some neat little shops that represent the cultures wich is pretty cool and all but g2g bye!

hey ever1 wat up? nothin new here wich is really dull! nothin ever happens in eau claire! ugh i hate eau claire! i wish that i lived in like fl. or california, were u could do somethin! but anyway enough mopping about that! people please rite me im almost desprate here! (almost!) but hey thats ur falt if u don't want to talk to me! well g2g bye!

hey everyone im so happy b/c people that are in medical explores get to miss half of the day 2day cause then we get to go to the hospitale! (weirld i know!)but if it means that we get to miss school then yes!!!!!!! but now im just typin 2 pass the time till we leave! so hope every1 else has a good day @ school, and im runin out of things 2 say! so g2g bye!

Hey every1 wat ^? i don't like our computer teach she is so! but oh wel g2g b4 i get in trouble bye!!!!!!!!! but im ok now she kinda gave us free time and all but i don't really want to skip 5th and 6th hour but then again i do but i don't really have a choice but thank goodness for drug free, and we get to miss two days of 5th and 6th hour!!! score! but g2g for real this time bye and please rite me!

hey every1 wat^? anyway hey im starting softball and its going good!well i cant tak rite now bc imn school this teacher is real strict and we can't be on the computer but i don't care ight now! b but for real g2g bye!

Hey everyone! nothin new here. im just really bored here in school. but anyway last night i had my first game at Delong and all and we lost. yea it was kinda pathetic (we lost at 3-9) :( yea so that is kinda lame. but i got hit with the ball when i was up to bat. so i took one for the team. which was bad b/c the next girl struck out so i go ht for nothin really! lol but g2g buhbye!

hey every1! wat^? ok, after school i called my mom to ask her if i could walk home after softball practice and i went in btween the doors of the school and outside so no one could hear me cause total embarassing talkin to my mom (kinda) and i could hear this one kid sayin my name but i just ignored it but then this one kid named tom came out and stod next to me, said hey and im like ok and then this other kid came out named nick and he stod next to him, said hey AND then he asked me if i wanted 2 be his gf, and im just like oooookkkkkkkk and i walk out but this nick guy kinda followed me and his friend said to go out with him for him (somethin like that) and im just like ok, b/c i thought it was like a joke, b/c im not pretty @ all!!! but do u think i should of played along or somthin? i don't know school is so confusing and i think i like one of my old crushes again and i don't know, if any1 has good advise about any of this please!! rite me and tell me! b/c i don't know nothin right now! im........... i don't know anymore! well thanks for reading my problem and sorry 4 waisting ur time:< (lol kinda) but getting late and i have g2g bye! (wave) ps: gilly don't luvz cb no more

hey! wat^? im so bored and i just want to go back to bed. This is so lame! i don't even know why i came to shool today! ugh! this guy i like is i don't know i think im starting not to like him! so confused right now! school sucks!!!!!!!! nothing but heartacks and tons of homework!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! g2g bye every1

school suck so bad! im in this one class that is totaly sucks!, she completly drives me crazy but she can be ok (sometimes!) anyway i hve a problem wich i'll talk about later b/c its a school. g2g bye

hey, what^? happy easter to everyone that celebrates it! ugh, im so tired and stuffed from all that food. every one send some luv my way even if u don't know me i need some luv. when ever i go to my dad's, my stepmom like ignores me when we have company over and im so sick and tired of it. she really pisses me off these days but on the good side i got a $50 gc to best buy, and i get some good goodies at celibrations but that still pisses me off. if u agree thats wrong send a message!

i know that its really early but rite now i don't kare! spring break kinda sucks!!! k yesterday i went to school with my mom for ex. credit and when i got home luckly my friend whanted to play with my hamster and when she put her on the floor to play with her she was acting really wierld and so i took her to my mom and she was taking little gasping breaths and then she was gone!". ^ . and then after she died i stumped my toe so ive been having a bad spring break!!!! so send sypathy my way. so bored spring break is a dud!!! g2g bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!