well its been a wile since ive been on here, how cows! well lets see....oh i get glasses and i have heard nothing but possitive things! thats awsome! im now a 4-eyes, i was going to get contacts but i thought it wouldnt be good for me, i have enough probleys putting eye liner on and poking my eyes. well im single again had a few things goin on but have to lose the guys, well im outta here, see ya well....be back later

well homecoming is this saterday! im so exited! i have a date but im not going to say his name on here cuz i want this one person to find out on her own. Anyway, and on thursday its our skools bombe-fire,i dont ususally go to stuff like that but im going with the same person im going to homecoming with. it should be fun. not like almost all my friends have dates. only a few more to go. well thats it for now, byezz all.

well im single and its kinda boreing! well i guess me and chris are friends again since him and that wench borke up. its good for him he needed to be free of that thing, anyway, im getting ready to see the movie exercist of Emily rose, but i have no one to go with yet, and it kinda sux! everyone is out and im not doing anything untill tomorrow, Josh, Adam and maybe Chris is coming down to my house, at least Josh is. so i will have someone to talk to. well im going to to have a few phone calls to make well peace out girl scouts

Run Running all the time Running to the future With you right by my side Me I'm the one you chose Out of all the people You wanted me the most I'm so sorry that I'm falling Help me up lets keep on running Don't let me fall out of love [Chorus:] Running, running As fast as we can Do you think we'll make it? (Do you think we'll make it?) We're running Keep holding my hand It's so we don't get separated Be Be the one I need Be the one I trust most Don't stop inspiring me Sometimes it's hard to keep on running We work so much to keep it going Don't make me want to give up this is for you...you know who you are <3 ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ "Don't Let Me Down" Laughing so hard I got tears in my eyes Walk in the park Under sapphire skies Oh, I can't believe that you're still around Almost forgot how you let me down Crying so deep That I think I might die Your mistakes I keep in the back of my mind So hard to let go but I'm comin' round The scars are still fragile Don't let me down [CHORUS:] So don't blow it No not a little bit Cause now you're all mine Don't you forget it Don't blow it Even a little bit Cause now you're all mine Don't you forget it [Don't let me down X3] Time after time It's just too much to take I've waited so long Just to get to this place And finally it feels like The lost was found You got me filled up now Don't let me down (Don't let me down) [CHORUS x2] (Don't let me down) [CHORUS x2] Don't let me down Don't let me down Don't Let Me Down this is for you to, you know who you are <3 ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

well i went to the fair friday and seen josh shaffer, chris race, and devon gates. omg people think im fat her ass is HUGE and every time i see her i had to laugh!! she calls me ugley...yea....ummm.....right, w.e thats a load of crap shes fat and ugley but who am i to say since im a slut, right devon? yea well anyway i have to go i have better things to do with my life, ok bye alloh and chris im sorry after seeing you i really really dont want you back

I feel as though this is leading to the end. You have no idea what matters to me. What I like. What I don't like. You have no clue who I am. I can't believe you don't even know my favorite colors. You don't know When to hold me. or when to just let me do my own thing. You don't know when to stop asking things I'm Tired of hurting you. Tired of being hurt. Whatever. I'm losing it You don't even notice. You don't even care. You can't fix me. to keep me right here waiting. You always find the words to say, to keep me right here waiting. And if I chose to walk away, Would you be right here waiting? Searching for the right words to say...

ok how do whorers get of calling me a whorer?? i dont get it and ohh and then she thinks its going to have a termatic impact on my life that i cant add a comment in her diary, oh yes its tearing me apart devon how will i ever survive? i just might have to just cry a river, but i wouldnt jump off oh no because that would make you oh so much happier, any way off to insult Brianna Gieski well thats to much fun! she has so mant flaws, oh yes i have a GPA of 93.6 im such a dumb person arent I and oh yes i HAD a sped class for math cuz i suck, and i aint afraid to admit it HEY EVERYONE I SUCKED AT MATH AND I WAS IN A SPED CLASS omg thats so emmbaressing, and i spell worth crap, woopie tell me something i dont know, and excuse me dont you ever i mean EVER say anything about my friends and word from elk lake all u were was a wanna-be well the same u are now, nothing but a fat ugley wanna-be. And ur "fashion sence" as u call it w.e i do my own thing i dont "follow trends" as u do sorry and im not ashamed im not ashamed of anything, so try to "confuse teh shit out me " by using "big words" go ahead try, ummm im not really careing to much, ur not a thret to me and yea ur year book picture sucked! and well oh well not my problem well it is when i laugh so hard i almost snort, and i sure you will try to make me feel like shit by saying something stupid but you wont cuz ur just scum at the bottome of my shoe! and so does that mean ur calling mindy a dirt bad or trailor trash cuz last i knew ur friends with her to and u talked shit about me to her, ooooo it hurt my feelings, and get some nerve and say it to me im not the one with the problem u started this and i will end it just like i always do i always win game over you loose FAT ASS YES FAT ASS Brianna Gieski SHES FAT AND UGLEY but thats just 23 people from MY skool that say that and only 13 from elk lake, oh well once again not my problem and i dont care what others think of me i could care less

im soooooooooooo exited me and casey are going on our auctual "first date" according to my mom. were going to see breakin benjarmin, 3 doors down and staind!!! i cant wait!!!!!! im so happy there all sooooooo good and i get to see them!!! mw and casey already seen breakin benjarmin together and they were good and then they were with theory of a dead man, and the exiles or w.e i cant spell there name, well thats it for today im going to bed so i can get up and go to the bank and cash my paycheck and then go to price chopper and get my hair dye and then to to my grandmas nad then go home tyo dye my hair and meet up with casey and go to the concert tomorrow night : ] im sooooo exited well by alls

well lets see today me and casey have been together for 11 months and its been AWSOME we have both pissed each other off, irritated eachother and all that but we made it through it all! and its so kool i have someone i can relate to so much and be able to talk to him about well pretty much everything! i love you casey ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~ i LoVe YoU cAsEy!!!!!!!! So MuCh!!!!!!!

well during that week i went to ocean city maryland on vaca, with the family. it was soooo much fun!!! i loved it! i got a nice tan and got a few numbers, the usual, hehe, well it was so fun i tryed to convince my mom to let me get another piercing but she said she would have to also and then she chickened out, but thats ok, i get it sooner or laterz, we stayed in the hotel called the fenwick islander and the room sucked cuz it was so small but other than that it was ok. the bech was nice and i think i swallowed so much salt water well.....it was alot, and the sand every where possiable on your bathing suit/bikinie wasnt kool!!!! but i had fun i missed you casey i love you!!!

well lets see last weekend was the 4th of july and it was fun, casey came over and spent the night with me and my family at our lake and it was soo much fun, we watched fire works and cuddled be the fire, and talked and had fun swimming and goofing off, just being our selfs, its always fun being with him! we went to the paraid and hung out with some of his friends and seen my friend sierras baby, shes soooo adorable and just.....so cute. but i dont think im going to have kids, i dont think id be the perfect mother, but any way dont want to talk about all that. ok ummmmm casey ad i have been 2gether for almost a year and on August 18th i'll finally be 16!!!!! my sweet sweet 16th and i will be finally be able to "date" like go out in his truck alone with him and yea.... any way yea i cant wait. my 16th is going to be awsome. that song "move it like this" by the baha men, is one hell of a song to dance to when ur drunk, i seen one of my friends dance to that when she was drunk, and it was funnier than HELL, any way i think im going to go for now i have to call casey so peace out

ok our socity is comeing to HELL im getting "picked on" because i cant spell well or i shorten words up, oooo, im trying to understand, is this saposta bother me??? and the fact that devOn thinks i want chris is stupid, she should get that out of her head!!!! if i took chris back that would mean i would have STD's and thats honestly not something i want, i mena im glad u do, because thats 1 less person i have to care about in my life so i could care less, the only people i need in my life are the ones that need me in theres and trust me there are alot of ppl who need me, there are alot of ppl who want me, and all that, and that fact that chris "used me" ehhh dont care cuz i cheated on him down in north carloina, and damm i cheated on him goooooood!!!!!!if he only new, but im sure u will do me that favor right devon?? well im sure u will, and chris, ever heard that thing chicks say about black guys?? well if your thinking the same thing i am well its true and guys down in north calolina are H-O-T-T!!!!!!! and they wanted me soooooooooo bad and i almost felt guilty about cheating on you, but lol I DIDNT and it was GREAT, oh well, well have a nice life guys

ok theres this fat ass ugley nasty looking dog named Brianna Gieski, who dont talk to me nad cant disrespect me to my face but says a bunch of crap behind my back, and writes pretty much a whole diary enty about me and i guess she thinks its saposta bother me or something i dont know, and shes saying how i must get dressed with the lights off or w.e, lol yea ok, you should see 1/2 the shit she wears, so many times i just had to laugh out loud, and im alot skinnire than her too, and im skinnier than devOn, and no i may not be the bast looking person ever but omg neither are you guys, devOn i seen your picture and yea i wont go in details and Brianna, oh my god i am so much better looking than you, u have a fat face and a fat body and that right there cant make you better looking than me, yea i have a little pug on my stomech but you got it every where! and im not trying to mean this time im not really but please, dont even joke about me being ugley compared to you, you are nothing special, and devOn im sorry to tell you but i dont have STD's, see its called useing a condom and not sleeping with a LIER, chris, u were one of my good friends and i really could care less if were ever friends again, you know what you said to me on the phone when you called me and i wish you would just admit it to me, not even to devOn just to me, and if you would just tell be honest for once, omg, i would leave you and that g/f of yours alone, all i want to hear is the truth, what you said, if she new what you said i dont think she would be with you, and im being honest, well whatever i dont care devOn you can date a lier thats ok thats not my problem well sorry for everyone else who had to read that, i know i must seem like a bitch now but when it comes to ppl i have a high toloerene for stupid ones but when ppl lie and are dishonest, and cant say or do anything to my face well that pisses me off, i just read what Brianna just wrote, if i read it wile we were still in skool i would of said something to her but she couldnt have that privilage i guess, oh well maybe next year, casey i love you, and im glad your not a lier i really am!!!!!!!!

i miss my casey, i dodnt get to see him today and i miss him, i hate him working and me working so i cant see him as much, and its horrable i miss him so much, i wish i could be with him more offen and all that lovie dovie stuff, casey i love you more than you know and when you said that theres nothing i could do to make you quit, well your wrong but i dont want you to quit, i want you to be happy even if that means hardley seeing you, well good bye all

i said id love you forever and thats what i'll do as long as you are true to me i'll be true to you your eyes i gaze into your lips i gentally kiss your not even gone and i already miss the tight grip og your hands on my hips you mean the world to me there is nothing you could do to make me stop lovin you i said i'd love you forever and thats what i'll do!! those worried thoughts are not gone you are what i want you are what i need i dont want to let you go you mean so much i dont want to say goodbye to let you go you mean the world to me and so much more you always make me fele my best you always make me happy or even crack a smile whan im sad please don't leave im asking nicely but if you must i'll understand but i dont want to loose you because you and i go good together were just a good match ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ casey a. rose i love you so much and im so happy im with you! you always make me happy even when im sad or pissed off or whatever we have delt with a lot and been through sop much and we have'nt really been together for a really long time. on August 28, 2004 at 3:00 a.m when you asked me out i thought i was going to die, i couldnt believe you asked me. no one has ever, ever, EVER made me feel the way you make me feel. i love you becaus eof the person i am around you but also the person i feel like. you make me feel better about myself. i respect you more than you know and i love you so much that you will never truely know, and i wish i could make you see that, i love you baby dont ever forget that! I LOVE YOU BABY AND IF ITS QUITE ALRIGHT I NEED YOU BABY THROUGH ALL THE LONLET NIGHTS.... yea you know what im talkin about...hehe ok im done here

well today has been soooo long it felt like it drug on for ever!!!! i wish i could see my sweetums again. i seen him this morning for like 15 minutes or so before he left to go back home because he had to work late.. well he had a night shift so yea..i wont seen him tonight prolly or maybe tomorrow night or morning so something.... i dont know well i guess i'll live another day, casey i love you and i miss you when your working and when im working and cant see you and all that well yea i better get going maureens over so i gotta go talk to her because this thing dont talk back to me so yea.... im dont saying stupid stuff, so yea peace out tampons

today i feel kind of low, unappreated and unwanted, confused thoughts and troubled fears of suside, some wouldnt mind if i did but others would, and those people are the people that keep me here today, i want to go away, away from all these things, no one really knows me, the whole me, the real me, people think they do but they only know parts no one would understand the way that i am, theres nothing wrong with me in a way i like who i am, people dont really appreate me or give me full credit, i want to know what i did to everyone to make them fee the way they do. all i want is to be loved and cared for and not feel the way i do, i dont want to hurt anyone if anything my self, but i dont want to loose the one that means so much to me, i dont want to disapoint him or make him sad or cry, i dont want to leave him in the cold crule world alone, i love him with all my heart but even he dont understand, so many thing i want to tell him so many things i wish i could do, but im to afraid of him leaving to afraid of letting him down that i feel like im wearing a mask around him and everyone that crosses my path, so this is it try to be patient with me i can only do so much try to understand that i want to leave so much but i cant becasue of him and only him and i hate it

well today was my first day of working this summer,it was tireing but thats ok, ummm lets see, i havent had any anger break outs, ive been behaving, oh and devOn i know you could kill me by sitting on me im glad you are finally able to admit that! yea you call me ugley, oh my god your year book picture, laugh out loud, man i dont know what you look like, and i dont really ever wear make up cuz i dont want to look fake and like trailor trash, well in short words you! oh wait if i ever looked like you, well we wont go there. and i dont believe you seen my prom picture cuz theres no way you could of! so you and kat can lie all you want, make up lies be retarded, well the usual for you guys. and i didnt come in chris' life he walked back in mine told me a lot of stuff you would love to know if you could, oh and chris to let you know guess what i found, well i'll tell you, i found a conversation we had about devOn and im new there was a reason i saved it and devOn if you or chris ever wants to read it let me know or i could just show it to you, i think its a lovely conversation and im sure devOn would love it and i would hope...well once again we wont go there, so yea i found it the other day and i would of sent to you but oh no the two big babbies blocked me so i couldnt, oh well, well i hope to talk to you guys soon it will be my pleasure, casey i love you baby!!!! xoxoxoxoxox remember all our memmories and so many more to come i love you more then you or any one else will ever know, i wish i could show you how much you mean to me but words and actions cant describe it!!!!!!

well this friday is graduation and i get to see all my senior friends graduate and my casey is graduating and hes working this summer and so am i so am i so its going to be hard on our relationship but it will only bring us together [i was told] and i believe it, i just hipe it works and is true well i love him and theres no one who can take him away! weve been together for a wile now and we have been through a lot together and im not going to let him slip away that easy, casey i love you soo much and i dont want to loose you. i know people dont know you but i do and i love you and i always will

well saterday was prom night and it was soooo much fun and i loves it!!!! it was so much fun and it was pretty and nice and yea it was so much fun, the music was ok there was some crappy songs they played. i went with casey and a couple of other people we went out for dinner and it was fun im so glad i went. casey i love you so much you are the best guy i have ever met, u dont lie to me, your honest and u make me feel sooo special and oh so much more, i love you and i dont want to loose you to any one, i love you more then you will ever know, xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox