Been gone a while. I'm back. Barry and I went out for about a month. But we broke up. I'm kinda bummed. not about him specifically, but it's like I can't hold on to a relationship. I dunno. Anyway. I got 3 A's and one C on my semester report card. A fucking C. I should never have taken art history. Annnnd I love Kyle. he may be really perverted. But so fucking hot. Haha...I would probably even go out with him if I didn't already know that he justs wants sex. he's such a good friend. how come the only boys that would ever want to go out with me only want to get in my pants?

I'm not who you think I am. You need to let go. But you're not You're reading this I wish I was what you thought of me] But I'm Lana I'm just Lana :(

Barry asked me out today...I don't like him, but I gave him a chance...the date was pretty fun. We went bowling, then randomly brought a boombox and danced in the middle of the street for no reason on valentines day afternoon. I like him I guess, I still kind of miss my old crush...but he doesn't feel that way for me, get over him I must... I hate this day. *dance* lalala... I almost have enough money to buy an Ipod. Celebrate. I feel kind of bad going out with Barry...I dont really like him, I knew he really like me for well, a long time. But I gave him a chance. That is okay right? {SUPERMAN CANT WALK} You call yourself a lois lane and you're in pain and I'm insane You don't want my help you don't need my help I watched you fall down from the sky but I won't cry I'll just sigh who is gonna save you Yeah I've heard the talk superman can't walk And who is gonna save you when your superman can't walk I saw him just the other day in physical therapy Sitting in a wheel chair you know I had to stare And all your friends they think I'm sick they think that I'm insensitive They don't like the fun I'm poking don't they know I'm only joking yeah I've heard the talk superman can't walk And who is gonna save you when your superman can't walk Call me what you will I'm doctor evil Call me what you want Superman can't walk And all your friends they think I'm sick they think that I'm insensitive They don't like the fun I'm poking don't they know I'm only joking Yeah I've heard the talk superman can't walk And who is gonna save you when your superman can't walk walk

You know I love you I love you all I don't know you but I love you I love you guys so much The advice = love I love you imhappycrying And any people in the future that will be on my freinds list My diaries theme is peas and carrots lol And now, the lyrics that started my diary: Ooooo.... Ooooo.... I could sit for hours in the conditions of the sun And we could talk for hours Cos you know you're the one And everytime I open up my heart to you (You bring me down) You rip it out (Gravity girl) You bring me down (Bring me down) You tell me that I'm with you Cos you're my Gravity girl Gravity girl I got my own And my whole world You're my Gravity girl I'm so high In your world I could sit for hours in the conditions of the sun (Gravity girl) We could talk for hours Cos you know you're the one (Gravity girl) And every time I open up my heart to you (You bring me down) You rip it out (Gravity girl) You bring me down (Bring me down) You tell me that I'm with you Cos you're my Gravity girl Gravity girl I got my own And my whole world You're my Gravity girl I'm so high In your world Gravity girl Gravity girl Gravity girl Gravity girl Ooooooo.... Gravity girl Gravity girl Ooooooo.... Gravity girl I love dark cloud if you didn't notice And Crew is my sport I love it Crew is my life Even though I am the only female on my school's team It makes me feel really special I play some other sports too Like soccer And volleyball But crew is my sport crew = love advice = love SITDIARY = love

this was a conversation with another guy... "How do you know when you are in love?" "I don't think you do. I think it happens. You don't know when. You just have to try for it." "But I mean, how do you know if you want to start something with a person when you don't know how you feel about them?" "Sometimes take a chance, figure out if it is love." "Thanks, I just may do that" Now one between me and his best freinds girlfreind, a real good freindo mine. "He thinks you are in love with him." "What?" "He thought you were dropping hints earlier." "But I don't like him, I knew he liked me, I hoped this would get the message across that I may have even loved someone else." "Well, it didn't." "Crap" "You are sooooo emo..." Oh joy. Only one person loves me. And he doesn't even love me. He likes any girl he has a chance with I'm so emo...

I am totally in love with somebody. I can't make myself admit it. But if I told you I was in love with you Would you even beleive me? I know I am only 15 And you are only 14 but I love you I want to be the hand you hold on to. I want to hold you all night And call you mine If I can't have you I won't kill myself But I might hurt someone Or something... Is this sounding like a threat? "Hey." "Hi." "I'm in love with you." "What?" "I told you. I love you." "I...I...can't...I don't love you...sorry." "I know. I expected it. I love you." "I...I'm gonna go for a bit." "Goodbye." It went something like that. I love you