ya so its kinda late and i haven't written in here in so fuckin long! i dont have any friends on my list anymore...strange...well a little while ago, i found out the guy i've liked for a while was in love with me and i love him also. i know after reading about zach your probably like "oh another dumb girl who thinks she loves everyone who asks her out" but its not like that its different...im different. well anyway alot of shits been going down since i wrote in like july i think but i dont feel like writing it so whatever mika

god its like midnight and i cant sleep. yesterday, cass hung out with jared so i was bored cause john and allen and such were too lazy to walk across the street! omg i had to give my final good byes to my dearest nathan today...hes moving with his mom to idaho springs and i will never see him again! well zach went camping and we're still friends but i dont know....i miss him...guess i gotta get over it though....my first love gone forever sorrow and kisses mika

oh me and zach broke up like the day after our one month and get this! hes going to go out with my lil sister. how fucked up is that? shes thirteen and hes sixteen gross eh? well i've been hanging out with cass, anna, zach, john, jesse reynolds, and shelby a lot lately. i get to hang out with cosby every now and then too. except for the one minor boyfriend loss, summers been awesome! i'm getting really good at football throwing and catching! yay and tonight i'm staying with cass at her house. maybe we should hot tub it tonight! can you believe my lil sis would do that to me?? zach was my first love and joie goes and takes him away! o well i have to go clean and shit so later ya'll! **mika**

ohhhhh i had like the other best day of my life! i've had a lot of those lately! well i got to see my boy today and i really love him i dont care if any of you have a problem with that either!! haha j/k even though i dont. oh i dont know what i was trying to say... i'm just so happy right now! it was that gay garage sale today but the only thing i hated was when john kelly came over to talk to zach whom he hasn't seen in three years but zach left me to go smoke weed w/ john and his friends. well, it didn't bother me as much since i know he hasn't seen john in a while i just felt like he'd rather get high then spend time with me...he made it up to me though. **wink wink** haha well anyway, i haven't talked to rachel in a while but i know she knows that i am lazy...and i've been with zach or talking to him. sorry rachel. well i dont have anything else to say i dont think so i'll just stop here... bye all! **mika**

okay so last night was like the best night of my life because me and zach went to the drive in! well sorta anyway. he was going with his mom and he told me to come so i did. well we made the back seat into a bed so we were laying down and he was holding me and stuff and ya it was so nice. i love him like a lot! i actually just got off the phone with him like ten minutes ago. the reason i am so hyper is because 1. cass is staying the night (talking to jared) 2. i had coffee, 3 cokes, and a rockstar energy drink w/ double caffeine and its really getting to my head and its cool! i'm not tired like at all but oh cass is part of this annual garage sale in our neighborhood and she wants me to be there and since jared is going i am having zach come and its gonna be perfect even though saturday is his dads birthday but he is still coming over. oh i miss him a lot right now... well hes sleeping and he looks so cute when hes sleeping cause he was sleeping in my lap on the way back from the drive in. by the way, we saw the longest yard and it was funny as hell you should see it! that was a really fun time. god i love the way zach looks at me and plays with my hair and my hands and oh he is so cute and i love him so much. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me okay enough of that **mika**

ya so today was a good day for the most part. my mama started bitchin about laundry or whatever then went on to say "maybe you could relate, mika if you had a kid at 18 and had to be a mother for the rest of your life..."blah blah blah i dont remember what else i kinda tuned her out. well she apologized saying she wasn't mad or whatever but ya it was gay. i talked to zach of corse but yesterday i talked to him from 5p.m to 2:30a.m fuckin non stop thats like nine and a half hours! thats okay though because i love talking to him and hearing his voice...joie is still sick and i'm still waiting for zachy to call me back...i need to get paid for that last time i babysat cause im totally broke! i have plans this summer...plans that involve money! i get my liscence soon yaya!!! im so excited! well i cant believe i wasted my time watching that dumb movie boogeyman. if you haven't seen it, dont or if anyone who knows me wants to see it call me cause i bought it before i watched it... how dumb of me. o well okay thats all for now loves **mika**

ya so my lil sis is sick and i have been taking care of her all day. its not too bad though because shes a lot nicer when she is sick. it was like ten thirty and joies like "i'm hungry" so i made her a tuna sandwich and crackers and such. we played playstation for so long my fingers are like numb. ya so i rented meet the fockers and it was the dumbest thing i've ever seen. i wanted to rent phantom of the opera but i had already rented the other movie. i felt like shit today and i still did all the cleaning and such. i didn't talk to zach today or rach i was going to call her but the phone died and the other one is downstairs and has a cord. my phone broke when i got pissed and threw it at the wall. i really didn't feel like talking to anyone today though. i just wanted to chill ya know? well i was watching saturday night live and no doubt was the guest and i love no doubt but gwen stefani sucks singing live no matter how hott she is! haha well i'll be going now. bye dearies! **mika**

ya so its kinda late yet it usually is when i write though. well zachy changed his mind and is not going to his bros yay for me! i didn't talk to him today but i didn't really feel like talking to him. just because we're going out doesn't mean we have to talk everyday right?? well cass hates when her bf calls day after day but i dont know. i talked to my girl again (rach) and she went and saw madagascar and said it was really good and cute! her bf didn't like it but o well. i want to see that and the longest yard that looks funny as hell! i love adam sandler! i hope my summer picks up...just gotta wait till july... my parents gone for like a week...i'm at home alone...what will i do? after they get back though, my grammy is visiting. its okay though cause i'm the only granddaughter she likes...ya i talked to my big sis and she is doing good i guess...i really miss her(((tear))) this wednesday i'm getting that reciever! i'll finally get to turn the channel in my room and not have to watch what my whore-bait lil sis wants to watch...kinda sucks being the middle child...oh well. woah creppy! it looks like a ginormous tarantula is crawling up the desk but i think its just lint or something..i think..ya it is. well im bored and tired so bye darlin's **mika**

omg i finally talked to my zachy today! he was working and helped mikey move. zach drove him all the way to new mexico! i would have done it too though. my puppy is laying in my lap and its really hard to type. zach is moving to his bros for the summer in parker. i dont know how much i will see him. while he was packing, he broke his toe somehow i dont remember how. then, he dropped a screwdriver on it! poor baby. i had a bbq today and it was lame as hell! it was only my family and kims family and her daughters aren't exactly my kind of people. at least i talked to my rachel again so i felt better. i just called her but shes at her boys house. o well i guess i'll talk to her later. when i get paid, me and rach are going shopping to have a just the two of us girls day. i love girl days. i need to save up my money so i can buy a cell phone though. i hope zach calls me back. he was out riding his dirt bike when he told me to call him later what a geek! its like nine and he has a broken toe riding a dirt bike ahhh what a lozer. my doggy is sqirming and he scratched the shit out of my belly ring that hurt like a bitch. well my dogs pissing me off so later **mika**

ahhh summer is here and i have nothing to do. to some people, that would suck but i dont know i kinda like sitting at home doing nothing and not having to worry who sees me. i dont have to put on clothes i can just chill in my pjs i dont have to do my hair or wear make up. that makes me happy. oh im so empty. i have nothing on my mind really and i decided to write that in here. i might call zach today but i dont feel like talking right now. once summer really picks up, i wont be able to just sit around cause i have to babysit a lot and all my friends drive now so we can be impulsive and random as much as we want. my boy drives too but hes never home anyway what a dick. ahaha im just kidding. its strange, i want zach to call and cass wants her bf to stop calling hahah weird eh? i've decided i really need to go shopping for clothes and belly rings. i dont have many i have like two. well first i need to get paid THEN i need to go shopping. well i have to clean and do laundry so enough typing have a great life ya'll! **mika**

oh today was a good day. for the first time in a long time i got to hand out with cassie. we are the most impulsive people. i LOVE my friends and i got to talk to my rachel again. i love her. my zachy didn't call again but that is okay because i wasn't home like all day anyway. i might call him tomorrow. i dont think i have any plans but that might change so i wont make any promises. i feel so tingly today until my dad yelled at me because hes a prick. hes mad at something and takes it out on me. thats okay because i try to igonore it and i have no respect for him anymore anyway so hehe haha. oh im kinda tired but i dont feel like sleeping. i dont have to deal with my lil sister till monday so i have had good days not having her bothering me all the time. my face itches. okay anyway i dont think i have anything else to say so see ya'll later **mika**

hey ya'll what crackin homey g dogs? hahaha i'm in a really good mood since i have no school tomorrow so summer has officially started pour moi. well i had to take the earth science final but it wasn't too bad even though i only got a 77% on it. i studied for like three hours and thought i did really well but hey i was wrong. sad news: not only have i not seen my rachel in like a few days, but my boy has school tomorrow and since i am lazy, im not gonna be able to see him. i just called him but no one answered. i was worried at first that he didn't like me but i found out today that i was extremely wrong. i am so glad we are together! i really like him even though a lot of people think i should break up with him. well screw them! most everyone saying that is guys though so wtf do they know? well i better go and do whatever the hell i want since i have no school hahaha im so happy ~**mika**~

oh that is a cool word! what does it mean? o well anyway, i have a play to go to tonight for my little sister and it will be from six to nine which kinda sucks but i think binky will be there so i get to hang out with him. i dont think my boy is going which i guess is okay but still i would like it if he would cause there isn't a lot of time for us to hang out at school which sucks. tomorrow is my last day of school! yaya i cant wait! i have a final to take tomorrow which is tough since it is thirty pages and its only for one class. suck eh? i REALLY REALLY like zach alot. for a while i thought i didn't but that was because i didn't have a good grasp on anything but i have realized that i really do like him. i hope we see eachother a lot this summer cause it is hard to not see him and its only been like five days since we started going out. i've liked him for a long time though so i know i like him a lot. well i kicked a b ball and knocked my toenail all the way down and it is bleeding. well i'd better start studying so see ya'll! xoxo mika

okay so this weekend was intense! i ended up going to courtni's b-day sleepover but i didn't go to fat city. all the little girls were being grouchy bitches so i had to leave asap. ten things i hate about parents 1. parents who think just because your the kid you dont know anything 2. no matter how hard you try, they wont be pleased. 3. they notice what you dont do instead of what you did. 4. they lie 5. "do as i say not as i do" 6. even if you are right, they wont admit it 7. they make you feel dumb 8. they never listen 9. your problems are not important to them 10. they never understand and take it for granted. My goals 1. go to safeway with rachel 2. surf the nile 3. meet bam 4. tap dance with an elephant in the rainforest 5. take a squirrel to the movies 6. love people for them and be loved back 7. bungie jump off a pyramid 8. move to france 9. beat up a duff sister 10. wish upon a star and then eat it

ohh im soo happy! i am going out with Zach Holloway and i am so excited! i've liked him for god knows how long but i thought he didn't like me so i just kinda gave up. then on wednesday, he called me and we started going out at like 11:30 that night! it was crazy! senior graduation is sunday and it kinda upsets me cause i probably wont ever see these people again! weird thought eh? oh well i guess i will get over it. zach hasn't called me yet and i am getting frustrated but he probably isn't home anyway. eh he'll call me eventually i suppose. i was going to go see STAR WARS EPISODE THREE REVENGE OF THE SITH with cass but she cant go and i cant go so oh well. i'll live. cassie is really upset and i am waiting for her to email me but she hasn't yet so i guess i'll just go now. xoxo MiKa DoN

Nick: Nobody will leave Mika comments. To bad for fuckin' Mika. That has to suck. Somebody should leave a comment because this is her life. When she gets home she goes to the computer and just sits there waiting for someone to leave a comment and bring her spirits up out of the gutter for that brief instance and make her day. Sometimes she even gets up in the middle of the night to check and see if anyone left a comment for her just because she had a dream that someone did, but of course no one did. And then she goes to her room and crys her self to sleep. And the only reason that she even gets up in the morning is that she ahs a small glimpse of a hope in her head that she will get a comment the next day.

ya i dont have shit to do today. my little sister has to babysit at seven but i dont have anything to do. i have to clean though like always. my rooms a mess and the laundry needs doing also. i have to clean the kitchen and vaccum and such. no matter how much i clean i have to do more cause it never stays that way! well i watched my traditional marathon and the more i watch those movies, the lamer they get. they used to scare me and now its like "oh look a killer wow cool" ya it sucked. my little sister had her boyfriend over till ten thirty but i cant have guys over thats crap! well a spider bit me last night it jumped off the wall onto my arm ans sank its fangs in. well i hope it wasn't poisonous but i think if i was id be dead right now. i met some cool peeps on the computer and ya it was fun. i stayed up till like one thirty talking to them it was cool. xoxo MiKa DoN

ya well she won in my opinion not that i care as much anymore he can suck my left toe! well today this really gross guy who always touches me and i dont like it asked me out gross huh? ya i thought so too! well if you knew who i was talking about you'd be grossed out too. Troy, your gay! bam is most certainly not stupid so ha! Rachel, i just wanted to say i love you since your like the only one who reads this and writes back thank you it makes me feel good. if shes reading this HI COURTNI leave me a comment so i know you did read this like i asked you too. well today was pretty cool i mean its friday the 13 so how could it NOT be cool? well im watching the Friday the Thirteenth marathon since it is my tradition and all. my lover found his jacked guitar so i am happy for him about that little detail ya know? well id better push off so xoxo M!kA DoN

ya its kinda late but i felt like typing and i cant sleep anyway so thats a boner kill. i sent an instant message to someone in my family cause i have no idea who it is but they haven't answered me yet so that sucks too. i got really sick which is why i haven't written i couldn't really move so my diary was the farthest thing from my mind if your picking up what im putting down. i jammed my finger and it started bleeding and "it hurt real bad"-napoleon dynomite haha well next saturday i get to go to fat city in a limo for courtni's tenth b-day party so thats cool i gots to buy her a gift though. i dont know what to do about nick and frankly i dont care any more. theres only six days of school left so it dont even much matter. matt farson is the sweetest guy ever! i love that kid! ya theres alot of sweet guys in our school like kyle clark and blake horstmann and matt lineberry-my angel and colton huson and hewey and...well thats enough about them...back to me hahah no im kidding. i almost DIED last night. this black widow almost bit me and it was scary i almost cried! well i've not much left to say so later peeps! xoxo M!Ka DoN

ya so i found out the guy i like likes me too but it just doesn't seem like he does ya know?? o well i thought about giving up but all my friends told me i cant that i just need to talk to him and i tried but it didn't work out the way i had hoped. this week sucked. it was nucking futs! im really sick and i have a head ache and my throat is killing me. me and rach might go see a movie tomorrow but i need to call her so i had better do that i'll talk to y'all later! p.s. mon petit chou means my little cabbage in french! xoxo MiKa DoN!