Well this is my new sitDiary. Haven't really made a general entry yet. There is so much going on with my life and so little at the same time. There's so much because there's so many responsibilities and things to worry about. There's so little because I'm not exactly doing all that much in reality. I feel as if there is an influx of thought entering my brain at all times. I find myself feeling guilty at times because I don't have a job and I'm 18. It's not that I dont want a job, it's just that I don't think I have the time to not only go to work, but also have another thing to worry about and commit to. I can't seem to stop thinking about what I'm going to do with my life. Sometimes I just want to have a successful job that allows me to provide for a family. Other times I want to do something that will allow me to help the country or the world in some way. Either way, I'm feeling very ambitious. Recently I've been feeling like somewhat of a slothful intellectual. I feel very mentally active, and very physically inactive at the same time. My room is a complete mess. I've been meaning to clean it for several days now and haven't gotten around to it. Today, Sara and I practically sat around all day doing nothing. It was really nice. Tomorrow I'm going to have to start work on my outline, which is due tuesday. My senior research paper is due a week from then. I'm trying my best not go get senioritis.