i don't like having sex. not with you, not with anybody. but i like pleasing you. so i let you have sex with me. but i hate that you don't know i've faked every orgasm you've ever thought i've had with you. but it's not your inability to make me cum. because you're good in bed. it's that i don't find pleasure in your touch the way i feel like i should. but you do. &i like that. i masturbate for pleasure. but i have sex to feel wanted.