im laying in bed and its almost 4 in the afternoon. given-i havent been here all day. but its a neon sign that i am bumming over something..bc i dont usually just chill out in my bed. ha. boys are dumb and girls are dumber. i often get sick and tired of being sick and tired of people. in addition-shit is complicated. and it makes me confused. i dont like being confused. it makes me feel like i got everything wrong. whats going on? it just occured to me i havent seen let alone talked to my best friend in i dont even know how many days. i miss her. i need to go out and get intoxicated this weekend with my friends. i know thats such an immature way to avoid dealing with things but i need some fun to get all this chaos off my mind. i miss san francisco so much. since ive been home everything has just faded to shit. ok ok..im exagerating. but still, i feel like a poopyshit and i want someone to cheer me up. i think im going to go in my jacuzzi to relax and then take a nap. and i think im gonna read a book. i miss doing that. ♥