so, i think tonights episode of L word has been by far the most depressing and sad. i shed some tears but im fine now. i just find myself in shock wen things go from one extreme to the next i guess. everything is fine one minute and within the next everything is completely falling apart. ive noticed that the past few weeks of my life have seemed a bit off compared to that of which i am used to. i am begining to realize that its only change. change in the sense that i, myself am changing, only growing up and becoming an adult. its sort of nice though. bc in some way i believe that realizing its merely something such as change, it helps the confusion ive been having and with each day has me finding everything making a bit more sense. which in the least is very comforting. but i really should be off to sleep since i have school early in the morning. so off i go.