Why is it that i try to explain and I turn out to be the bad guy? They wanna know what im feeling. so i tell them and i get bitched at. Maybe thats why this is my only escape.. I can't tell my friends cuz you never know which ones are two-faced :'( I'm so confused right now. I say just ONE thing and its like we are in a war. no room to explain. no time to apologize. just keep everything inside. None of this happened when i did. i think about just giving up, but thats the wussy's way out. And im not a wussy (even tho some people think i might be). I will stay stong and fight till my death. Its a good thing that I know that at least a few people who still love me... And you know what I realized, even if i am SO mad at someone, i still care for them. I still care what happens to them. I still need them in my life to tell me when I'm being a complete bitch. I guess I no longer have that. Im gonna need to fend for myself from now on.