why cant i be the person i used to be? i guess once people enter your life and then abrubtly leave it can take its toll on you. you'd think after so many years that i would be over it. i guess for the most part i am, but in some ways im not. maybe the ways in which i am not are ways that can help me be a person that i want to be. but i dont think i am the person that i want to be or that i once was. i want faith, i wasnt something to believe in. but the way my life has gone and the things that have taken thier toll on me.... maybe faith isnt something thats cut out for a person like me.. but what kind of person exactly is that? i really am not quite sure and im not really sure that i know what it takes to find that out...it seems like i used to be so happy. but then again thinking back on it my happiness then did not suffice either. but maybe one day i will look back upon this day and think to myself that i seemed to be so happy then or now..but what if that day never comes? what if i am just stuck in this everyday its the same thing life. when will things look up for me? i know i have many things going my way and i should be happy but maybe i just wont give myself the chance to be.maybe i think too much, maybe i look too far into things...i dont know. ---jessica at 18..

okay...wow it has been a while. well Clinton and I have just gotten back from our 4-day vacation to Fairhope. It was Breath-takingly amazing!... i enjoyed myself so much. here are some pictures to tell about my trip... driving there took so0o long... me awe-struck at my very first visit to cracker barrel us in front of the Chamber I think this picture is so0 g00d...it makes me realize how much i cherish and love the time i spend with him...he makes each day something to look foward to. Motor Cycle..(I wonder if thats two words) Shop me at the beach in my *SNOW-BOOTS* hehe i think this one is funny, i think he took it of himself... both of us at the beach clinton eating ICE-CREAM! *XOXO*

Clinton and I went to the mountains today...it was amazing..it was one of the things that you would think would only happen in a movie.. it was just so0 incredibaly awesome and we took pictures (suprise, suprise right?) HA well i just though that i would share my experience with all of you clinton sitting on a tree i like this picture becuase he looks kind of goofy! the pretty sunset...and of course clinton makes the picture absolutly amazing.. me watching the sun go down isnt this gorgeous?? Is it not amazing to think that our creator made something to be so beautiful? and what not more beautiful than the depth and beauty of our souls?...God made each of our souls so unique and wonderful and i believe that i am so0 blessed to know that...and i hope that each and every other beautiful soul out there discovers this and tries hard to realize it too. well that was touched on a little more than i intended..but when you feel it...write it.. later [j.LaurEn]

hello every one! so today i decided to try some color contacts...i got green ...im dissapointed... i didnt really see much of a change, but here are the before and after shots that my lovely mother took for me... this i before... this is after, they arent fitted to my eye yet so they kind of slide down so0 it l00ks a little g00fy... just tell me what you think

hello everyone, i have never really written an entry in here, its mostly been pictures. i guess taking pictures plays a large roll in my life. i guess i think that pictures can say a thousand more things than words can. ive been a member at sitD for a while now but just decided to get a new diary and start over just like my life has started over. ive made many changes since i last wrote in sitD which i think was sometime back in 03..(?) but they are, i feel, canges for the better and im proud of the person that i am and i think that it is awesome that i can now say that!...well more from me later -ME

hehe mor3 pictures!! *ha* me being the super cool kid that i am! leila nd muh sistah! hehe...i made pizza!...and it was G00D 2! aww...sarah says it looks like i have bug eyes in this one...:(...well i guess i sort of do... we take such cool pictures i sware! ha...eric thinks i look high in this one...but i dont think so i think its cute! yay! i love this one and dont care what you think i love it!...im a vampire!! yea so0 thats it!! AUREVOIR! jess

yea i took more pictures so0 i thought i would put them in here since i cant really think of anything else to say...haha.. so0 yea here they are.. haha i like this one cuz i think my eyes look cool...not trying to sound conceited.. ha, i kicked him in the face. aww...this is clinton after i ACCIDENTALLY kicked him in uh...the balls...i felt SO0O0O0 bad yea...this is me getting ready...i didnt know he was talking the pic so0 i look really gay... isnt this one good!...HA! i took it myself, it was one of those timed ones clinton and his cool laugh b/c i was tickling him with my foot me talking on my cool phone..ha! J/K...i HATE that phone.. aww i just think this is cute! yea i LOVE to take pics so0 you probaly see a lot of them on here! yea so0 BYE! j3sS!

hey guys.. here are some pics from Christmas Eve.. see...we reallt arent weird...we just act like this sometimes! me and victoria madison i love this picture of him...i think he looks so0 adorable ha*..i like this one just because i look so0 stupid! im waiting for my kisS ha*. this one explains itself! *w0W* and thats it!! merRy ChristmaS evEry one!! bye-JL-

i decided to put a few pictures in here because i think that they can describe me and my life far better that words so... this is me being famous...haha what an imagination i have... bungeeee!! this is me and sarah M. at the beach...i love the beach... this is my sister...shes cute!...ADMIT IT! uhmm...my teeth?..uh dont ask.. weeeeeeeeeee!!!!...i LOVE doing stuff like this! me and sarah and tj at cool harrison.. clinton...aww!...hes laying in my lap! yes...im a CALI dreamer! sarah...shes so0 cute! PE@CE out dawg! sarah...stuffing her face! i can surf i swear!! yea i guess thats it!...think of them what you want!

everyday its the same thing another trend has begun its a race to be noticed and its leaving us numb with all of our fashion we're still incomplete the God of redemption could break our routine where is our inspiration when all of the heros have gone and nobody's famous and nobodys fine we all need forgivness and we're longing inside your throwing your love across to my impossible space you've created me, take me out of me! now let redemption begin...