OK so… I tried writing yesterday, but it was such a long entry that when I hit the “OK” button it timed out. I was pretty pissed off. Anywho, again I have a lot to write. What I wrote yesterday has no meaning now because I talked to Rick about it. Rick is my boyfriend… or at least I call him that. We’ve been seeing each other for 3 weeks, and have seen each other almost every night, so I’ll just call him my boyfriend. He’s perfect =D He’s weird like myself, and he calls me beautiful even when I’m not wearing any make up and I feel like crap. But I’m not going to gush about him anymore since I’m sure Steph will be reading this and making noises of disgust even though I had to listen to her gush about Logan =P Hmm… what else is new? Oh, Matt keeps calling me. He actually called me last night but I was in the shower… and I didn’t feel the need to call him back. He somehow manages to talk for an hour without actually saying anything haha. I wanted to stay friends, but it kind of seems like he wants more. But I asked him on the net and he said he just wanted to be friends… so that’s good I guess. As for that Kevin guy, he texted me the other week when I was with Rick. And he had the fucking nerve to say “Question, what did I do wrong that you just stopped talking to me?” Hahaha, I laughed at him in the text I sent back. And I informed him that I had texted him plenty of times but he never answered. He then tried to tell me he was going through a “rough time” and that he felt bad for what happened between us because he really like me… *uses finger to trigger gag reflex* What bullshit. I don’t care though, I’m happy with Mr. Howard. K so, I’m going to gush about him anyway, Steph stop reading if you don’t care. He’s so cool, and smart. It amazes me how much we have in common. Which is a complete opposite because Matt and I had very little in common. Rick doesn’t do drugs (which is rare to find these days), he plays guitar (and is way better than me L), and he likes Kurt Cobain. Its nice to be able to have intelligent conversations for once, and talk about things that not every one really knows about. And he has the best nook, you know when you snuggle up to them under their arm while they’re holding you? His is the best, because he always smells good and I feel so safe in the nook =)… and he laughed at me because of what I call it haha. He also liked my word “mitties”, as in man titties. Ya I thought it was pretty awesome too… good ol’ times on the bus with Steph. I have also been playing guitar A LOT more, like 2 hours a days if not more. I’m getting pretty good again since I had quit playing everyday. Rick makes me angry because if I can’t get a song, he’s just like, “oh its this easy” and plays it lol. Well, my eyes kind of hurt, so I’m going to go now and I’ll try writing more often for those people that find my life interesting to read about haha, just kidding. Love, Peace, Empathy -- Kelsey

So, again it has been a long time since I wrote... honestly I don't have much patience for the internet anymore. Since its been such a long time lots of shit has happened. Where to start... Well... I graduated on June 29, 2006 and then I started working on July 4. I so wanted to have a wicked summer with my friends, but that didn't happen because I started working full time. I was living with my auntie and cousin for about two months, and now I'm living with my friend in an apartment. Living with my aunt and Steph was fun, but I hated how Steph and I fought all the time. We are closer than ever now since we live not with eachother, and only about 20 minutes away from eachother. I see her daily and she's my best friend. Moving out was hard though, especially when I was going back every weekend and having to say goodbye all the time. I like having my own place and not having to deal with the bullshit in that little hellhole called Beausejour. How come it seems that everyone there never grows up and is all about the gossip? I even saw one girl who heard the right story but changed it anyway. Get your fucking story straight!!!! It is coming up to my 18th birthday which is on the 16th. My birthday isn't even here yet and I can almost gaurantee that its ruined. My friend Danny's birthday is on the 17th, but she's turning 19. She's already had her big night, but she said that half the people she's inviting don't want to go where I want to go. SUCK IT UP PRINCESSES! You're how old? like 23? Anywho, I'm going to go to the place where I want to go, and who ever wants to join me for my big night is more than welcome, and I'm not going to ask them to choose favorites. Go to whose ever party you want to. I brought my cat to my apartment this past weekend. I missed her so much, and she broke my heart when I first brought her here. She was so unhappy and wouldn't stop hiding. But she's running around and sort of playing with Justina's cat now. I broke up with Matt in August... which I should have done long before that. It got to the point that he didn't even care anymore. And I was seeing a guy named Kevin but I haven't seen him in more than two weeks and I haven't talked to him in over a week. So whatever, his loss. I'm done with guys that don't give a shit. However, I have been talking to a man of the name Nick Sullivan. He makes my heart jump when I think about him and he makes me smile every time we talk. He calls me babes and says *muah* all the time. I just wish he lived closer, because we would have an amazing relationship. And it makes me angry how all the guys that are worth my time live so far away. And even when I think I've found somebody they fuck off and say they're busy or they just stop talking to me. Make up your fucking minds little boys! I'm sick of men, but I'm so lonely at the same time. So the job that I started, is in a law firm. I started out as the mail room girl and doing bitch work. Like delivering mail in the morning, and delivering faxes and mail brought in by couriers during the day. I would come in in the morning and get the coffee cups from the dishwasher and put them back in the cupboard, and make coffee for the lawyers and support staff. That really sucked. But now I am part of the summation department :D oh yea... big title lol. I number documents and scan them, enter them into the database and then enter data on them. Like the date, author, recipient, etc.. It gets kind of boring, but its better than waitressing or working in McDonald's. But before I became part of summation I was reception for the 11th floor which was really boring because barely anyone comes down there. They also never gave me work so I just talked on msn all day. Met lots of friends on rmb that way haha. I now do reception on the 12th floor while the main receptionist is on lunch, or sick, or has to go to the bathroom. I love the place that I work but I don't like my job that much. Today I was closing files and photocopying parts of and affidavit, which made the day pass really fast. well that's enough for tonight.. I will really try to write more since I'm on the computer every day, all night. Peace, Love, Empathy... Kelsey

It's been a while since I wrote. I tried writing earlier today and it was along entry and then I press save and I didn't realize that my internet had disconnected and it deleted it:(. Things are going are good with Matt. We have rocky patches, but we fix them and talk about it. It's weird because we've been going out a little longer than 9 months and we haven't had a bad fight. We have arguments but we just talk about it, and they last like maybe a couple hours. I got into a huge fight with one of my 'friends'. She wasn't that nice anyways, so I don't really mind. Ever since she's been dating this guy she turned into a complete bitch. Just because he's older, she thinks she's the shit now and thinks that she's more mature than us. But I really don't feel like typing it out all over again, so yeah... and now I gotta restart my computer... hopefully write again soon.

Im so friggin mad right now.... well i was. My brother's dog Zeus got away, i went to put him on his chain outside, and it didn't clip so he ran away. I SPENT 40 FUCKING MINUTES CHASING THE FUCKING THING ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!!! i was literally so mad, i was crying. But anywho, my weekend was good. Matt came out on saturday, and we went to a party. He told me that one of his auntie's who doesn't live in this province, wants him to move out there. And when he told me this i just leaned into him and whispered into his ear, "Don't ever leave me", he jsut held me so close. I don't know what I would do if he left me. But I didn't really have that much of an exciting weekend other wise. I went country drinking with my two friends. Which I didn't know that the driver was drunk when they came to get me, i wouldn't have gone. But it turned out fun anyways. So that's it for now Kel-Baby

I don't get to see my boy tomorrow night... :'( he's going to the bar with his buddies. My dad went for an angiogram today (a medical procedure that looks inside the heart to tell how clogged the arteries are). I had the worst feeling when i was sitting in class this morning. I thought what if something goes wrong?? i can't even think about the rest. but i'm going to write in my real diary... 0º°¯Kel-Baby¯°º0 ps. when i say be over... i'm talking about tomorrow, i wanna see my machew

My dad and I have pet pidgeons, about 62 of them, and yesterday a hawk came and a whole bunch of pidgies hit the windows, one died, and now 12 are missing and my pretty baby pidgy is missing :'(. I hope she comes back cause she is so pretty... *sigh*. They might be hiding in trees but most of them came back, i just hope she's ok and that fucking hawk didn't get them.

I am so bored right now and i miss my boyfriend. I actually did one of my online courses todya, only four more to go. I almost want to go back to school where i'll see my friends everyday again and not sit at home doing nothing. I'm almost scared to graduate, cause then all my girls are going to drift apart, except for me, age, and justina... i think we'll all stay in touch. But me and matt will prolly move in together... and ill have a job... hopefully working at a clothing store WWOOOOOOO! discounts!! lmao, but im gonna go

Today is mine and matt's 7 months. The other i had a dream that matt said he was leaving to , "Go pick the berries to make wine and that he knew he had to leave and he didn't want a relationship except i came along." I told him about the dream and he was like yeah, "5 more months and i have to go pick berries." lol. it mad me sad and laugh and the same time. I love matt so much that i wanna marry him in the future, but not yet cause im only 17, but anywho. I didn't talk to him much today cuase he went snowboarding and he didn't get back until right before i called him. I was thinking about how one of my friends bitches about not hanging out with our group anymore, and i realized that i don't as much as i used to but more that her. She doesn't even hang out with us on our spare, which we all have together. She just goes home for spare and for lunch and everything, and she goes with her boyfriend on weekends, which i do too, but i don't leave them at school when i could be spending time with them... it just makes me mad how she bitches about it when she can do something about it. but im really tired, it's 1:55am. I have work to do tomorrow on my online course., which should've been done like a week ago or two. lmao. but im going to maybe right in my real diary.... love peace and chicken grease (for those of you who have seen the pest, you know what im talking about lmao)

My new years was good. I went to a hotel with my boyfriend, my brother and his gf and our friends brandi and tyler. We found a girl sleeping on the floor outside the elevators lmao, so we carried her to what we thought was her room, but i don't think it was. But then we were downstairs and she came stumbling out of the elevator carrying her keys... so i sure as hell hope that she didn't drive. But yeah, im hoping that the new year will be a good year. "I saw a UFO once, it was large and round with great big yellow letter... it told me i was going to have a good year...... wait a minute..... that was a bad year," lmao.. that 70's show. any who. there were a couple of first times last night, which i won't write about, but they were awesome :D.. lol we went to the holiday inn, and me and matt said we were visiting and if they asked we were going to tell them that our ride didn't come get us and that we live in the country and not in the city... which is true cause i don't live in the city. But i just thought that i would update my diary for those of you people who actually read it. Sometimes I wish that i could write like Carrie Bradshaw does in Sex in the City. AND AGE AND DEVIN ARE GOING OUT AGAIN!!!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR HER BUT HE'S LEAVING to go into the army when he graduates so she's gonna get hurt, But im going to go

I had a good weekend. My boy came out. My birthday is in 5 freakin' days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every thing with me and that girl with the 'man-friend' is good. We're friends again, well not like we weren't but we fixed things. i don't have anything really to talk about so yeah.

The other night my friend met this dude who is into her, but that's all she friggin talks about. It's annoying as hell :@. i know you can't see emoticons, but w/e. I had a good day and went to the doctors... renewed my prescription. And in art class we had a pretty sexy sub. He had a nice bum.

Today i broke my nail. I know that sounds really valleygirlish but they finally got nice and long and even. lmao. but i had a good night with my boyfriend. I didn't see him on friday night but we danced at the party we went to. I got drunk as a skunk! man i barely remember how i got home! lol. yeah, i love dancing and i some some indian hitting on me lol. then my boyfriend started talking to him in a native accent and the guy got all mad but my boyfriend is native, lol. then i broke up a fight and there was blood flying. that's my weekend! tata

my woods teacher is so friggin' stupid. he smells like cabbage and is british so you can't really understand everything that comes out of his mouth. Like one day he was sayng 'bandsaw' and I thought he was saying 'pencil'. lol it was the funniest thing ever. But anywho, he doesnt really know what the hell he's talking about cause for the first couple of weeks of school us students had to show him how most of the machinery worked. oh deary. but anyways my day was ok. so that's it i guess

Today was interesting... I had a very annoying substitute teacher for art class, man she was stupid! she like wrote down every move everyone made. Like I was playing solitaire on the computer cause i was done, and she came up to me and wrote down my name, and what i was doing and why i was doing it. GRR!!! But anywho! i went out for supper with ma faja (that would be my dad for those of you who haven't seen austin powers). I got some really cool mittens. So yeah, that's pretty much my day. I unno... ttyl

OMG!! i actually figured out how to make it ok looking!! lol. I'll make it so snazzy you won't believe your eyes!! lmao. well ttyl

Hey what's up whoever reads this. I had an account before but i kinda fergot the password. lol.